Plead that to the retard spamming SHE'S NOT JAPANESE, I've been coming along just fine.
I've passed that struggle, and sometimes the time comes to spam my friends about games, ships, and mechanics, but the key to make other people listen to your antics, and not make them roll their eyes so hard you can hear it, is being well versed and explain thing simply. If you can't explain things in an understandable form, you don't really understand it (or lack the vocabulary lol)
You seem like a very sincere person, but let me warn you (like the other anon said): don't expose your bare bones to the harsh world that the internet is, you will be hurt at some point, and that'll may or may not make you want to abandon it, so starting up with a sincere, but not will they hate me?, mindset, you will be impermeable.
Tip: in the future don't hand wave for emphasis while streaming, we can't see it, because it took me almost twice as long to type this if I didn't have an expressive hands case, like This Old Tony.