Repent and confess your sins.

[Anonymous No.]

Repent and confess your sins.

[Anonymous No.]

I own three dakis of three different vtubers and I change oshis like the wind and think I might be a whore I guess

[Anonymous No.]

I don't watch vtubers. I just want to watch a big company called ninisani to burn

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
For all the fans and anti alike, I'm really sorry for all I have done. I'm leaving very soon, just wait for a little bit.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69423026
Hi Elira, leave faster.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I fapped to Sakura Miko lewds

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422998
It's dakimakura.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69423026
Don't be too hard on yourself. Lessons learned. Try to do better in the future, be on guard for bad people and bad influences, and keep moving onwards and upwards.

[Anonymous No.]

I don't watch niji, just masturbate to some of the talents feet

[Anonymous No.]

>>69423172
For plural I think it should be dakimakurii or even dakimakuræ

[Anonymous No.]

>>69423026
Please be Mumei.

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>>69422930
Used to be a huge fan of Nenechi, almost never missed a stream and I would always talk about her on twitter and on the hololive threads in /jp/ despite the existence of the gen 5 schizo, joined NenePro just right after memberships opened, even sent her akas every now and then
But one day I stopped coming to her streams, out of boredom. I just got tired of watching her and I don't really think it's her fault at all
I just hope I didn't leave that big of an impression and just forgot about me

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>>69423284
dakimakuræÆÆHHHH?

[Anonymous No.]

I watch 3 viewer streams so I can talk to girls and nothing more ._.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69423740
She probably spared five seconds of thought total on you, anon. At worst, she's relieved to have one less gachi to keep tabs on.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I enjoy watching my oshi

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>>69422930
Forgive Lord, for I am /here/

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>>69422930
I miss the time I was infatuated with my former oshi more than anything she’s actually done then or since.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I regularly listen to the ai audios

[Anonymous No.]

I alluded to Mumei's rm once.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I want to see the Holo ladies get handeld by multiple shotas.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I laugh my ass off at Pippa's streams and would get canceled if I talked about it on main. She reminds me of 90s comedians I grew up watching that would not be allowed to exist today. I hope someday we can all stop figuring out ways to hate one another and just laugh with one another

[Anonymous No.]

>>69426131
You monster. Get out of here now, you're excommunicatus traitoris.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I confess that I'm obsessed with fwmc incest fantasies

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I still quite like Lumi even though I don't watch her any more.

[Anonymous No.]

I support elira even more after she came out to be the awful person I always knew she was, evil women make me insanely hard and the idea of submitting to her is amazing

[Anonymous No.]

I take out my frustrations over my former oshi on my present oshi's split.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69427964
based

[Anonymous No.]

>>69427936
holy based

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I left vtubing a year and a half ago because I was starting to become a PARASOCIAL FUCK with my oshi and I thought being parasocial was retarded. So I decided to just leave chuubas altogether, I recently came back and started to watch my old oshi again and I am just in love with this girl,I can't help it. It makes me feel dirty and guilty, I don't want these feelings. I know it's wrong.

[Anonymous No.]

lucky me, needed one of these threads as an excuse today.
i can't stop masturbating to my little sister, it's been this way for a while and nothing else compares to it, nothing else satisfies me as much
to be fair, that's not my sin, it's really not what i'm ashamed of.
what i am ashamed of, is that i might have unconsciously influenced her into acting more like the chuubas i like, she's turned more into a kusogaki than i ever expected her to be, i know it's my fault for not hiding my autistic interests and allowing her to watch phase connect, but at the same time it makes me absolutely fucking diamonds when she acts like a bratty brocon, i'm sorry lumi sama....

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>>69423244
same also I need to rape that pretty boy Mashiro RIGHT NOW

[Anonymous No.]

>>69430393
Ride the tiger and go full creep until her mask slips, then hop on the anti wagon. We have booze and cigs.

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>>69422930
My oshi doesn't do anywhere near enough ASMR, so I've been thinking about making an RVC clone of her voice and using the tts add-on to make her read scripts to fill the several month gaps between those streams. If it turns out well, I'm going to have her say all the sweet things no one's ever said to me. Probably going to make coomer ASMR with it as well.

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>>69430916
She doesn't even do gfe or anything like that, I wouldn't anti her if she had a bf or whatever, the same way I wouldn't anti a girl I have a crush on irl for having a bf. It wouldn't surprise me if she had one desu, but that's just another reason not to get parasocial.
Really it's just that hearing her get excited for all the projects she's doing, the way she talks and laughs. Idk it reminds me of when my ex used to talk to me about her interests. Maybe they were things I didn't really give a fuck about otherwise, but just listening to her having fun and getting excited over things makes me happy, in a way that makes me go "I want to marry this girl".
It really feels wrong but I can't help it...

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>>69430429
kiss your sister

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>>69431477
Nothing about what you're experiencing is a coincidence. This industry relies of fostering that sort of obsessive infatuation with the "talent" and managing fan expectations and cravings. She's not marriage material, she's a whore of a viper that sank her fangs in you. Treat her as such until you get bored of her and move on.

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>>69431643
we do sometimes it embarrasses her a lot

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>>69430429
May God have mercy on your soul, Anon. Great heavens, I genuinely hope you change for the better. I used to masturbate to my older cousin a lot, when I was a teenager, and I am glad she has forgiven me after all those years.
I genuinely think there is a way out for you, you just need stay determined.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69431913
i tried already and then she immediately endorsed me to jack off to her again i don't have the strength to stop, i'm not sure i even want to stop

[Anonymous No.]

>>69432069
>she immediately endorsed me to jack off to her again
what the fuck kind of relationship do you have

[Anonymous No.]

>>69431692
I guess so. What's weird is I watched chuubas for a while before she debuted and never developed parasocial feelings before then, it was just funny anime girls doing funny shit. I guess no chuuba I came across was my type or something lol

[Anonymous No.]

>>69432126
A ficticious one.
This is fake and gay

[Anonymous No.]

>>69432126
have you ever watched the himemiya rie video where she starts fantasizing about an older brother? it's a bit like that now, it used to be manageable and i thought i had it under control but by the time i realized she was a genuine menhera it was too late

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>>69422930
I used to watch a lot of Holos but got disillusioned with them when I kept browsing /vt/. For the longest time I kept trying to watch them but it just wasn't the same they are all just so boring now.
I used to shit on Phase for being Phase, but I gave them a chance and I grew to love their chuubas so much.

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>>69432069
Even if you do not believe in yourself, I will never lose faith in you, Anon. I am almost sure it was either porn or loneliness- Or both- that pushed you towards such actions. Take heart, and remind yourself you are far above such perversive actions. In situations like these, many of us confuse familial love for romantic love.
I truly mean it when I say it, but I believe in you Anon <3 (Without homoeroticism.)

