/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

Today is Airi's birthday! No celebration stream until the weekend though.

Lumi should be streaming on youtube in 6 hours (3 PM UTC)
[No waiting room yet]

Remi will be playing Arknights in 6 hours (3 PM UTC)
https://youtu.be/9iHqC29iMkw

Iori will be having a zatsu stream in 9 hours (6 PM UTC)
https://youtu.be/f0ebMB5sUcM

Tenma will be playing Ganguro Girl in 9 hours (6 PM UTC)
https://youtu.be/CUpf60S7w3w

Ember will be continuing Fallout: New Vegas in 10 hours (7 PM UTC)
https://youtu.be/dsJcel9O2bc

Shiina should be continuing AC6 in 13 hours (10 PM UTC)
[No waiting room yet]

Lia wukk be having a rhythm game handcam stream in 14 hours (11 PM UTC)
https://youtu.be/HmLdhcVp_MQ

Dizzy will be re-doing the PC Parent Teacher Conference skit in 15 hours (12 AM UTC)
https://youtu.be/EvGEMtGOG9U

Uruka should be continuing Celeste in 17.5 hours (2:30 AM UTC)
[No waiting room yet]

Rie will be doing her Mahjong batsu stream in 17 hours (3 AM UTC)
https://youtu.be/Up-Y4gfd3Fk

Nasa will be continuing Ape Escape in 19 hours (4 AM UTC)
https://youtu.be/Y4bpEmMnPw0

How squishy is Ember's tummy

>>58350763
Jeez Lumi, how come anon lets you have three OPs in a row?

This thread will be mediocre

Pippa blowjobs for anons?

>>58350891
Sure. But only for me.

I can't sleep. Give me a VOD to watch.

I love Tenma. I want to marry Tenma. I will marry Tenma. I want to spend time with Tenma. While I would train even if she wasn't there, I train harder knowing that she will see it one day, and I want to impress her. I want to hug and kiss her. I want to greet her from her work. I want to make delicious food for her. I want to listen to her explaining some game I never played. I want to listen to her rambling about how she hates her work. I want to make her a good cup of good coffee. I want to hug her while she rambles and drinks coffee. After she's done rambling and drinking coffee, I would want to kiss her. And then we can do whatever she would want to do. We can watch movies together, we can listen to music together. We can just cuddle, I would love to do that. If she's too angry, she can punch me — I will take it, I will endure it so that she can feel better. She can punch a bag, yes, but, personally, I found out that punching other people releases more pressure. I would do all that because I want to make her happy. Because I want to make her comfortable. Because I want to be the husband she loves.

Because I love Tenma. I hope Tenma doesn't do guerilla today. I'm going to sleep in about an hour. I can fall asleep to her voice but that would be disappointing since I would miss the stream almost entirely.

>>58350798
I would complain about no streams for 6 hours but I won't get home for 6 hours so I guess it's fine.

>>58350925
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Y7OaBFM5kc
I'm watching this right now.

>>58350977
Thank you, I like Wemi.

>>58350910
Cute, but I also want to kick her.

Who is the Dante and Vergil of Phase Connect?

>>58351016
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Y7OaBFM5kc&t=9372
Wemi is a cute. I like the way she says words.

>>58350925
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ajQlrWXQwOQ
she's a little silly

>>58351120
>Who is

>>58351185
what even is the context for this soundpost?

>>58350839
It'll get a lot worse in an hour and a half like it does everyday

>>58350798
Thank you NasaCat anon.

Pippa lucked out for being born a woman. If she was born as a man, it would be so over for her

>>58351206
I think she was making fun of the discord kitten TTS.

>>58351206
https://www.twitch.tv/videos/1916118084?t=0h15m58s

>>58350805
Tight and firm

>>58351259
If she was born a man, she wouldn't have half the problems she does.

>>58351237
I'm not actually him, I'm just a fellow Nasa enjoyer

i want to cum in lumi's hair.

>>58351049
Because Meowth claims to be a woman, Shiina, being autistic will indulge
this and respond more cutely. Eventually Meowth will cross a line and
not get attention they want and they will disappear from Shiina's orbit.

>>58351358
she would have other problems

>>58351174
Yeah. Who is?

Pippa love~!

>>58351310
it's over...

>>58351237
Cute Nene

Why Jelly stopped streaming?

>>58351678
So you're asking which singular member of Phase Connect is both Dante and Vergil at the same time?

