/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

>>44024734
>oshi said they loved me while drunk
I know I shouldn't take it seriously but still...

>>43638723
My oshi remembering things I say and giving me a nickname has done immeasurable psyche damage to me.

>>42772347
>people that want to be friendly but have nothing to actually say
Coming up with things is hard. I don't want to waste their time.

>Clauvio's tweet about missing old viewers
>the vtubers in the replies sharing the sentiment
I'm one of those viewers for a lot of them, but I still like and cheer for them. I don't want to be a source of sadness.

>>41289768
>oh, anon DM'd me again
>doesn't he get his fill spamming my chat and Discord?
>does he think we're friends because he subs or something? creep

>>39661247
>chat a lot
>do all these things
>feel like an annoyance more than a good chatter

I think I've fallen too deep into the parasocial simp hole, but now my oshi's actively encouraging me and it's not helping.

>>28252980
Imagine expecting your oshi to enjoy your existence

>want to see my oshi succeed and find happiness
>don't want her to reincarnate and lose everything she worked for on her own
>don't want to be forgotten and lost in a sea of new fans

>>25389215
Sounds accurate enough

I just want my oshi to be happy bros. And I'll do whatever it takes to help out.
I want all the chuubas to be happy and find friendship or more, since that's what so many of them started out for.
>>23767319
She doesn't act particularly close with any of her viewers. That'd have to be some good acting all this time, or a dedicated lurker. Good on her and the viewer if that ever happened, though.

I accepted long ago that I'm probably not important to my oshi besides what I give her, and she'll forget about me if she ever gets really big or decides to graduate.
Sometimes it's nice to hope that she cares beyond that, or that we could be friends at the end, but it's better to be realistic.

I thought my oshi barely put up with me, but others think I'm one of her favorites and I don't know what to believe anymore.

I don't want to groom my oshi or be a distinguished viewer or have discord sex with anyone. I just want to be friends.

>>7073857
I feel like such a chump but I don't want her to forget my name with her goldfish memory
>>7074091
Some mix of her health issues catching up to her and her wanting to work on other things that vtubing interferes with.

>>6948050
I miss her so much

I'm starting to want to make a twitch account just to say hi.
It wasn't supposed to be like this. I only peeked in because I like dark souls and horror games.