I feel like the only fucker on /vt/ who takes life-stories like Ami's, and think of it as inspiration to keep getting my own shit together.
She's not the catalyst or the cause, I've been doing so for years now, but knowing spidermom is doing her best, getting her shit together, all the while likely dealing with tourettes, and autism possibly as bad as mine, contributes to my desire to keep moving forward.
It's a long and arduous path to walk, yes, but that's only sometimes. Most of the time there's a quiet satisfaction in knowing each step you take brings you forward.
Gonna be real and also say that I want what I just said to read as hopeful for you guys, too. If any of you knew me and the way I was like seven years ago, you would be shocked at the guy you'd see today. All you gotta do is talk to somebody, even if it's just someone you're somewhat chummy with on Discord, about your issues, and find things you can actually enjoy being productive with. And I've gone form having hysteric breakdowns, manic tirades at people, and being an asocial hermit, to being the only calm one in tense situations, mediating hostilities between colleagues/acquaintances, and having an inseparable friend circle online while still going out to meet new people.
Ami did it, a ton of the girls in Hololive did it, and a ton of Anons like me did it. There's more to life than covering for your own pain through vicious hatred of others. Normally I'd just ignore the self destructive mentality I see on this board, but the Buckos are built different, imo. Ami and her fanbase are far more reasonable and earnest than most threads I see, so maybe me saying this shit will reach some of you too, I dunno.
Look, just find something productive you enjoy doing, and do it a bunch. If Ami can overcome her disabilities (autism, tourettes, woman), then you can too. You'll thank yourself for putting in the effort eventually, if you do.