>>58351563
I saw pictures of that persons hands and Im not convinced thats a woman. Why would she even respond to someone saying they want to fuck her?

>>58351856
excuse you its different when its girl on girl sexy time. duh

Jelly is...

Everyone dies alone. Happy bday.

>>58351887
"Sexy", I highly doubt that

>>58351358
>If she was born a man, she wouldn't have half the problems she does.
She wouldn't have any problems because she would have successfully killed herself

Alright. Goodnight, /pcg/. I love Tenma. And I hope she doesn't do guerilla. That's how you say it, right? "Doesn't do". Or is it just "doesn't guerilla"?

>>58351841
Perhaps

>>58351915
oh maybe you were right. my bad anon.

>>58351949
doesn't guerilla or doesn't do a guerilla stream

>>58351949
The correct phrasing would be "And I hope she doesn't do a guerrilla stream."
Alternatively: "I hope she doesn't do an unscheduled livestream."
>panko_portrait.webp

https://files.catbox.moe/8v61h2.mp4

>>58351915
put a trigger warning on that shit, damn

>>58352017
at least it's spoilered

>>58351953
Dante and Vergil are polar opposites by design, it's impossible to be both of them at the same time. You have been upgraded from ESL to just plain baka.

Do you think Shiina would allow me to imply I want to fuck her if I say im trans?

>>58351358
Nobody would care about her issues, she would probably be incel and she'd never make it on the internet like she does now.

>>58351915

>>58352054
say you're black too for good measure and I think you're safe

>>58351949
nini-nini kanpainiki!

>>58351915
Butter blacky

I love my trad wife

>>58351915
i wouldve rathered saw that dick pic from an earlier thread than tis shit. god this is horrifying

>>58351949
Goodnight Kanpainiki

>>58352095
she's year 1300 peasant trad

>>58351120
Lumi is by far the purest manifestation of will to power in PC, she's a Vergil.

>>58352095
Your trad wife looks like my tard wife.

>>58351915
Why can’t Shiina just be normal and tell these people to fuck off? Not embolden them by calling them bby.

>>58351915
Oh bby...

>>58351915
Cookies keep on winning

>>58352234
Some people just don't understand vtuber culture.

>>58351915
The hands of a girl on girl enjoyer...

Reminder: Shiina teased and joked about how hot the animation was when she received it. Pretty shitty to raise people’s expectations and then suddenly decide to not deliver.
We could have had a Shiina animation from this guy.
https://files.catbox.moe/59apez.MP4

>>58351915
Femanon looks like that?

>>58350483
I started wisiting this general after my birthday. I have to wait like 9 months before I can post this

>>58352392
Still doing this huh?

Rabbits and rabbit to bed. I'm going to bed early so I can wake up around the same time Pippa does. I am not parasocial this is healthy.

>>58352462
Just lie and say it's your birthday. No one will ever know.

I just want Pippa to shoot me dead desu.

>>58352051
Just make their jackets purple and slick back both their hair. Duh. Also the answer is Tenma.

>>58352521
Goodnight Capipi and goodnight /pcg/

>>58352462
>wisiting

>>58352521
nini-nini capipi!
>>58352610
nini-nini hostage!

>Airi did the math on making a killdozer
Airi...

Management definitely forced her to delete her reply to the NSFW art. I wouldn’t be surprised if Shiina was actually looking at a 2 week suspension for this little act of defiance. Shiina is honestly so based for standing up to management like that.

>>58352723
>Phase
>Suspension
>Over literally nothing
Tourist

>>58352723
Damn management!

I never went to bed

LEEEETSSS GET REEEAAADDYYYYY TO LOOOOOOOOOOP

I would rape, kill & die for Pipkin Pippa.

>>58352803

>>58352783
Shiina has implied multiple times that management recently implemented a strict no NSFW policy.

>>58352723
Apart from Yuri, none of the girls have ever been suspended anon.

Is Pippa actually going to have her voice changed, and her mind altered from the medication she’s being given?

>>58352807
I would rape and kill Pipkin Pippa.

>>58352783
Or Peruano.

>>58352783
Anon... How did you fall for such blatant bait...

>>58352661
Dozers are expensive. Plus I don't think Airi can weld.

>>58352803
huh

>>58352854
he doesn't know

>>58352874
I'm a territorial retard.

>>58352579
She wouldn't even murder you anon. That's how little you mean to her.

>>58352803
despicable behaviour

I just realized I have never coom'd to any of my oshis

>>58350805
SQUISHIER

>>58352803
i'm disappointed.

