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I finally posted myself on 4chan, neat I think.

I'm going to be rambling a bit so if you don't know who I am or don't care who I am then this thread is not worth your time, sorry about that.

I apologize if I seem very matter of fact or emotionless during this post, I suffer from PTSD and it often makes me feel numb to certain situations that are a bit stressful or triggering for me. Right now I feel as though I'm kind of just, not really here? It's hard to explain.

I was in the hospital for a few days with what I thought was a stomach bug. It sadly was not a stomach bug, I was instead told I have stomach/gastric cancer. Thankfully the doctors said that it was caught VERY early on so my chances of survival are basically guaranteed but I will still have to deal with treatment and the eventual surgery to go in and remove stuff from my stomach lining.

I just recently turned 27 years old and though I often wish I would die young because I see nothing to look forward to in life this situation has just caused me to feel scared of death. I have a niece who recently turned 10 in January, a nephew who turned 8 in February, I want to see them grow up, I want to be there for my cat Meebo, I want to try and make my parents proud, I want to fall in love and get married. There's a lot I want to do in my life and I'm scared of having everything be cut short.

Right now I have dropped out of college. I do want to get my bachelor's degree even if it won't be put to use in the worst case scenario but due to the cost of treatment and eventual surgery it's not viable for me to continue to pay for college.

My current plans are to spend time with family. Some of you may know that my dad's mother hates my guts for not living on my own, not having a spouse, not having children...but my grandma (mom's mother) still loves me and I have not seen her in roughly 10 years. My mom misses her mom but I also want to use this time to see my grandma as well. I also want to spend time with my niece and nephew, my sister and her husband and my parents as well.

As it stands currently I will not be streaming. Streaming does make me the happiest person ever but I don't think I can deal with even a single negative comment due to my mental health as it stands due to the news.

I want to thank everyone who watched me or supported me even in the slightest for these past two years while I was a VTuber. In late 2020 I was introduced to VTubers due to randomly finding Mayuzumi Kai of NIJISANJI JP's stream and ever since then my dream was to be a VTuber that people loved. Ever since early 2014 I have been a huge fan of Vinny from Vinesauce and he was the person who inspired me to do content creation in the first place. Though my dream of joining the old NIJISANJI EN or Production Kawaii never happened I would like to think that I still achieved something.

I'm afraid to post a thread about myself again in the future so if I see any future posts while I'm not busy I will do my best to pop in from time to time and just update people if I can.

I'm sorry for the long post.

>> No.44770864

Treat yourself well

>> No.44771055

Holy shit that sucks, take care of yourself mel! I may shitpost but that's never a fun thing to deal with. If you start feeling really depressed like before, do stream just to hang with regulars or friends. Hopefully you'll still pay your friend back, you're dealing with a lot as is so don't add to it by pushing away people at such a sensitive time as well, you know? This isn't a negative comment or shitting on you, you need your friends and family more than ever now.

>> No.44771173

i will save you mel

>> No.44771414

Fucking life
I love u Mel

>> No.44771755

Love you Mel, take care of yourself and just try to find a way to enhoy life right now

>> No.44772714

Hello, Mel.
Have a good day, and the next day even better!

>> No.44772939

faking cancer for attention now... see you in a few weeks when you pop up with a new name and model.

>> No.44773067

MEL LOVE

>> No.44773762

>>44772939
Please kys

>> No.44774881

Thank you for the fun streams! You're great! I wish I had found you earlier...
Take care of yourself and hang in there!

>> No.44776320

>>44770794
>I finally posted myself on 4chan
this can get you banned, you can't self promote.
the same thing got kiki banned when she first started

>> No.44776535

>>44770794
>I was instead told I have stomach/gastric cancer.
How did they test you? I also want to know about your symptoms.

>> No.44782922

>>44770794
Cute catsona
Looks like the bubblegum version of the Peppermint Cat
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CzwANOqFPwk

>> No.44784320

>>44772939
$900 scammed.

>> No.44786223

>>44770794
MEL LOVE.
Wishing you a swift recovery and I hope treatment isn't too rough. Completely understand why you're stepping away but I hope we'll see you again one day.
If you want to marry a Canadian for free healthcare, hit me up.

>> No.44788429

>>44770794
Remember, you aren't considered out of the realm of being young until you reach your 40s. If your 20s were shit, your 30s could be much better and possibly the best time of your life. Don't just give up on life this early, you still have a long way to go before actually being a "hag".

>> No.44788500

>>44773762
hope she sees this bro

>> No.44788614

>>44788429
>Remember, you aren't considered out of the realm of being young until you reach your 40s
Tell that to my back pain and bifocals at 37, bro.