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>>69432130
That's more or less what I experienced. A year straight of watching chuubas, including GFE ones, and feeling nothing. But then this actual autist comes along, and I'm deeply in love with her.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I mostly agree with the things unicorns say but I still shit on them for being completely delusional and schizoid

[Anonymous No.]

>>69432309
>I am almost sure it was either porn or loneliness- Or both- that pushed you towards such actions.
you didn't have to make me cry like that anonchama.. being so truthful can sting a little

[Anonymous No.]

>>69432069
Sounds fake but still hot tho ngl desu

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>>69431913

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>>69432482
I am speaking from experience, mostly.

[Anonymous No.]

I never jerk off to chuba asmr stream (include r18 asmr)

[Anonymous No.]

>>69432230
Average Hime viewer.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69432356
Yeah and it took me a while to realize I was being parasocial with her. Now I don't know if I should indulge for while or just leave again, I certainly don't want to leave, but you know.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69432484
i sleep with her because she has insomnia otherwise, that night i told her i wasn't going to do it but then she started describing how good it'd feel if i stained her while she was asleep
i think i'm going to follow watamelon's advice and just not sleep with her anymore and pray she doesn't do something even worse to me

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>>69432668
>i think i'm going to follow watamelon's advice and just not sleep with her anymore
Galaxy brain solution.

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>>69422930
I feel like I betrayed Fuwamoco's trust because I'm suspecting they don't love equally as other ruffians. I've been seeing patterns of favoritism, and I'm feeling guilty about myself for thinking those aren't coincidences.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69432605
warukunai yo ne

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>>69432654
I think I was fairly aware of what was going on in my case. It's extremely rare that I feel anything for anyone, though, so I went along with it. If she makes you happy, and she seems to enjoy your presence as a viewer, I don't see any reason to discard the relationship.

[Anonymous No.]

Over time I warmed up to homostars, I guess they are ok, don't want them near chuubas I like eitherway...also I stopped watching most of the streams and watch *sigh* clips instead, because it's too much investment otherwise, both time and emotion, I also realized that I enjoy more being dramafag here than actually caring about some chuuba, that won't care about their audiences. I can recognize some good vtubers, but that doesn't mean I'm gonna watch them, I have better shit to do, like play games and watch anime, when I was a NEET I would watch streamers all the time, now they are just so fucking boring.

[Anonymous No.]

I recently found a website called clips4sale and it's full of some of the darkest and hyper specific fetish porn you can possibly think of. I keep purchasing audios of adult women pretending they're molesting the viewer as a child because it reminds me of what happened to me growing up.

I don't know what's wrong with me and I don't know why I like this stuff. Keep in mind it's not CP. it's basically like those asmr roleplays.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69433026
>because it reminds me of what happened to me growing up.
>I don't know what's wrong with me
Hmm, I wonder what could it be.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
wtf Lumi is christian ???

[Anonymous No.]

>>69433242
Not currently, but she grew up as a church girl.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69432668
How old even is she? Sixteen? Fifteen? And how old are you?

[Anonymous No.]

I hate watching lives, I just watch clips (but sometimes I leave the live open on mute )

[Anonymous No.]

>>69433129
Yeah but like why do I like it? This stuff has tormented me for years yet for some reason I'm paying money to relive it

[Anonymous No.]

>>69433242
Airi is the only confirmed Christian in PC

[Anonymous No.]

I have strange feeling of envy over my chuubas having alot of trauma
I've been taught all my life that trauna makes people cool and strong to have and overcome and mother always told me i can't have any becuase i'm a spoiled brat becuase no one has it worse than her
She'd spank and hit and yell and threaten me but she was nice very nice too so i have no pain
I have no pain and i'm weak now becuase of it
My chuubas are strong becuase they experienced alot of childhood trauma
I hate that they're so kind and i'm so angry, i pray at times that their kindness is fake, i want them to be hateful and mean and find us pathethic for having struggles and being sad despite being so spoiled
Gym doesnt work college doesnt work sex doesnt work
I schizo in threads so i can imagine the mean comments are from my chuubas so i can masturbate to them hating me
I need an oshi who is mean to me and calls me pathethic and is honest and doesnt try to validate my feelings or trauma

[Anonymous No.]

>>69430429
fuck your sister

[Anonymous No.]

>>69433648
Anything vaguely sexual that happens in childhood can imprint itself on your brain. I "played doctor" or something a couple of times with neighbour girls at 5, and I still have a bunch of kinks it gave me. It didn't even impress me much back then, I was mostly like whatever. But brain stores all that stuff and reworks it into fetish material.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69434113
God Anon, I am sorry that happened to you... That said, I am glad to see you are coping well.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69433458
she's 18 and i'm 22
>>69434048
i'm absolutely terrified of going that far

[Anonymous No.]

>>69434181
Well honestly I'm not complaining. It's all rather mild, and it's not like I was abused, we were all roughly the same age and it was all rather innocent.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69434266
I am glad to hear that.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69434211
We know where this is going whether you want it or not. Go buy some condoms.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69434398
Good to see anon giving responsible advice.

[Anonymous No.]

Nothing to confess at the moment, I just wanted you all to know that my dog died last night and I’m feeling a little lost right now.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69434490
LET'S GOOOOO

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>>69434211
If you are terrified of going that far, it does mean you don't want this, even if mostly subconsciously. I tell you now, my good man, stop this madness whilst you are able. You may have gone far, and your sister may be against you here, but I am assured you will persevere. May God guide you, Anon, and may you find redemption you seek.

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>>69423332

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>>69422998
Die.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69434398
>whether you want it or not
i've never felt that much fear in my gut i hope picrel happens to me while going to buy them and i don't have to deal with the consequences

[Anonymous No.]

>>69434490
I hope you will feel better soon, Anon. Don't worry, I am sure they are at peace now.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69433026
I think it isn't unusual for people to try and relieve this kind of memories. I am not sure about the exact reason but it isn't uncommon. The site you mentioned is probably full of people buying clips for the same reason you do.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69431477
The feelings are natural, if induced. Just remind yourself that one day you can meet an actual human that makes you feel that way, if you do your reps. You're allowed to like things, just enjoy it and keep mooming on

[Anonymous No.]

>>69432981
Doesn't it make you feel wrong? I sort of feel like I am doing something taboo. I go there, pretend I am just a normal non-weirdo viewer, if people ask me I respond to them that parasocial people are ridiculous, but then in secret I want to marry her.
Which doesn't help it because I have a thing for forbidden love.