>>58352723
Can Shiina stop sending mixed signals for one fucking second or is that too much to ask?

>>58352858
The Pippa you knew is dead. She is becoming more and more of a mediocre normie due to her recent surge in popularity. One of the greatest mistakes I have ever made is to make her popular, such as writing TV Tropes and wiki pages praising and advertising her. That ship girl is not Pippa to me, just a hollow imitation.

Should Shiina quit? Management keeps harassing her. I think she should graduate. Because of management.

I’m going to bed. I will be trying to manifest a reality where Pippa gets chubby from my dreams. I will be successful, no strings attached.

>>58350805
>>58352960
Ember goes to the gym regularly anon.

>>58352862
You know she sees the awful things you say about her?

>>58352979
But where else will you see someone shoot themselves in the foot 3 times in a row?

>>58353021
nini-nini gosling!

>>58352858
If they kill the parasite controlling her she might become a real live girl.

>>58353019
I think management should tell her to quit.

>>58353050
I hardly have a dog in this fight but it’s painful to watch when she does stuff like this.

>>58353042
Pippa if you're reading this, you're an annoying cunt and you should take your meds so that you can learn to act like an actual human being and people like your friends and family will finally love you

>>58353039
>Getting the architects to whale while maintaining a healthy body
Based

>>58353039
She hasn't been to the gym in a long time

>>58352658
Oyasumi
>>58353021
Goodnight Gosling
>>58352803
Reprehensible

>>58353118
Same but it amuses me.

>>58353126 (me)
Also my parents never loved me and I’m taking my anger out on you… because I secretly like you… b-baka!

Good morning gentlemen I love Shiina. Jesus Christ women try to go five minutes without digging holes for yourself

>>49478105
Cool, why don't you tell me fish's cut from stream? Talents' cut from merch? The IP rights of invaders? Contract details? If the talent even know each others contracts or cuts? Your parasocial bonds with the talent who can't leave without losing their entire identity doesn't mean much objectively.

>>58353098
Just put her down at this point

>>58352661
If you think airi has it bad imagine the poor fucks who have to work under her

>>58353155
i help her out with in-house workouts, we do alot of cardio when she isnt streaming

>>58352057
Sounds like a personal axe to grind. She'd still be incredibly organised and in fact likely way closer to retirement because of fewer pets and less of a feeling like she has to give her mom everything.
She'd also still have her sense of showmanship so she'd probably be one of those boisterous Jong & dart streamers with insane piggy power of their own.
If you have the skills to be a clown online all that changes is the format by which you do it.

>>58351563
>>58351856
>>58351915
https://twitter.com/scratchmeowth/status/1212882563230027777
Ewwwww that voice I can't say for certain though but stop calling a bby Shiina or I will get jealus....

>>58353289
Thanks I'm imagining Airi sitting on me while I try to do work and now I'm hard

>>58352979
Prease understand

>>58353301
Et tu, femanon?

I would like to officially apologize for disrespecting the Ni Ni ritual. I punish myself with going to sleep with no ninis for 3 days.

>>58351358
you have no idea how horrible it is to be a male NEET in the current year. Horrible prospects, hostile environment for recovery, and entire industries blocked from you outside of low paying blue-collar jobs. Meanwhile, recovering female NEETs have plebty of opportunities laid down in front of them.
>j-just man up and take the labor job along with the fucking niggers from the third world who don't even speak your language
the day of the pillow can't come soon enough

>>58353351
All is forgiven. Ni ni. :)

>>58353351
No man should go without ninis. Goodnight

>>58353135
>>58353039

Honestly, Ember should Choose My Dinner streams.
5 bucks to populate the wheel, 20 bucks to spin it.

>>58353401
>Feast Fridays

>>58353351
I sleep either 3 hours or 10 so I feel like it just never has a point.

>>58353401
I have her dinner already prepared.

>>58353362
Females have better chances to be entertainers or streamers now. While if you are a male, you turn into an Incel. That's the fact.

is it nai nai or knee knee?

>>58353289
They don't have big bahonkadonks so I don't care

I love this Panda

>>58353480
I always read it as knee knee and now you're making me doubt myself.

>>58353480
https://youtu.be/4Y35kLhst2Q

>>58353362
Blaming things on your gender is cringe

>>58353463 (me)
Sorry, wrong Image. Had to go somewhere else just to find the right one.

