/skg/ - Schizophrenia General

[4 Letters, Number 9301 No.]

Promise it's just for processing feelings this time edition

Was your last therapist incompetent? Compromised? Both? Neither? Were they even real? I mean yeah but point is I'm only making this thread because this was the last website I was on where something tangible and provable happened that's changed my life so I'm venting here until I feel done and replying to the interesting posts until I feel better. If you feel bad or off I encourage you to do the same.

If you want to just scream AAAAA I encourage you to do it off the net. It helps, I promise.

[Anonymous No.]

I cannot visit a therapist, because they will try to subtly brainwash me into thinking that there is something wrong with my love towards Haruka.

[Anonymous No.]

So like, I'm God or some shit? Not like actual omni powerful God I can't seem to manifest literally anything I want from my thoughts, more like the world is just operating on a crap shoot from my subconcious?

It's confusing. Did I cause 9/11? Was I the reason that the first time I went to therapy shit just didn't work out? I remember the therapist being like, "Yeah if you kids can't take this seriously you can just wait in the lobby." I mean now I understand the idea of things not working out with a counselor you should move on to the next but like, I was 8. I don't know feels weird that so much of my understanding of the world had to have been formed during a time when I was barely aware of the world around me, and grew up in a place without people. I guess it was my fault for projecting anime onto the one person who did move in near by because they happened to be Asian but yeah I don't know. Not sure how to process this one.

Anyways if everything from here on out is going to be a projection of my deeper thoughts it's hard trying to change things. The people out there still behave like the people I've known them to be except now with more exaggerrated steryotypes, or I just lose interest in talking to them faster. Or they don't feel like putting more into the conversation. Not sure what I'm doing wrong.

[Anonymous No.]

>>24738651
If dreaming of Haruka gently strangling me to death with a smile on her face and skinning me and turning me into her scarf is wrong, I don't want to be right.

[Anonymous No.]

If it is true and Mori was a crap shoot of my subconcious it's filled me with tragedy how you ended up. You're someone I could really love, full of ambition, risk taker, free to be themselves, lucky (yes that's something I admire in a person), and enough of the superficial crap to line up that you'd be someone I'd want to know.

At the same time you're a person I'd resent, with a personality and behavior that would always remind me of the things I can't stand about a world that really shouldn't be of my own. You lie, a lot. Despite your efforts to be free on your own you still put others down on impulse, and maybe now I'm just projecting my own beliefs but being a big tit white woman would have helped you get far. I'm letting go of others who can't hold onto their promises, I think it's important we do try to make the world our own without others, but deep down I do want to experience things with others again.

I've forgotten what it's like to be just in a group of friends who know eachother shooting the shit and this weekend reminded me of it non stop.

[Anonymous No.]

Lets be sane for a moment, I'm just another weirdo on the net whose got it in their head that there's something special about them. I don't think I understand how to be kind to myself. I do know that one person on this website knows who I am, and at this point I don't care who. If you're reading this, please, just shoot me a message. One that's clear you're from 4chan, all else I don't care. Use a burner account, just no more double speak, no more "signs". I need to feel sane if I'm going to do shit again.

Just "having it" isn't doing it for me. I got performance anxiety like a motherfucker and every conversation I have with people makes me feel like they want me gone. I just wanted to sing Karaoke and I couldn't stop shaking. I thought I was passed this.

I went to go do the Hentai reading and got skipped for like 2 solid straight hours. Why? My entire bit was about crabs and it seemed like everyone else had a good time afterward. For real this is the shit that just makes me want to stay in and not be around anyone anymore. And even then that happiness was fleeting, I don't know what makes me happy, keep trying to figure it out.

[Anonymous No.]

I don't know how to talk to anyone anymore. It feels like either they're lost in their own world or just trying to tell me what they'd think I'd want to hear.

Why did my boss mention the sex toy business when I asked him if he found any interesting ones? I mean I guess yeah it was out there but I don't know what to say.

Having bad time finding things interesting. It was like this months ago except I was doing drugs to numb my thoughts. That started to fade and now I don't really know what to do.

[Anonymous No.]

I remember being like, 13 and my mom asking me to do something with her and all I could think was "Who the fuck are you?" She spent 5 years recovering from the divorce. Mostly in bed, or on autopilot throughout her day. The internet raised me is an understatement.