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>>69422930
It was all me. I made the first gurrat thread. I broke containment to bring it to the public eye. I took the first screens from the doxsister site to tell people about the raiding discord. I sent the first rrats to the dramafags, before there was even a copilation here. I egged the sisters on their site, then spread their counterdocument as well just as they were writing it. The funny think is that I am not even an anti, just had a general anti niji leaning and saw potential in the shitstorm. Now Nijisanji lost millions, a couple people's careers are over, and I... actually feel great lmao get fucked

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>>69434804

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>>69432230
bro you're not an elder god, people be like that sometimes. You are not responsible for your sister acting like hime. You ARE responsible for NOT FUCKING YOUR SISTER AND PREVENTING THE CURSE FROM GROWING. If you grey rock her, and study BPD and high-conflict individuals, you can undo some of the damage and protect yourself from going full andy and leyley

[Anonymous No.]

>>69432295
I'm in that boat. Went too deep in the archive (subconsciously on purpose) and dropped them all for a while. Shifted to phase and enjoying the hobby once again

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435115
I can feel it... With every romantic kiss they share, the soul of Sigismund Freud grows in strength...

[Anonymous No.]

>>69430429
Stop watching porn nigga

>>69432538
>united states
>all in the family

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I've been anti-ing my oshi for over 2 years now, ever since she was a 2view. Why did I do it? I like it when she posts on her other Twitter like a menhera.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435115
>protect yourself from going full andy and leyley
i.. may or may not.. have played that game with her
and uhh, she may or may not have related to ashley

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435383
The most tragic part is, he's not watching porn, he's watching Himemiya Rie.

[Anonymous No.]

i only watch karaoke and 3d live streams

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435464
Anon, please! Stop this madness, before you sin against God, nature, natural order of things, society at large, your oshi, your sister, your parents...

[Anonymous No.]

>>69434794
>Doesn't it make you feel wrong?
Nah. I'm aware that I'm a little weird for being in love with a woman puppeting an anime character on the internet, but then again, so is puppeting an anime character online. I think it helps that my oshi is and has talked about being a VTuber fan herself, so she has no grounds to judge any of her viewers for feeling that way about her. Most VTubers, at least the good ones, are at least a little bit parasocial back anyhow, so I've never felt like I needed to hide my feelings about her. I'd argue it's worse to be putting on the front of someone who says "parasocial fucks are cringe" etc. instead of being honest with yourself and your oshi. Not saying you have to start bombarding her with love letters and donations and such, but it's okay to show the affection that you feel for her, however you might do that, so long as it doesn't cross her boundaries.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I have romantic feelings for my oshi but rather than making me a bigger fan it makes me want to run away and never look back.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435505
Jesus Christ

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I...I... like to listen to Lumi...

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
Lumi I’m gonna fuck you in the ass

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435464
You're treading dangerous waters Anon. I suggest you start treating your sister as your toxic menhera GF, because that's what you have.
Unironically, do some reading on BPD relationships and trauma bonding. There are strategies to ease her down in such a way that she doesn't split on you and ruin her life, if you are careful.
Unfuck this situation now, before it's too late.
I spent 10 years trying to manage my own hime ex wife. Do your reps on BPD now, or get intensive therapy later, your choice. Therapy is like $150 an hour by the way.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435464
Bro you say you don't want it then do this shit are you kidding me lmfao
Please don't tell me you got to the actual incest scene and you had a moment

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435803
i need your freudian input right now anonchama tell me what trauma bonding even means

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435695
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V9WwLQi4v4U

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435916
>don't tell me you got to the actual incest scene and you had a moment
i plead the 5th

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436038
Stop being such a pussy about it then

[Anonymous No.]

>>69430429
Anon it’s time to stop anon go to a real priest right now

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436015
this video is so unbearably hot i cannot think straight whenever i watch it, nor can i stop watching it, it's like a mesmerizing trainwreck

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436210
I can’t click it, is it Ree?

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435750
excommunicated

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436243
yes sir jesus

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
>confess your sins
Lumi, we have the same sin.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nJLLpcNqKwA

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435958
trauma bonding is like when you find a chuuba that just gets you, and they had some similar experience and you gosling hard. It's just your brain latching onto something familiar, like "oh this girl really sees me" kind of thing.
It's not love, and it will destroy you.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435464
That’s a red flag anon

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436327
>The relationship feels like an honor, a privilege + a choice
"We need to break up. It's been an honor."

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436327
>all the bulletpoints on true love ring to me while only the addiction rings on the trauma bond ones
i think i have an even bigger problem than i expected

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436441
Sir yes sir

[Anonymous No.]

I been lying to my family and roommates that I been going to college, it's been already a year since I last touched a book, and each time they ask me about it I have to think of something related to math to convince them and they bite it. The problem is that some of my cousins and roommates have been in college and seem suspicious about it but still bite the lie I give them. In reality, all I have been doing is staying in my room watching chuubas, listening to music, and the only way I can eat is if I buy something that doesn't need to be on the fridge or if I go out of my room at like 4am. I'm starting to wonder if this shit is still worth it or if I should really get into college because I think this is getting too out of hand. Only good thing about this is I haven't missed a single birthday, event, karaoke, or stream of the chuubas I like

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436487
At this stage, desu you should find a therapist with experience in trauma.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435646
Just like me frfr

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436700
>every single step of the way is what happened to me
i'm getting fucked diagonally at this point

[Anonymous No.]

I jerk off to vtubers who talk about getting their ass beat by their parents

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436779
Yeah normal people don't find themselves in this situation anon. It's because of what happened to you, and not your fault. But awareness is the first step to change.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69430429
Average shondophrenic

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436782
Same. Isn't that normal?

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436782
Can you provide some links, I wanna do that too
I already know about the marine one

[Anonymous No.]

I bought 2 Sana blanket while drunk and ended up ordering 20, I don't know what I should do with them.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436779
while reddit is gross, there is a good BPD subreddit with a lot of resources to get you started on your reps. https://www.reddit.com/r/BPDWiki/wiki/index/

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436955
Give them to your local goodwill some random kid will appreciate it

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435464
At this point just go all in or get away from her, there's no other way man

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436441
"That pussy, i will miss it" o7

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I beat my dick only to Lumi's old model.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437019
>and in order to avoid any possibility of abandonment happening - they will unconsciously suddenly start to hate (“devalue”) their loved ones in a process called Splitting
anonchama... uh, what is your opinion on the odd chance that two people with BPD are into each other?

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437302
Are you gay or something?

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435642
Thanks for the advice, anon. Yeah I think I should be more honest with it, but I will keep it hidden for now.
It should be easier than it is, but it just makes me feel bad and guilty.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437490
That happens a lot actually, same with BPD/NPD pairs. Remember Johnny Depp/Amber Heard? That.
But just because you're splitting doesn't mean you are also BPD. If your sister is BPD then your mother likely is too. Any symptoms you may be seeing in yourself are likely fleas from association, and will go away once you get out of the menhera fucknest.