>>58352979
She used to work for a ketamine using tech guru she just thinks that way now

>>58353463
Cringe
>>58353558
Based

Jigg?
Jong?
Juice?

So what art even set of this episode?

>>58353480
I always liked the latter better, but the former is more accurate to nighty night

>>58353362
It's nobody else's fault but your own that you ended up useless with no future.

>>58353243
her response in catbox clip was probably the best possible and I liked how she handled backsitters in AC6 stream. Sasuga. but then the twitter response...
anyways, full airi vod archive anyone?

Honestly Lia and Uruka should do coke and MDMA on stream

9000 hours in ms paint

>>58353401
>>58353430
FISHMAN LET HER USE THE FUCKING TREATSTREAM AGAIN
LET ME CONVERT MY MONEY DIRECTLY INTO EMBER BOOTY MEAT

>>58353596
The Jigsaw Killer
Mahjong? More like my-jong
Blueberry juice

>>58353126

>>58353480
faina fai-nai-nai, faina faina fai-nai-nai

>>58353126
based

>>58353554
its just reality. I'm sorry if you faggots are too stick up to your asses and blaming NEETs on everything that's outside of their control

>>58353613
nigger

>>58353243
What has she done now?

>>58353243
>spoiler
I genuinely think like she's one of the rare cases that genuinely needs medication. She does great when she's in a flow state but when not she sets shit on fire at least four times a quarter in a really bad way. You can't be calculating and self doubting at the same time.

>>58353677
I'd allow my money to go to the Grand National Ember Ass rather than the Federal Reserve

>>58353647
you didn't even try

>>58353685
It's clearly a parody, but the fact is that Henri has Borderline Personality Disorder. He will never grow.

>>58353677
>Ember Eats

>>58353716
showed us her gaping holes

>>58353715
the reality is you chose your situation

>>58353715
>>58353362
Ask me how I know you're a capipi.

>>58353715
>too stick up to your asses

>>58353715
>>58353362
Take meds if you need them and stop being cringe.
>uwah I'm so enlightened
Predictable

>>58353748
Were they small & cute or festering & distended?

>>58353761
seriously, kill yourself

>>58353677
Hold up QRD?

>>58353541
Me too homie. Hope she's not feeling too bad about yesterday's zatsu.

any stream? hello? strimer? vutber noline?

>>58353771
Nah, I smell a gumi.

>>58353795
>projecting
why are normalfags always like this?

>>58353761
Do you choose when the Chinese stole your oshi? Do you have a choice when your oshi dumped you?

>>58353810
kill me yourself faggot

>>58353816
Treatstream lets you anonymous send food to people she had it on her pl

>>58353820
She got mad and was crying on twitter.

>>58353838
>uwah I'm so enlightened for being a parasite
Why are unwashed retards like this?

>>58353479
And education too.

>>58353845
>you anonymous send

>>58353829
Not even the slightest possibility.

>>58353845
...this has potential.

>>58353596
Jerry.

>>58353852
What's wrong with the coon?

>>58353816
https://treatstream.com/

>>58353820
>>58353852
what did i miss?

treatstream worked really well for her in her pl, iirc

>>58353914
>>58353925
Someone from chat spoiled TWD

>>58353888
Ok gumi.

>>58353860
sorry fedchama but I will never join the military and die for pointles wars. Go recruit someone else

>>58353937
comic or series?

>>58353942
Don't you start you little shit

>>58353958
TV series

>>58353632
>stream
On her YouTube i believe

Honestly all the Phase girls should get Treatstream

>>58353362
It's rough, but it's better to just bite the bullet and work with the third worlders and pull yourself out of it.
Female NEETs may have it easier, but if you roll with the punches you can make it Anon.

>>58353187
>>58353685
>>58353707
I hope she doesn't actually read my post, I only made it to piss off and mess with any anon who reads it

>>58353840
> when the Chinese stole your oshi?

>>58353937
Well of course she would be pissed off if someone spoiled TND for her.

>>58353937
who the fuck still cares about the walking dead
what

>>58353953
Baffling post.

>>58353994
I think if you haven't 100% a series you can't talk about it on stream expecting not to get spoiled.

>>58353975
so magnet + what stayed up on youtube is full?

>>58354018
She was invested and thought it was interesting. She knows it will get worse but she wants to witness the train wreck herself.

eep

>>58353937
>don't dead open inside
>coooral
>pickle rick
There, I just spoiled the entire series.

