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>Troubled over how to feel over the accomplishment and messaging her mother about eating Shirako(02:15:20)
She gets a bit somber and says she wants to stream since she doesn't feel like she has streamed enough right now, and asks if there isn't someone who can let her stream. She is then about to say something negative resulting from today, but stops herself and says that it is nothing. Pekora is the type that doesn't say anything but positive things after all, and reflects on that if she says it then everyone will wonder if she is alright, so she won't say it, but she does say in vague terms that this thing called life is difficult isn't it.

She can't really shake it off and says that she is getting moody which reminds her to message her mother about wanting Shirako* around the time the stream is done, the chat wonders why Shirako and she says that it was a long time ago she had some, and since her mother bought some she wants to eat it, it being the season for Shirako too after all. It seems that she bought some at a fish store before the stream and happily told Pekora like so; "Peko-chan, peko-chan, we have some Shirako!", unfortunately it was just around the time for her to stream so she couldn't eat it right away so her mother asked if she'd eat it after the stream and she agreed to that.
She also told her mother she'd like to eat it tempura made but her mother told her that it is difficult, usually Pekora eats it made in butter and onions sauce but she felt like she wanted to eat it tempura made with some salt. She gets a "Peko peko peko" emote as a response pretty fast so Pekora says that it seems like she is watching the stream.

The chat asks what the previous conversation was all about, and she asks if they mean that bit where she said life was difficult and such? She tries to explain it in the sense that after the nousagi has accomplished something big, the afterglow you receive from that isn't it something they want to enjoy, to treasure or something along those lines? Like a bittersweet kind of feeling, like wondering what to feel about the situation. She realizes that it might be difficult to understand and that it might not convey properly but that's fine too, since it might be different from person to person.
So in regards "feeling an afterglow" she feels that it is difficult, like thinking if it is only her thinking in this way. They ask if she is feeling burnout syndrome and she denies it, saying that it isn't at all that she feels like her drive is gone but rather that it is similar to a feeling of wanting to "Go to bed feeling this good" or otherwise spend the day immersed in this feeling.
She reiterates that it is fairly difficult to understand what she means and that she was just troubling herself a bit over a feeling like that, but she doesn't really understand it and apologizes for being unclear since she won't be saying what it is all about anyways.

Clarification: What she is trying to do is use similarities and likeness to describe the feeling she is feeling rather than outright say what it is, hence the conversation turning into this vague mess and also why she apologizes for bringing it up in the first place.

*Cod sperm sac. Yes really.

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