[Anonymous No.]

In this thread: /vt/ saves Anon from dangers of incest.

[Anonymous No.]

I tweet dick and cum tributes of vtubers in their official R18 tags. I got blocked by Bon for doing that.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437490
Study this, and apply it to your interactions with your family.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437626
>doesn't mean you are also BPD
i sure hope not, but the whole "memory gaps", the internal and external devaluing thing, the random bouts of anger, it's all worrying me a little bit that God may have pinned the world's funniest joke on me

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437654
>In this thread: /vt/ desperately tries saves Anon from dangers of incest.(it probably won’t work)
Ftfy

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437810
A LOT of BPD symptoms cross apply to other things. Don't focus on that, it's irrelevant if you have BPD or not. Even if you do, the treatment strategy doesn't change.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437548
Current Lumi model reminds me of my sister

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437886
>treatment strategy doesn't change
do i have to go to someone with psychology credentials or can this be fixed diy

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437810
I thought I had it too. I spent 2 years in twice weekly intensive therapy. It was just 20+ fucking years of being surrounded by those types of people. Once I removed all that shit from my life, my body stopped responding like that. It will be okay, if you work now to be honest with yourself and try to accept these feelings you can learn to manage them

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437019
Literally my ex, holy shit

[Anonymous No.]

>>69430429
god, shondophrenics are so based

[Anonymous No.]

>>69438037
professional is way faster, but DIY is completely doable.
This book is the first thing my therapist had me read, and it changed my life completely.
https://www.amazon.com/Stop-Caretaking-Borderline-Narcissist-Drama/dp/1442238321

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437953
Even better

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I have government mandated power and have been trained for cyberwarfare which resulted in me being able to find almost any person that has been online ever outside of full-anonymity and even then there is a non-0% chance.
I love digging up intel for myself but don't dox anyone. It's all about feeding my urges of being a nosy person and I'm scared that someone eventually catches up to my crimes.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69438239
tl;dr anon is schizophrenic

[Anonymous No.]

>>69438114
A large percentage of chuuba fans are just traumatized codependent men

[Anonymous No.]

>>69438444
literally me

[Anonymous No.]

>>69438444
That makes me pity the unicorns so much more...

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437606
No problem. I don't know anything about your oshi, but some chuubas like to hear that kind of thing. My oshi isn't GFE even if she is to me, but she did a poll one time asking her channel members if we saw her as such. I admitted to her that I felt some guilt about projecting this image of a girlfriend onto her, since it's not like she signed up for that going into VTubing. She told me not to feel bad about it, and she's just happy that she's able to provide whatever bit of happiness and company her viewers get from her streams.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69438502
me too...
>>69438624
same. I was lucky/unlucky enough to marry the 2010s equivalent of a menhera chuuba (streamer/musician) imagine hime but white. To the point that needy streamer overload legit triggers me.
I have been the unicorn, and had it all in person full spectrum love bombing, hatefuck destroy me sex, etc etc...
It wasn't worth it. I had what they want, and it destroyed me. so I try to leave bread crumbs where I can...

[Anonymous No.]

>>69439073
I have similar experiences, but with different matters. Whilst young, there are still people younger than me, and it always pains me greatly, seeing them fall in the same mental traps I was in. It likes reliving my past... The best I can do is advise against those things, but that's about it.

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>>69439298
Indeed. No one could make me see, I had to see it for myself in my own time. But I got a lot of good advice over the years that helped me slowly wake up, so I try to pay it forward.

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>>69439073
>needy streamer overload legit triggers me.
It was the same with my ex gf. She was really into cosplay and later she got into streaming. I can not play that game because it gives me genuine anxiety.
Keep in mind by the time our relationship was over I had to silence my phone and go full hermit mode because just seeing I got a message triggered my anxiety.
I got used like a punching bag so bad I didn't realize how fucked up I was until everything was over. You know when you work a lot and don't realize how extremely tired you are until you get home and lie on the couch?
It was like that but with emotional trauma. I wish I could regain my naive innocence

[Anonymous No.]

>>69435464
yea whatever just hug your sister already

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436597
Just get into college.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69439073
>>69439912
I to this day do not know if she mentally manipulated me or not... Everyone told me she did but... The change within her seemed genuine, even if everyone that knew her before called it a fad. I thank the Lord, that it was not to an extent both of you experienced, and I am really happy that you both seem to be doing better.

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>>69439912
God yeah, the constant contact and messaging, you spend your mental energy all day managing someone else's life and their kaleidoscope of fucking catastrophic thinking and insecurity until it crushes you... While the innocence cannot be regained, wisdom and serenity can take its place given time.
>>69440259
I'm glad you made it out, and i'm glad I made it out. I am genuinely in a better place now, most of the time. Sometimes I slip and start watching hime or some of the other ones that hide it better, like methadone for an addict. But that's been getting less and less as I start trusting myself more.

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>>69440259
At the end of the day I think time heals all. There's scars but now I can function more normally, like I still don't like receiving messages or email, and tend to avoid them as long as I can, but they don't trigger my fight or flight response anymore.
If you can afford a therapist that's great, I can't afford one but I bet if I could these feelings would go out faster.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69440259
>>69439912
>>69439073
>anons discover what women are like

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>>69440633
Therapy does indeed help, but the part of it that helps is having someone help you sift through your emotions and sit with them, accept them, and process them. Once you learn how to do that, you don't really need a therapist; just time.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69440633
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07C6WZWSS
This book lays out all the steps to recovery that a therapist would teach you. For anyone needing a direction, start here.

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>>69440040
I don't know man, I really don't want to bump into one of my old friends from the classes I was in before leaving college, especially when I never really said goodbye or anything, just stopped replying to their texts, that's another problem I forgot to mention

[Anonymous No.]

This whole drama has made me want to follow Enna and Elira.

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>>69440960
One exercise that helped me with my social anxiety/hikki phase was to sit down and try to fully let that anxiety play out in my head. Like, imagine bumping into that person, feel the cringe and the anxiety, imagine the worst possible things they could say.
And realize that you'd still be here after that. Literally what's the worst that can happen? Imagine it, sit with it, feel it. Then what changed?
Sometimes you amplify the position you take in other people's lives. We all do. But what are they going to do that you're not already doing to yourself?
Slowly, gently, get out of your comfort zone. Imagine admitting to all your family and friends that you've been lying, and how that would feel.
Try taking 1 class, or even just auditing a big class by sitting in the back or something like that.
If you feel like you need to leave, try waiting 30 seconds and sitting with the fear before you do.
Next time, try 60.
As you practice, it will get easier to handle.