>>58354044
Now they have spoiled TND for her will they try to spoil TTD next?

>>58352858
Given my experiences with Abilify and similar meds, she'll probably put on 10-20 pounds(that can be burned off pretty easy), and get occasional dizzy spells for like 45 minutes after she takes the pill. May be a little disoriented on and off the first two weeks and slightly fuzzy vision at first. I'm on Lamictal now and that did more for me, Abilify didn't help me at all but I hear for many it does. The only scare I have is if she gets Akathisia, wouldn't wish that on anyone and Abilify's hugest weakness is the risk of it isn't small.

If it works, the only real change you'll notice is she'll be more alert when the meds kick in and the side effects tolerated. She'll still rage, honestly she might have more enthusiasm and more screaming without the lethargy of serious mental illness holding her down and buttfucking her every day. I can't imagine it hurting her social self at all, Abilify isn't an Antidepressant, it doesn't 'zombify' you, it's an antipsychotic.

Pips will be just fine. I'd rather she start on Lamictal if it is for BPD, but if it is full on Schizo treatment, Abilify is probably still the safest option and they always start of baby doses. Plus Pippa is still Pippa, I'm sure she read every single article and detail on that drug before taking it, probably to the point of her own detriment.

Hang in there Pips!

>>58354113
>TND
>TTD
What is even this?

>>58354113
you're not supposed to double down when a joke flops

Good morning. W..wait, did you get any sleep at all?

>>58354103
Why?

>>58353990
They stole Pipkin away from me. You will never understand until you have communists stealing everything away from you. Stole your land? Stole your business? Stole your wealth? And the last straw was having your Oshis stolen. Remember what happened to Kiryu Coco? She was forced to quit because of them. This was how Pipkin and I fell into an argument. When you realised that they stole everything away from you, what choice is there except Hatred?

>>58353983
Worked with them for half a year before my contract expired and forced back to NEETdom. If you don't have any work buddies of the same ethnicity or nationality to link with, you're absolutely fucked.

goodnight

>>58354146
Always double down anon, never apologise. Just because you don't get high comedy.

>>58354129
BPD has no cure. The biggest evidence of this is Henri, who even when getting high on Prozac still cannot move on from Pippa.

>>58354162
henri you gotta relax the army is gonna let you have infinite zhang poontang when we go to war with them
They say wer're in this for the long game but what if I'm talking about that's the wrong game, 'cause we're in this for the jong game

>>58353362
>>58353715
Brother I'm going to be serious for a moment here. You're not wrong and anyone that tells you you are is either a woman or a man who lucked out and is blessed enough to have avoided getting fucked over by the modern state of things. I'm a recovered fat NEET myself and I know the struggle. That said, I learned that being bitter not only doesn't help you but actively hurts you. It stops you from seeing what few opportunities DO exist to you. We're given a shit situation and we just have to deal with it. Take baby steps towards improving it, you don't have to fix it all in a day. If you're not already, I recommend getting into personal fitness. It helps you build up the mental stamina you need for dealing with all this shit. Look into low-cost community college or technical school degrees too. There's always more demand for people with tech (IT) or technical (HVAC/plumbing/etc) skills. Good luck.

>>58354184
nini-nini anon!

>>58354162
Wait, they did all that to you? I thought they only "got" Coco?

>>58354138
how panko mussolini saves italy

>>58354138
it means total nigger/tranny death and I see it in some of the talents chats

>>58354095
Goodnight Doremu
>>58354184
Goodnight anon

>>58354251
Oh of course not, very few mental diseases can be cured, you just find ways to manage the symptoms and live as close to normally as possible.

You can do a lot just by a good schedule, eating well, getting vitamins, sunshine, etc. Boomers aren't wrong for recommending it, wish I accepted that earlier before I got into a really bad pit. CBT is legit.

Add a decent lifestyle and meds can do a great job giving you enough stability to maintain your day to day life. I'm hoping that's how it works out for Pippa. If the meds help her maintain herself, at least not so much that she goes suicide idealization mode or hallucinating shit, then that's a good step up. Starting meds is never a fun trip, but some people do need them, and given how Pippa talks about her mental health if she's even halfway honest, she definitely needs help and I'm happy she's getting it and hope the starting period isn't too awful for her.

>>58354315
They were scumbags even before Coco. And to think Pipkin likes them.