>> No.44790088

>>44770794
hope you get better, and kys if you're lying

>> No.44790237

Glad you’re alive mel

>> No.44790395

>>44770794
Man, that pic brings back memories. I really wish we could go back to when everything was great and none of us expected shit like this to happen, but nothing good lasts forever I guess.
Take care Mel, hope you can get back on your feet soon and do whatever makes you happy.

>> No.44790642

>>44770794
>my dream was to be a VTuber that people loved
All people loved about you are your burps and farts, nothing else.

>I would like to think that I still achieved something.
Being known as the disgusting fart-fetish VTuber is definitely an achievement. Oh and now you're known as the glass piss VTuber as well, that's something to be proud of.

>> No.44791107

>>44776535
Acoustic analysis of her brap waveforms

>> No.44791666

>>44788614
I'm not even in my 20s yet and have had back cramps a lot and wear glasses to see things better

>> No.44791728

>>44776535
Her shitting, feeling bloated of little eating, intake of a lot of salty foods, burps, farts, lack of vegetable intakes, nausea.. etc..

>> No.44791944

>>44790642
Man I know it's 4chan and we're all shitposters, but this is probably the last time we'll see her. Can't you be kind, just this once?

>> No.44791950

damn thats crazy what that brapper do tho

>> No.44791977

>>44791728
I do occasionally feel nauseous, but I've only ever vomiting a lot once recently

>> No.44792347

>>44791944
>but this is probably the last time we'll see her
She comes with new bullshit lies every week and people still believe her? Come on, nothing of her shit is true and she'll resume to farting on stream in a week.

>> No.44792638

dogbear... she will never have sex with you...

>> No.44792684

>>44792347
Since her channel got terminated, she probably won't be doing that until a month from now at best

>> No.44792936

>>44792684
Low subbed count channels can take longer. Worst case, youtube wont do anything.

>> No.44793324

>>44792684
>Since her channel got terminated
Her channel didn't get terminated. That's a pretty bad lie. If it did, going to her channel would leave the notice "This account has been terminated for ...". There are no exceptions about this. She closed it herself or let someone do it for her to get attention or because she had another mental breakdown. This girl is unpredictable. Use your brain.

>> No.44793536

>>44793324
I wasn't there for the moment her account was closed, but from what I've read on another thread, she was mid-game, even mid-sentence when her account shut down. It couldn't have just been her if that is the case.

>> No.44793702

>>44770794
Kys drama whore.

>> No.44794054

Well shit, super glad they caught it early.
For what it's worth your streams were entertaining and did help me get through my own rough patches so to speak.
Go be with your family and take care of yourself, maybe in the future we'll see you again.
Laters.

>> No.44794078

>>44793324
>>44793536


"Account closure
"This channel doesn't exist." or "This channel is unavailable."

If a channel closes their account via the settings, the channel does no longer exist or is no longer available."

This is exactly what shows on both her accounts. She has lied about this as she did with almost anything she says. This is her known behavior.

Check it for yourself if you can't stop the copium: https://youtube.fandom.com/wiki/Termination#Termination_Messages

>> No.44794126

>>44793702
Go jump into a piranha pool basement dwelling asshole

>> No.44794294

>>44794078
LMAO she's gonna nuke the thread frame 1 when she comes online

>> No.44794429

>>44794078
I did see people in the thread I was talking about get the "this account has been terminated" message when they went to her channel.
Also, back when my old account got terminated, when I looked up my old channel after being terminated, it said "This channel doesn't exist" from what I remember

>> No.44794549

>>44794078
www.youtube.com/channel/UCUbKVlo79D6eTQqb3nb-Qlw

That's the pre-handle URL for her Mel channel, feel free to plug in into Wayback if you want.

>> No.44794980

>>44794126
You will be shitting blood in a few months kek. Try not lying every 5 minutes for a change you worthless whore.

>> No.44795049

>>44794549
And the person I was just arguing with got dis-proven easily. Why did I even spend that time arguing anyways?

>> No.44795084
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44795084

Took a nap and saw this thread got some replies.

I know I shouldn't try to reason with the schizo people but I find it funny that people don't understand my Narumi Mihama account was hacked and deleted by the hacker, probably DogBear while my Mel Nekomata account was terminated due to sexual stuff and if you go to the channel itself it even says so. Some of you schizos are Jared 19's and never learned how to fucking read apparently.

I really do appreciate the kind messages. I know I'm a horrible piece of shit but seeing 99% of the replies being kind to me has really helped me out more than you realize, honestly. The other 1% of negative comments are probably from DogBear who is made I didn't fuck him and he's made I paywalled braps for a limited time so I'll try not to let it get to me.