Now imagine that you actually do get into college, and start replacing those lies with actual things you've learned, and how proud/excited your friends/family would be. How that would make you feel.

Start experimenting, worst case scenario you die... but you're already sort of a walking corpse anon so what do you have to lose

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>>69440935
Thanks, anon, I will check it out!
>>69440496
Yeah, and she really manipulated on my romantic tastes. Like my favourite kind of romance is something like knight and princess, but she took it to such extremes where I would be managing her life and helping her projects while ignoring mine. By the end of our relationship she said some really mean things to me like telling me I was a fuckup because I hadn't achieved much on my personal goals, but whenever I wanted to take time off for myself she threatened to kill herself, even had a failed attempt.
It destroyed my self perception.

[Anonymous No.]

This has been such a nice thread. And it all started with a man and his desire for his little sister... Which I still hope he will recover from.

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>>69441388
did we date the same person? lol white knights gonna white knight I guess... If you've got that level of experience, I also recommend reading into CPTSD. Another good wiki with lots of self-help resources: https://www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/wiki/index/
and this guy, Pete Walker, is a god: https://www.pete-walker.com/ his website has free resources, and his book is the gold standard. Great places to start for flashback management and dealing with brainworms

[Anonymous No.]

>>69441639
Confession threads are one of my favorites on this board. Right next to Large Tits Global, of course.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69434398
Unironically follow this advice JUST IN CASE. As always, reduce the damage you could end up causing. Make it one problem (sister fucking) and not two (+ pregnancy).

[Anonymous No.]

used to be super into vtubing but now i cant even catch a stream nowadays.... am i a bad person i just really cant spare my time ill still watch clips of my favourite chuubas

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437107
>*Gets shot*

[Anonymous No.]

>>69441800
Thanks a lot anon, will save those pages to check them out later.
Yeah, I guess that kind of girl latches on to a specific kind of guy.

[Anonymous No.]

I dated a vtuber and am sitting on a document to doxx her like a killswitch

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
Even after Niji opened Pendora's box with Selen's termination I hope Elira stays because her model is sex. I love unironically evil women.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69441365
Thanks for the advice man, but I still feel like a retard each time I remember why I stopped going to classes, the way I avoided the very friends that helped me all the way in college and even accepted my autism because I didn't have/done the same things as them, and how my family has been trusting me enough to not just wonder why I act so strange each time they mention college, it's like a time bomb for me, I just feel like I've already tried everything and nothing's working, I have ways to avoid a explosion of problems in my end but at the same time, I don't want to do it, I wanna keep on this lifestyle until I just decide to jump off a bridge or maybe I somehow win the lottery tickets (even when I barely ever buy those) so I have an excuse to avoid going to class, whatever is coming I feel like I have to make a choice as fast as possible, because the lies are running out

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
Almost my second streaming anniversary and I have yet to make any real progress as a vtuber...Still haven't reached 200+ followers on twitch and I feel like I lose followers more than I gain them. I did start from fresh after the first year, but I still think that shouldn't excuse me.

I know I'm a shit vtuber but I still want to make it so badly. I'm still trying even though I know I shouldn't. I feel bad for my Mum, feel like I'm just a burden on her.

[Anonymous No.]

I don't seed my torrents

[Anonymous No.]

>>69443407
Sounds like you're really close to seeing the real thing you've been avoiding. Keep digging! If it starts feeling worse, that's a sign you're on the right path. Have you considered what you'll do when it all blows up in your face? What about after that? And after that?
Sit with that feeling, because no choice is also a choice. Maybe you really don't want to go to college. If so, that's okay. But honesty starts with yourself.

Fuck all of those people, who gives a fuck what they think? Imagine your life if literally every single person you are worrying about no longer existed. If every single one of them suddenly found out the full scope of your lies and deceit, and how worthless of a NEET hiki you are, and left in disgust to never talk to you ever again.

Imagine being free from the chains of their expectations. What would you do then?

[Anonymous No.]

>>69443264
corpo or indie?

[Anonymous No.]

>>69444195
Indie, if I had dated a Corpo I'd either be sued under NDA, or getting emotional damages.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69426131
>>69426579
Mumei's real identity is Minerva

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>>69444960

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>>69445049
I've been looking for this image, thanks anon

[Anonymous No.]

>>69443754
I don't know, but I have thought of all that, what will happen once the lie is over? What if I tell them the truth? What if they find out themselves? All of it, all over a year already, I want to go back to college because there's a good chance I end up working in a shitty job, there's also a good chance I end up the same but with a diploma, but at least the people I care the most about will be proud of me, which is also why they been helping me with some stuff so I can keep "going" to college, things like sending money, giving me old books, advice, etc. All of this situation is in my hands, yet I feel like whatever choice I'm going to take is gonna be mega retarded and it's going to cause drama all over my family, myself, and the people who know me and my family. I don't really feel like dealing with all of it, and I haven't really found something interesting while in college, just the fact that I can find better job opportunities.

Another issue I have in college is my autism, every time I have to speak in front of the class, every time I have to talk with people or the friends I made there about what I had been doing on the weekend where I avoid talking at all costs about chuubas because they think anime is retarded or things like that (only stuff they like to talk is about how much they drinked on a party, a concert or beach they want to go, etc), how I end up doing something else over a project or homework, as I said, if I go back there it's gonna be all the same, I feel I can do it and at the same time I can't, it's tiring but keeping these lies up is about as tiring, I just want to end all of it in one way or another

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I just lurk threads and tell antis and numberfags to kill themselves

[Anonymous No.]

I enjoy trolling gachikois, unicorns and GFEfags

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I like posting my admiration for certain vtubers but I never watch them

[Anonymous No.]

>>69446490
I sorta know how you feel. I struggled for years with trying to fit in, and meeting all these weird definitions and views of what people thought I was and trying to square that with what I am and what I was interested in. And college is meh at best, but as you said does open doors.

It took me 8 years to graduate college. But once I had that piece of paper, I could apply for... less painful jobs. Eventually, I found something I was good at that wasn't super miserable, and made some money to support my hobbies, and slowly figured out the kinds of people I liked talking to and that liked talking to me.

It will take time to figure it all out, you don't need to do it all NOW. All you have to do is learn to mask enough to get through social situations with minimal awkwardness (some awkwardness is fine, normies are awkward too). Learn to tell polite lies to normies to get them off your back and not stand out, and hide your power level. Just figure out the bare minimum you need to do, and make a plan to do one thing related to that each day. Reward yourself with chuubas, but keep your hobbies private. They don't have the right to know.

And to be honest, most of the people in your life will forget about all this shit if they haven't already. I remember freaking out for MONTHS over what i'd say when I went back, how awkward it would be, etc etc etc.

