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>>47418084
That's good to hear, she could offer you so much to learn...

>>47146087 >>47146405 >>47146491

>I had planned to make one only much later on, but I got pulled into 10 different directions at once and never got around making any kind of proper summary of the previous thread

Exactly the kind of stuff I was talking about with my earlier first point, I’ll be the first to admit that I was certainly Eager to jump at the signs of this one coming but I really didn’t want to Forcefully push things much. Looks like it needed to get started anyways so I’m just happy to still be here in the end.

>And if you become able to some extent perceive the spirits, you might in fact start to recontextualize some old dreams that were recurring or felt very significant

On that note, here’s another small dream story from me (one of Many I got, trust me) that I hopefully shouldn’t have to elaborate on much:

Shortly before I even had Any idea of coming back to this (no offense to some of the anons here) semi-accursed site after swearing off it/my time on other boards for years for the sake of Getting Better, I had a short dream involving me casually strolling through an elaborate, heavily-corridorred mall of sorts.

I often end up in similarly-labyrinthine building-like environments as reflective representations of me literally strolling through my subconscious, but this time I decided to stop at a quaint-looking games & trinkets shop filled with a small bunch of children. The store wasn’t really geared towards them mind you (tiled checker floors, plain blueish walls, simple wood shelving, etc.), there was just a gaggle of them for some reason.

I wandered in, looking over the various board games and such on display until I stumbled upon a personally fun one, all-the-while getting side-eyed by these fucking lingering kids. My own public anxiety aside, my dreams aren’t normally this Antagonistic in nature by default and I’m only college-aged fwiw. Furthermore, on my way to the front counter to check out what I grabbed I was stopped by three little twerps calling me various slurs while chuckling I’d hate to echo here at the moment. Pretty sure I got so disheartened & annoyed I left what I had found and strolled back into the darkened tiled halls only to wake shortly thereafter; this isn’t even to mention who was behind the counter in the first place. Seemingly the only other actual adult besides myself in that store as far as I saw, an older blonde woman with her generous amounts of hair tied back in a ducktail of some kind with a red ribbon and narrowed violet eyes passively watching me (dressed in-uniform for the store funnily enough, just simple grey apparel with a snap-back).

Needless to say, I’d hopefully like to hold on to what I’ve found this time despite what I may encounter thank you very much.

>There is some constant latent fear of the kami being somehow angry or disappointed with me or that I am getting bamboozled by something

I struggle with this quite a lot myself as well actually! I think it’s a very understandable response that was well commentated on by >>47146444(lol). Learning to Act in the face of that while keeping an eye out for the right kind of reassurance, even in very basic ways, is always one of the first steps.

>I also feel like some weird latent paranoia and inability to fully accept that yeah, good things can actually happen, is getting in the way at this point

I can talk more about it later if anyone shows interest, but one of the core takeaways I have from my divination session during the solstice is that these kinds of self-destructive doubtful feelings (beyond ones with fair degrees of rationality that is) will Absolutely get in the way of your sense of furthering that expression. I’ve really Really been trying to accept that a more positive future for myself truly is out there, lo and behold I’m beginning to see some light at the end of this tunnel! You can do this.

By the way, if I may also press for any appropriate details, what were some of the more particularly-interesting Hitches you experienced during those 33 days (if you haven’t elaborated on such elsewhere already that is)? I’m curious~ I’m also going to take a stab at a sketch of what that “uncanny” Ran looked like in your dream when I can at some point because I Feel Like It, just putting that out there now.