>> No.44795185

>>44794078
It's not like I bear her any real ill will but it should be very clear just how unwell she is and how her nature as an unstable liar affects her outward behaviour.
Anons continue to eat up her lies, give her money etc. You can interact and engage with people like her but you should always keep their unwell nature in mind and temper your responses appropriately.

>> No.44795190

>>44794980
Am not her BTW

>> No.44795586

>>44795084
It's okay, I'm a horrible piece of shit too

>> No.44795838

>>44795084
In what may be good news, that Oscar channel seemingly got nuked as well.

>> No.44795881

>>44795190
I'm sorry then anon *chu*

>> No.44795975

>>44795084
Your regulars and friends who were there at the time knows the truth, so don't worry about the idiots (and Dogbear) doubting you.

>> No.44796099

>>44795084
Limited time you say

>> No.44796313
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>>44795185
You can be compassionate without giving her money. You're 100% right about her past, but if all I'm going to do is post in a 4chan thread at her it costs me exactly the same amount to post either "go die" or "get well soon."

>> No.44796419

>>44795185
I find it funny you say that anons will give me money when...they haven't? The only time they gave me money was when I was selling stuff to them, that's not "giving money" that's "buying" lol.

>>44796313
No one is giving me money, I literally do not profit off of this. We all remember the golden rule "DOT NOT DONATE"!

>> No.44796682

>>44796419
And even then it sounds like your friend that you owe probably didn't profit off them sending you money, so you know the truth don't let retarded anons /here/ lead you to needing to explain yourself.
>>44795185
Sounds like something dogbear should keep in mind everytime he comes here to shit on her for his mistake.

>> No.44796839

>>44796419
>I find it funny you say that anons will give me money when...they haven't? The only time they gave me money was when I was selling stuff to them, that's not "giving money" that's "buying" lol.
For legal reasons you were definitely not selling anything, it was friends and family giving you money. And then you doing things on stream and sending them photos for free for completely unrelated reasons.
Paypal lawyers get out

>> No.44797327

Night Mel. When you recover and want to stream again I hope you do feel comfortable posting a thread to let us know your new channel.

>> No.44797371

>>44795084
God damn, is it bad that I kind of relate to this but I’m 20? Still in college but I feel like I’ve already failed at life. Anyway good luck to your future endeavors, the thought of cancer fucking terrifies me so I can’t imagine what you’re going through. I’m sure you’ll be able to pick yourself back up, 1 step at a time

>> No.44797727

>>44795838
good, that spic was peak autism

>> No.44798206

Wow. I'm kinda speechless. I don't really know what else to say besides, "Get well soon!" but even that doesn't feel appropriate. That sucks. That just really sucks.

>> No.44798259

>>44797727
Am pretty sure she ain't Spanish

>> No.44800836

The fact you keep showing up back here is just another example on top of the mountainous pile of examples of why you will never change.
It is incredibly difficult for a person to truly change and that change must come from yourself and your own introspections and impetus.
You keep on reaching out to others for validation and attention. Streaming can't save you nor can any form of attention from online strangers.

>> No.44802629

>>44800836
Alright DogBear, thanks for not reading the post because the post I made is not at all related to...any of the bullshit you said lmao.

But don't worry, I'll try to muster up that change and uh...change the fact that I don't have gastric cancer? I'll make sure to not receive any validation that I'm sick and I won't stream to spend time with family in case shit really hits the fan.

You are the epitome of a Jared 19 who never learned how to fucking read.

>> No.44803703

I hope things turn out well for you, Mel.

>> No.44806998

>>44770794
>I finally posted myself on 4chan, neat I think.
LARP jharder

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>> No.44808396

>>44802629
>>44795084
Now that you're essentially facing death, have your thoughts on religion changed? It's not too late to seek God and prepare for the next life. You could watch debates on atheism, Christianity, and Islam (since these are essentially the main religions) to help you decide. I recommend watching William Lane Craig vs. Lawrence Krauss on YouTube.

>> No.44809198

>>44808396
I can tell you have never watched any of my streams, and that's okay. I'll let you know this right now, hopefully in the nicest way possible, that I do not want to ever hear about religion for a multitude of reasons. Please, please take your religious bullshit elsewhere as I do not want to hear it at all. And just so you know no one, and I mean no one, wants to hear religious vomit from anyone at any time, keep it in your churches where it's appropriate for fucks sake.

If some type of "god" exists I'd much rather go to hell happily.

>> No.44810007

Get well soon =)

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