When I went back to school finally, and ran into old "friends", 99% of the time it was "Oh hey man, whats up? Oh you took some time off? Cool, anyways wanna play some games?". No one cared, really. If anything, they were quietly sad but proud that I was doing things for myself, or quietly grossed out but fuck them.

Seems like you have a good understanding of areas to improve your social mask, try watching some autistic youtubers for advice on masking strategies and how to manage frustration in awkward social situations.

But real talk, as an autist you will have infinitely better treatment if you get a degree and can get a sperg knowledge job. Being an autist working at mcdonalds with a bunch of loser normies will be decades of hell. At least in a white collar job, you might be more likely to meet someone who also likes chuubas and can work with a PC.

You've got this anon, I think you know what you need to do but are scared of the outcome. If you're scared, that means it is important to you.

Try to figure out which parts are important to you, and focus on those. And then think about the least painful way to get there.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
Why did I hear this in her voice? My sin is being attracted to her voice. How do I stop?

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
Every time some big drama happens, I argue on behalf of the less popular side. You could call it devil's advocate or contrarianism, but it's more about how most people just pick a team and lack any sense of nuance, and the truth is never 100% on one side of the fence, so I feel like the losing side needs defending against the retarded mob.

This in and of itself isn't a sin, but what I should be doing is staking my ground and refusing to budge. Instead, I reactively pull against the mob too hard sometimes and end up leaving my own area of belief, like I'm trying to equalize the hate or something. That's wrong. I shouldn't do that. It gives people the wrong impression and I sometimes end up arguing for things I myself don't even believe, just to see if anyone can debunk them.

It's just hard to be rational when everyone around you is a drooling hick with a torch and pitchfork, sometimes you accidentally lose yourself to the other side, but the other side is probably actually even worse. I need to learn to not let people antagonize me into siding with "the enemy." I don't have a side and I don't want one.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69447774
based mature take anon

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I was looking for futa on male porn last night and when I came across this I just started thinking about all the retarded shit that I read on /vt/ earlier that day and lost any desire to masturbate

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I want to stop opening threads that are nothing but 100% drama but I don't know how to.

[Anonymous No.]

I fell in love with my oshi's voice

[Anonymous No.]

I've cried myself to sleep quite a number of times since my oshi's graduation as I'm not 100% sure when or if she'll return.

I'm aware its very parasocial and for the longest time I didn't even think I was THAT into chubbas but when she graduated it just destroyed me as I didn't realise how much happiness I actually got from watching her and now I just have this empty void and dread feeling almost constantly.

I've tried branching out to other chubbas to try find a "replacement" but, while I have found like 2 I do enjoy, I think I've came to a point where no one COULD ever replace her, from her personality, what she streamed and when she streamed, everything was perfect. I know it's ok that no one could or should "replace" her permanently and and I will always cherish what I did have but man it just pains me to think I might not ever see (more like hear) her again - but the situation is complicated and its like she should come back based off some stuff she said but at the same time its been a good while and I'm losing hope anons.

Very parasocial and I'm kinda just using this to get this off my chest but it's kinda just killing me inside

[Anonymous No.]

The Nijisanji drama is throwing me in an existential crisis. People seem to be jumping to the worst possible conclusions, if someone doesn't even appear pure they just assume the worst of the worst, absolutely no consideration for the other party, just stroke the fire of drama and let everything burn for entertainment purposes. You see it here, on twitter, on reddit. It's like everyone was waiting for the go-ahead to be as mean and spiteful as possible and now that there's an acceptable target they go full ham. I don't even watch Nijisanji.
I just didn't expect people to be like...this. I don't know what to do with the knowledge that there are so many people that are like this.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69448389
Anon how many years have you invested in that chuuba? If you invested that much of your time and energy in her, then you'd have to be sociopathic not to feel some attachment towards your oshi.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69431276
but the tts cant replicate that whispering asmr sound, right?

[Anonymous No.]

>>69447202
Thanks anon, really felt better by typing all of my situation at least somewhere but I never expected somebody to give me a (You) that eventually led to some good ass advice and in the end will most likely help with this stuff, it's gonna be a bitch getting out of this hole but I think at least I gotta try before I even think of going in another harsher route...

Here's a cute Korosan pic as a thanks

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>>69422930
I dont watch on Twitch. ever.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
Since I can't draw, I do wanna write something about Elira being forced into sexual slavery after everything that's happened. Dunno if people would read it tho

[Anonymous No.]

>>69423113
kys, stay Elira, I will join membership next stream. You are beyond based for exposing that grifter's true colors.

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>>69448824
I'm glad it was helpful. Sometimes all you really need is to express your insecurities to someone, so they can help you get out of your head.

I believe in you. Just remember to pay it forward one day, when you find an anon walking down a path you've walked before.

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>>69448535
I didn't expect a reply, as I said at the end I kinda just wanted to get it off my chest in some way or another, so I just want to say thank you for reading that in the first place anon.

But it was around 3 years, so I know it's "normal" to be upset etc but at the same time I can't help but feel stupid for it at the same time since it was just some anime girl on the internet, y'know?

It's just been like complete radio silence from her since she graduated even on PL's etc so I think that's why it hurts more..? Just the fact I have no idea whatsoever how she is etc, as, I'll just say it was obvious she was very upset herself at "having" to graduate. Again, very parasocial on my behalf, she doesn't owe anyone anything but it's just something that hurts after near 3 years of daily interaction...

But I guess it's something for the first time, in years, if not ever, that's actually made me feel something so it's kinda generally I've never had to deal with feelings of near any kind so it'll all just fucked and new to me... it just simply hurts... I wouldn't say I'm depressed or anything over it but it's just like a void and massively empty feeling I have now

[Anonymous No.]

>>69434211
>18 and 22
yeah it's going to happen one way or another sorry. go ahead and prepare for the consequences. dubs get says so

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436597
I did this too for 3 years. Just tell them if you cannot / don't want to go back to classes. It's not going to be easy but trust me, you will not regret it. I also ended up graduating (well, 4 years later than expected) so I think you can still make it. Sometimes you just need a clean break and managing your web of (shaky) lies is a full time job. Just answer your mom's call when she reads your message, not answering made them think I was going to an hero and you don't want to deal with the sheer desperation and panic of your family in voicemail. I've only seen the rest of your posts while typing this reply, but whatever you do, it will be easier if you don't have to manage lies and also bear with the terrible lifestyle that this lying implies (I assume your sleep schedule is a complete and utter unfixable mess atm, right?)
Still do try to ease back in classes, but if you cannot, cut the losses.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69449094
Never thought I would do it, glad I decided to do it and somehow did it today in a thread where somebody's trying to fuck her sister kek.