>>58354282
TLDR: Stop being a little bitch and get off your ass

>>58354138
cat food

>>58354296
I think you're first person to ever wish me goodnight. You have slaughtered the rrats that were multiplying in my brain that said that only people in the special discord group get their goodnight posts replied to. It's quite an impactful thing you've done for me. I will now go to sleep with a sense of peace. Thank you eepy bito.

Pippa should do a poptart eating stream to overcome her fear.

>>58354251
A lobotomy would treat bpd.

the fuck is she talking about?

>>58354282
I have always been awesome so I don't understand how you fat loser retards become neets in the first place.

>>58354281
Henri is chinese anon, he will be fighting for the PLA.

>>58354095
nini-nini doremu!
>>58354507
no problem, anon! i try to get everyone i can. have a good rest!

>>58354433
Again, these talks of "lifestyle and exercise will cure your depression" is just self-help bullshit. Depressives have no motivation, the concept of Hope is literaly inconceivable, and they do not love themselves, so they perpetually get stuck in self-destructive lifestyles. This is where artificial therapy (whether through drugs, ECT or other techniques) work.

I know, I am a BPD who hates himself and only got interested into fitness for the sake of a relationship. Once that was gone, I went back into being an alcoholic.

>>58354353
I see it Erina's chat all the time.

>>58354587
She replied to a spicy AI art, Airi saw it and complained about it, everyone is posting under it now

>>58354673
Erina is based?

>>58354587
the animation, she must have deleted it. it was super hot.

Just off what's she's spoken about Pippa doesn't seem that mentally unwell, especially when you consider it's proportional to her life experience. I'm fairly stable and I have a lot of the same mental problems. She did say she has problems we don't know about during that one twitch stream, which is the real concerning thing

>>58354710

>YVHAG

>>58354673
I think most tnd spammers that break containment are from sharty that means zoomers

>>58354668
Bullshit. Getting your life together is hard for everyone. Stop being a lazy nigger, stop making excuses, and force yourself to get into a healthier routine. Results breed confidence.

>>58354535
Induced amnesia is the treatment for BPD, whether it can be through ECT or lobotomy. The problem with pills is that they are not enough; they only suppress the symptoms. If subjected to amnesia, then the BPD sufferers can finally move on. It is as if you never met your lovers or Oshis in the first place.

>>58354722
STDs

>>58354707
Erina doesn't like browns or einhorns.

Good morning today is a sunny again and I still love Shiina

>>58354688
why is Airi such a bitch?

>>58354710
post the vid or it didn't happen

>>58354809
I'd be fine with forgetting about vtubing all together.

>>58354800
As usual an MGTOW tough-guy does not understand how depression works. You know what once lifted me out of my depression and motivated me to be fit? Better sex and an Oshi. Too bad you can never do that when all your relationships ended in disaster and your Oshi hates you, isn't it?

>>58354860
>why is Airi such a bitch?
a boss bitch

>>58354597
It's a cycle of feeling too shit to do anything and then feeling even more shit that you're not doing anything. Then you get addicted to the few things that make you feel good (anime, games, etc). In my (>>58354282) case I got addicted to goyslop as a kid because my parents were clueless.

>>58354856
How can you love someone who doesn’t love you and instead lies to you at every opportunity?

>>58354856
Even after she fucked you over cuckie?

>>58354856
She doesnt love you, she only loves black "females"

>>58354918
A little whiny bitch says what?

>>58354921
Menopause

It's nice that Pippa is using vtubing to promote self care and Improvement, she's genuinely helped me. Underneath the femcel seething and sht takes she's a good person.

>>58354918
>an

>>58354722
I don't know how to put this tactfully, but there's probably a good deal of things that were misread in both your stories.
Mental issues aren't an on/off thing.
Often one gets traumatic experiences based on things that were imagined.
The p--tard rant for example hints at a heavily maladaptive view of reality and if you see that in yourself then you may have a similarly distorted view through which you perceive what's going on.
A conflict or rejection that's merely imagined can be as damaging as a real one but that doesn't mean one couldn't have avoided it by simply seeing the world in a less occluded way.

>>58353845
Not really her pl since she's an invader. Kallin and Ember are the same and Ember openly talks about her time in Tsunderia.

>>58354918
That's not even a MGTOW thing, he's right, it's hard and taking care of yourself does help.

>>58355032
do you really believe that?