Then in therapy again a year or so back her just saying "Oh yeah, I really guess I did think the world revolved around me" Don't know what to make of that man. Well I do, generally those are the kind of people you should avoid in life so just looking up for things to do when stressed or talking with aquantinces or even better other therapists and they say "Is there a family member you can talk with?" No. There isn't. I'm tired of using my time explaining the kind of people these people are. Just my mom and sister. One's in a fantasy land and the other's in a fantasy land but also gave up over a decade ago. Both their responses are "Who cares" then try to act like queen of the castle when they're both alone cycling through their negativity. Sorry, no family to talk to.

I'm sorry to all my friends I pushed away with my bullshit.

[Anonymous No.]

I am being gangstalked by pomudachi. i am a target because the numbers in my bank account, when rearranged and translated from a cypher contained in every 33rd chat message from the date of her debut until a month ago, contains her real identity and address. i have been tasked with safeguarding this information by pomu herself, as communicated by posts on this very imageboard. i have noticed that every 13 hours 2 white cars drive past my house. white is the most fraudulently sacred color and the number 13 = 1+4 is 4 in japanese means death. the cover of white colored cars is elected for the sake of holiness, and to the unenlightened masses radiates purity. but i know that whiteness is the void and i won't let myself be taken there.

[Anonymous No.]

>>24740178
You know when I thought people were cyber agents I just went and talked to them. Mostly they walked away.

[Anonymous No.]

I had a nice time for like 2 days when I thought all this was just some creepy fujos using tech they had to spy on their viewers

https://youtu.be/MZgBjQFMPvk

[Anonymous No.]

Time travel keeps popping into my head and for a moment I thought the best use would be to keep my dad from saving me from choking but decided a better use would be to just give myself a drawing notebook and some actual coloring markers or pencils or some shit.

That'd be nice

[Anonymous No.]

To that one teammate at the con I'll remember your friendliness and try to be more like you

[Anonymous No.]

Do you think you are actually showing signs of schizophrenia? I don't know what to think anymore

I remain skeptical of everything that comes my way, even the crazy shit.

[Anonymous No.]

Man I'm like 6 when this came out why did my dad put it on this shit isn't appropriate for kids

Why did the director and crew keep getting invited to anime cons if there's no consistent reason they used the eva figure?

[Anonymous No.]

>>24743684
Robin Williams, known for his roles as an actor of double identies or persons beyond human limits, typically in positive family friendly roles, takes on the character of a nobody diving into a parasocial relationship that ends in his psychotic breakdown. Though interestingly, the parasocial relationship's issues are seen from that of the worker than from the person coming to them for interaction.

The family itself is falling apart through infidelity, and Robin's character eventually decides to take violent action after stalking and confronting this issue. He fails to gather any true, tangible evidence that changes anything outside of his own personal life.

Available for streaming on Disney+

I got nothing this movie's just been in my head all my life I want it out

I forgot the scene that implies his dad was using him for child porn

Maybe my dad really did do shit to me and that was his way of projecting and coping.

[Anonymous No.]

I want to pinch her cheeks

[Anonymous No.]

>>24738244
schizo

[Anonymous No.]

ah.

[Anonymous No.]

What did she mean by this?

[Anonymous No.]

Look I'm seeing an actual psychiatrist on Wednesday I have to remember the weird shit that actually provably happened over like 3 days

[Anonymous No.]

The cool thing about numbers is they can show trends of information when the reported amount is true to the sample size.

Meaning that if every poster here is genuinely unique as the site reports that means on average the skizophrenia thread attracts ~30 posters per thread.

Today it's mostly me talking to myself. Did I scare everyone else off? Everyone else out of energy? No one wanting to be a casually defiant internet user and just scream AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

At the least I'll keep that amount in mind.

[Anonymous No.]

In truth, I think if I avoid the weird shit and just treat my life like normal a lot of this stuff will go away. But I do need to ask a real human if the things I saw justified my actions

[Anonymous No.]

>>24758531
Because really, if this was the bad place, you guys screwed something up that had no business being screwed up :)

[Anonymous No.]

Kill yourself if you have EYES
Hypocrite

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[Anonymous No.]

You know what one last one

Before everything got extra weird

I remember posting in the Mori gen: "I feel Gura trying to channel through me"

Someone replies: "Please remember she wants to settle down and have kids at some point" or some shit

In what sane reality should that be taken?