I will man, if there's something I always feel proud about is helping somebody and finding out it really worked for them.

Another Korosan just in case the last one wasn't enough

[Anonymous No.]

>>69449992
Matsuri works in mysterious ways.
Consider your Korosan debt paid in full.
But any time you feel like you fucked up, or didn't honor your commitment to yourself, your punishment is to post Korosan somewhere, get back up, and try again.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I write dirty stories about vtubers based on their preferences and tag lists

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436597
Be honest and get Into college properly anon,or you'll be a failure. Im literally working minimum wage now,because I don't wanna work on some shitty factory 13 hour shifts because I don't really have any skills anon, however working with people and having coworkers helped with my anxiety tremendously, and it's not like we had a lot in common in the first place, my partner/coworker is 20 years older rough kind of guy with 3 kids,and he is fine guy, as long as you arent some faggot/tranny freak.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I sent a really mean superchat to Suisei once

[Anonymous No.]

>>69450818
What did it say

[Anonymous No.]

>>69449210
im in a similar situation anon, it was only for a year, not three, but it still hurts me too

[Anonymous No.]

>>69450886
Condom money for Sakuma

[Anonymous No.]

>>69449210
this is why I avoid attachment like plague. Getting attached to chuuba? I start getting moody and stuff when she isn't there and stuff, so I just reduced my vtubing dose to holo songs and clips. I almost fell into the pit with Shondo

[Anonymous No.]

>>69449841
Thanks you too for the advice, it makes me feel better knowing I'm not the first one to do this kind of stuff, I don't really feel like going to classes but I also feel like I gotta if I want to stick up with my oshi for as long as time allows me and her to keep up.

I did thought of doing an hero but still didn't want to leave my family alone for some reason, it's like I was waiting for a good excuse so they could be mad at me enough and I had the guts to do it, but for now I will have to try to go back

>>69450320
Thanks, and I will, even when I didn't fucked up in something, I like posting hags, especially this dog

>>69450713
I already had, but just stopped going and avoided everything related to it. I will go back there, this is not the first time I hear the "go into college or work shitty jobs" thing and probably won't be the last either. I kinda get along people in a way or another but for some reason my brain BSOD'd whenever I have to talk in a group of 4 or more people in it which is what was one of the reasons why I didn't liked going to some classes. Thank God, I'm neither, just a regular mega retard

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I want to marry Christian Lumi.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69451204
Hag Love. Do it for Her!

[Anonymous No.]

>>69451735
I will, for her

[Anonymous No.]

Ok anons, freud-chama here. I have shit to do, but here's some music to help you feel:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEy3hHvD9LI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mvo1Ytilgwg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I3DQYpMLVTQ

Only women and faggots ignore their emotions, learn to feel and learn to control them through acceptance or be controlled by them and by manipulators.

You'll be okay. I wasn't OK for a long time, but I am now.. most days. Just keep moving forward, do your reps, and do it for her (for now) until you realize that you're actually doing it for you, and always have been. Believe in yourself, because no one else will except your oshi

Never give up.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69447877
What was the plot about?

[Anonymous No.]

>>69430429
HOLY BASED
BLESSED BE THIS ANON BY THE BASED HEAVENS GOOD LORD- I MEAN LOLIKAMI UP ABOVE
YOU ARE THE HONORED ONE ANON

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I fell in love with her because she streams when i go to bed and i always fall asleep listening to her voice and I get depressed when she's on hiatus. I've been like this for about a year now.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I membered Elira, Millie, Enna for a long while and still enjoy their content, but it's just too hard to look at them now that they may have bullied the one person I liked in Niji more than them.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437713
based fucking retard

[Anonymous No.]

>>69452764
Lumi

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>>69443440
I'm surprised no one has tried to groom you, unless you're a guy then it makes a lot more sense.

[Anonymous No.]

I want more revenge porn of elira and the other backstabbing livers and not sorry.

[Anonymous No.]

I still miss Coco

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I got into vtubers because of Rushia's drama 2 years ago
I wanted to know why people were talking about this anime girl and found out GFE was a thing and so I started watching a GFE vtuber to fill the void

[Anonymous No.]

I don't watch chuubas, only come here for drama

[Anonymous No.]

>>69458111
What the fuck do you mean it's been 2 years

[Anonymous No.]

>>69457949
It's been 7 years anon, let go of the reddit dragon

[Anonymous No.]

Would never ever admit to watching her cause of her profile pic and default model are like a 12 year old or an ape's rendition of booba. Tbf they are pretty out of character since she isnt gfe thot. But massive anime titties are so cringe they make it hard to enjoy watching her cause they are so pathetically over the top it, they jolt you back to the reality of how youre watching an anime thot instead of self-imrproving.

That said, I think Lumi's streams are super comfy. Not when she is pmsing or being a cunt but when post-wedding vibes have her a little down but funnier and more relatable. Easily my favorite content and comfy enough to play as background white noise when trying to fall asleep or unwind. I hope she doesnt get too big to keep up with chat

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
Does Lumi got a bf?

[Anonymous No.]

>>69462858
>Does Lumi got a bf?

[Anonymous No.]

>>69462858
Yeah, me.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69462858
indeed, tis I

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
Runkle is kind of cute

[Anonymous No.]

I believe that MariMari_EN actually had sex with five guys and it makes me think less of her.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69462858
what do you think anon?

[Anonymous No.]

>>69458111
its ok anon we can cry together on her lap.

[Anonymous No.]

I hate vtuber fans more then any vtuber

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I never watched Selen until she wasn't Selen anymore. I regret this deeply.

[Anonymous No.]

My oshii is a size queen and I am a dicklet and it hurts.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69467975
Risu?

[Anonymous No.]

>>69468048
No.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I am The NijiEN manager

[Anonymous No.]

I'm starting to fall love with one of my viewers. My feelings seem to get more intese each day. It started when he reluctantly revealed how much he loved me for a long time. This was a suprise since he always seemed out of place. He was never a vtuber fan so he just didn't act like one. He loves me and me only, unlike my other viewers. Whenever I feel down hes always the first one to notice. He notices and remembers the things I like. I caught myself wanting to learn more about him, to the point of stalking him.
Maybe its a bad idea to get involved with a fan, but its worth it if he'll make me his wife.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69469666
That's cute and all but he knows what he's doing and he's grooming you.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69467975
It's okay anon you'll never get your dick anywhere near her, just tell her it's huge.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69469739
Probably.. It's okay as long as its him then im okay with getting corrupted. He's smart, hardworking, caring and handsome. We both have similar values and can have interesting conversations on deeper topics, even when we don't agree. He's husband material.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69468422
keep up the good work, soldier

[Anonymous No.]

>>69432668
I think you should cum inside your virile little sister's firtile womb my man

[Anonymous No.]

