/jp/ - Otaku Culture

>>10908107
>>10908112

Was treated since 8 years old for depression (Prozac) after parents separated (violently, dad was a drunk), my mom kept taking me to my families houses and told me my dad was going to kill us if he found us, I stepped in glass when they used to fight all the time and they had to pull it out. They fought in front of me constantly. I wouldn't whine about this shit except for the fact that apparently at 8 years old after seeing this shit, I was depressed / anxious simply due to a "Chemical Imbalance"

Stopped eating for 4 weeks at 9 admitted to hospital (Barium swallows - turned up negative), finally resumed eating and did a 180.

Turned suicidal at 10 (ripsiridone, trazadone), dropped out of school at 13, (given benzos - Clonazapam then Lorazepam) at around 13-15 (I can't remember),I can't remember a large chunk of this time due to being on like 3.5mg of clonazapam a day (apparently this was "fine" under 18 because I was a fat fuck and "large for his age")

I only lost the weight 2 years ago when I started walking up an down my stairs tons of times a day, now I am 180~lb, but low muscle mass.

I was diagnosed as having GAD and Agoraphobia w/ panic (probably brought on by the benzos, god damn it)


pic related, I just took it down a few months ago when I snapped back into reality and noticed I had all my childhood toys and posters in my room still.

>>10574129
but...but I still have my childhood nirvana posters up and stickers from a radio station that went down in 2001.