>>58354668
Sun exposure helps me a little, I can stave off my emergency meds a bit with mild fitness. I’m on Lamictal 150mg daily, and 1.5-3mg of Clonazepam a day. Tried to kill myself from daily panic attacks in High School. Got Warded, homebound, etc. Benzos were the only thing strong enough to let me live. Eventually they pinned a real diagnosis on me with BPD OCD and my God I have been on every damn drug in the book. Got a degree, meds did save my stupid ass.

I don’t think putting all depressives into one box is fair, the brain is more nuanced than that. My self hatred and loathing is because my condition is getting worse and worse by the year, and my ability to stream and write and do the things I see value in is getting more and more painful. I still make myself do it but I can feel things getting worse day by day and can’t fix it even though I need to get better.

I refuse to let Israel outlive me though, so I don’t intend to suicide. Still might, but that’s not the game plan, no matter how bad it gets. Sensorimotor OCD is what makes suicide most tempting, having to manually breathe 24/7, and the extreme permenant painful twisting tension of the muscles as every single heartbeat feels like I have to do it myself, I can’t do anything more than lay down shaking and fighting to exist. Or take Clonazepam and live peacefully for a few hours because of a fucking happy pill. Life is a funny, silly little thing.

>>58354942
>>58354955
>>58354986
One day you will also be loved don't worry

Shiina is actually worse than Ina when it comes to her fans sexualizing her. Ina is straight with you and tells you no. Shiina is a wishy washy that act like she want it but actually she dont

>>58355236

>>58355165
>I refuse to let Israel outlive me
Lmao
Schizo, schizo never changes.

>>58354923
You will buy a set of dumbbells and leave them on your desk next to your monitor & jerk off lotion.
You will set a timer to go off every 30 minutes & you will do 3 sets of 12 curls until your muscles burn.
You will eat one large meal a day & replace sugar drinks with sugar substitutes.
Do that for 2 weeks, see how you feel & then we can get more serious.

>>58354923
It's more because there are things that torment you but they are outside of your control. For example, China. This is literally the theme of Lovecraft's nihilistic works. When you are helpless, you just seek the closest pleasure because in the end, life is pointless.

>>58354992
As expected. Call someone a bitch. MGTOW promised independence from women but in the end they are just the same asshole jocks. What a fraud.

>>58355285
There is no MGTOW, same as volcels. It's MSTOW, always has been. Now let's drop the topic.

>>58355032
>sht

>>58355165
>I refuse to let Isreal outlive me
Lmao you know what, if that works for you then why not

>>58355271
I would not be interested in lifting a dumbbell when I am too depressed. Maybe do it while watching Hentai so it felt like jacking off your own dick.

>>58355086
Did you know that depression had a 100% mortality rate until they invented medications to treat it?

I thought *I* was bad for getting sick all the time

>>58355271
Ive been going to the gym 5 times a week for years and still feel shit. I only go because its my routine now.

>>58355165
>I refuse to let Israel outlive me
Fuck that's such a banger line

Just try your best and be kind, you will make it eventually

>>58355165
You should join the army.

>>58354597
Everything just starts crumbling around you and you're left with nothing before you realize

https://twitch.tv/tenma
10ma live

>>58355409
>never heard her cough in stream
Ok

>>58355445
Do not join the Chinese army or else you're fucked.

>>58355236
Oh, she wants me alright.

>>58355409
The mold was inside her the whole time.

>>58355409
>10 year infection
How?

>>58355516
might be tuberculosis

>>58355285
Damn son, you need to get some pussy stat. You sound like you be huffing that troony troonjuice.

>>58355409
A cough for 10 years doesn't make sense, her immune system must be already far gone to achieve it

>>58354062 (me)
yeah, it's complete

>>58355256
>>58355338
It was a bit, I promise! I realized how fucking heavy it got and had to slip something in there to lighten the tone. Pippa’s ordeal and how people feel about it is a heavy one. Antipsychotics are uncertain and even low doses can be scary, especially starting out. Not to mention that paralyzing fear of loss of identity and not even knowing it.

I also know if I didn’t have the meds I am disgusted that I need to exist today on, I’d for 100% certain have killed myself. The seizures and hallucinations and sensorimotor, akathisia ass nightmares would demand nothing less than a handgun blowjob. Pippa’s suicide talk and her extreme lows, well, I just hope her life gets more stable. If it takes the help of scary but necessary prescription meds, if that can really help her, then I hope she has a painless starting period. They can ruin lives for some, but have saved the lives of just as many if not more. Or maybe I’m too optimistic.

>>58355352
Even better, lifting while watching porn increases test levels. Trust me.

