Sorry for the blogpost, you can just scroll past but I need to post this so I can leave this place, at least for now.
I can't keep deluding myself, getting lost in escapism, I'm running out of time and need to get my shit together. I don't know what to do but I need to figure this out, If I don't I have no other option but to rope. I can't support my oshi like this, I can't even support myself. I have no talents, no passions, no interests, no real life experience, no friends, no job, nothing. Chuubas and anime is all I've had up until now and I fucking wish I didn't have to go out and do normalfag reps but here we are. I wish I could just stay in my room and post here and watch chuubas all fucking day but I can't. I'm fucking scared bros, I've only experienced the world from the internet but I have to do something, meaning this might be my last post here, and last time consuming any chuuba content for a while. Thank you for everything, I will never forget any of you and all the memories of everything for as long as I live. Day 1 chumbie, out. (for now)