>>69470794
omg it's me I'm your viewer.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69446567
honestly? based

[Anonymous No.]

>>69422930
I gave the clique a few views in the past.
But I didn't know at the time. Can I still be absoluted?

[Anonymous No.]

I've been unemployed for the last year after getting laid off and haven't been able to find anything else. I feel bad that I can't be a paypiggy for small indies anymore for attention since it was the only thing that kept me going for awhile. Now I don't even have that and every day is agonizing.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69437019
Is there one concise list for ADHD and autism that you know?
I'm thinking i just hit bingo here on the list and that was not something i expected while starting my read.

[Anonymous No.]

>>69469999
And yet, pain.

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I've been having financial difficulties and had to move back in with my parents in my late 20's. I've sent out close to 1k job applications and haven't been able to find anything beyond low skill, low wage jobs. I have a business degree from a fairly high ranked university + a few years of work experience, but I had a bad depressive episode that sidelined me for a few months after getting let go from my last job and failing 10ish final interviews and now I can't find anything. Some part of me wants to go back to college and get a engineering degree since it actually seems interesting, but it'd burn through all my savings and I doubt my ability to get through the degree program since I'm a retard.

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>>69436327
>my oshi
3,4,5 checked
how fuck up am i? i'm trying to quit

[Anonymous No.]

>>69436327
>>69481647
i mean the left side

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>>69481736
For your oshi? That's normal, read into Codependency. You'll be fine and you've got time to step down slowly. see advice/links:
>>69441800
>>69440935
>>69440735
>>69437787
>>69436700

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>>69428492
>evil women make me insanely hard

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>>69478219
https://old.reddit.com/r/ADHD/ is one, /r/ADHDmemes is easier to digest and more chill.

For ADHD, #1 #1 #1 resource is Dr. Russell Barkley. It's listed essential viewing on their sidebar, and despite being redditors they are correct. Watch these clips, it will change your life.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BzhbAK1pdPM&list=PLzBixSjmbc8eFl6UX5_wWGP8i0mAs-cvY

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>>69458111
That's how I got in when vesper got his first suspension or was it Enna cuckening I don't remember, I was here for a different reason and saw all these threads and thought it was all very entertaining and I wanna know what they are talking about.

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>>69478219
For Autists, especially Asperger/ADHD mixed type, Dr. Thomas Brown is a great resource.
for you inattentive types, 43 seconds: https://www.reddit.com/r/adhdmeme/comments/170bag8/the_best_explanation_ive_heard_so_far/
30 minutes: https://www.reddit.com/r/adultadhdindia/comments/18eefwe/adhd_and_autism_in_children_and_adults_the_missed/

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>>69422930
I hate Nijisanji but think Doki is a manipulative snake.

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>>69484362
de-pajeeting my links gross i didn't notice
Clip from Dr. Thomas Brown: Inattentive ADHD is Erectile Dysfunction of the mind: https://files.catbox.moe/qdn1p8.mp4
Lecture on ADHD/Autism Diagnoses in Smart Kids
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZXbHVjykEU

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>>69422930
I want to have sex with Lumi. Her bratty personality, undeserved snobbery and borderline retardation make me hard as a rock

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Retelling count of a time when I got on phone call with tech support to setup one of those motion activated camera's for home use.
(For reference, the camera came from some tech company in the Philippines)

When I got on call with support I was put through and talking with an esl husky yet cute voice of some girl on the other end and I was basically stun locked right then and there. I mean If she were to call me something sweet on anytime during that call I would've turned into actual spaghetti. My mind right then and there jumped to the thought "Damn, I know it's not her but holy shit is that really close to her". After that it really did bring me closer to the appeal of Kaela
I would be lying if I'm said I'm tempted to try call that tech support center again to see if I can get patched through to her again.
aaa haa... life sucks being single ain't it? and yes I know
GSH

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>>69432986
good cor you anon

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>>69434529
>>69434597
>>69438168
average /vt/ response

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>>69458111
I wasn't really all in to vtubers, but saw a stream get clips of Miko from a streamer reacting to clips,but wasn't interesting. A few days later, some rushia and pekora clips started appearing and i started really getting into them (before the Chinese unicorn and nene appeared) then slowly started losing interest until I saw some clips from shondo and pippa and started watching more but mostly pippa, then found vt sings, containment break videos and started using 4chan, defend my oshi, shitpost, and now I'm here

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>>69477926
go to a temp agency for work anon, meanwhile apply to other companies, but make sure you have enough to save to retire

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>>69422930
>Repent and confess your sins.
no

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>>69422930
I have a deep 3 year relationship with a SEA schizo here. I chase them around the board like Carmen Sandiego whenever I get close to them I threaten to rape correct them.

We've played this game of cat and mouse for 3 years now... one day I will catch them and then...

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>>69492256
Is this like the Risuners anally raping the Saplings or...?

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>>69492256
>with a schizo here
which one

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>>69492283
No it is just one anon. They show up in certain threads and they schizo post. We used to spend time shitposting at each other in a thread that is no longer here I recognize their posting style.

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>>69422930
>Watched a lot of VTubers over the years, both JP and EN, indies, corpos, etc
>Eventually fucked things up and unintentionally got way too parasocial towards one of them
>Ended up getting blacklisted and banned everywhere because of it
>Can't stomach myself to watch full streams of anyone these days in case I repeat step 2 again
How can I enjoy watching them again? How can I support them? Can't we all deserve another chance?

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>>69492655
do:
>subscribe to their channels
>watch + like + share their vods
do not: (because you are cringe)
>chat
>superchat
>comment
if they dont know you, they cannot ban you

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>>69422930
>Repent and confess your sins.
I love Lumi and her stacy lifestyle.

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>>69422930
I watch 3 viewer streams so I can talk to girls and nothing more ._.

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>>69497601
did you groom anyone yet?

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>>69430429
Don’t masturbate for two weeks and your coombrain will correct itself.

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>>69432069
Even the website is telling you, have sex NOW !

And then post it on /b/

[Anonymous No.]

I watch chuubas to cope with law school. I've been doing alright so far, but idk if I have what it takes to finish my degree. Still got three more years of this. I'm hoping my oshi's energy will get me through

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>>69422930
Im a selfish man, i fucking hate 95% collabs with a passion i just want solo stream zatsu rambles for the rest of time.

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>>69422930
I want Anya to jerk me off with her feets
>>69505404
BASED

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It was stupid of me to believe that growth and past drama would make me ungroomable. This bastard made me fall for him.

[Anonymous No.]

I stopped being a gosling because it was painful but i couldnt watch her anymore after that. I started watching another girl for entertainment i kept saying but when she announced her retirement i realized i was just coping and was still a gosling.