I hope that when or if the time comes I have the strength and clarity of mind to leave peacefully instead of becoming a schizo anti. It seems like an awful fate.

>>58351915
I no longer desire handjobs from cookies

>>58355419
Have you tried putting up more plates?

>>58355482
Um, ok I won't join the chinese army. Thanks anon.

>>58355574
I coughed for 10 years as well. I went to the doctor and it turns out it was all the cigarettes I'd been smoking.

>>58355701
Oh no...

>>58355591
Heh, that was what I tried the last time when I had a girlfriend. Jogging up and down stairs with heavy weights? Having dumbbells? Countless squats? After all, the ultimate point of getting a fit body is to have better sex.

>>58355609
sorry to disappoint you anon but NEETchama here is not anyone's anti. Yeah I'm not Henri either. I don't think Henri even knows the -chama meme suffix either

>>58355701
That'll be 200 bucks

I'm going to see a therapist next month but I will not take any meds

>>58355701
You don't say... my uncle has been smoking since the age of 15, he is 56 now, but he can barely breath after a minimal effort

>>58355609
It's called Henri, the Arch-Schizo BPD who's still in love with Pippa even after she rejected him.

>>58355736
I'm not talking about the NEET I'm just speaking generally

>>58355715
Your mistake was doing it while you had a girlfriend. Cohabitation lowers hormone levels.

>Pippa smokes
It's jover

>>58355774
Yah, it's probably all the cigarettes.

>>58355827
Except Pippa didn't smoke for 10 years straight. so her condition still doesn't make sense

>>58355796
There is no motive to work out when you have no sex partner, girlfriend or wife. Fact. Wonder why animals like lions and gorillas developed immense musculature? To be stronger, fight off their rivals, and fuck their women.

>>58355869
It's almost like it's made up.

why would Shiina promise a mating press animation in the first place if both her and management had zero intention of posting it?

>>58355886
Ive been complimented in public after I started working out. Im too much of a sperg to get anything more out of it, but it does feel good.

Watch Tenma
https://www.twitch.tv/tenma

>>58355805
considering the stories she tells it's the least surprising thing about her

>>58355915
I don't know, why do you ask the same question expecting a different answer?

>>58355924
Tell that to countless incels who worked out but still failed to get partners because of their biological stature.

>>58355886
I'm motivated because I don't want to feel like shit

>>58355962
Someone has to.

Jelly...

>>58356005
Looking a little brown there...

>>58356000
Again, depressives have no motivation. Hence why meds are needed.

>>58355975
But thats me? Im just saying working out still makes me feel good and has good consequences even if Im not getting laid.

>>58355827
Pippa doesn't smoke, it's probably from the mould

>>58355886
Dipshit, those things are just perks. You workout for yourself. Most of us muscle heads don't care about bitches, we workout & flex in front of the mirror.

>>58355975
Lol, I only ever get compliments from other guys on my muscles.
Got that permanent manlet debuff on women....

I still lift though, and have been consistent for about a decade now. It soothes my 'tism, if I stop lifting I start feeling like shit. I like the strength.

Where did all the Incels come from?

>>58356005

>>58356005

>>58356041
>mould

>>58356061
I thought you guys worked out to show off to the bros

>>58356005
Actually pretty cute

>>58356085
where did my emoji go?

N

>>58356124

>>58356072
Tenma will compliment you anon

>>58356083
This board is literally just /r9k/

>>58356061
Calling women bitches is pretty cringe ngl.

>>58356033
>But thats me?
Most likely not. Incels receive no compliments ever, while truecels get only mocking ones.

>>58356083
We were here the whole time?

>>58356164
Another anon told me it's just /mlp/

>>58356124

>>58356106
Nope, every bro is competition for you. The only bitches we look at are instathots who follow us.

>>58356170
Post tits

>>58356170
Maybe. I do know one thing though, bitches they come, they go.

>>58356225
Every other man is either competition, or a potential member of the swole militia when we rise up and band together.

>>58356225
>Nope, every bro is competition for you. The only bitches we look at are instathots who follow us.

>>58356205
It's way worse than /mlp/, trust me.

>>58356170
Calling bitches womwen is pretty cringe frfr no hat fax

Good morning, Did Airi end up able to stream after the 1 hour delay? I fell asleep...

>>58356061
>You workout for yourself.
So it's Narcissism then? No wonder MGTOWs, narcissists and gym rats still fail to understand depression. Depressives DESPISE THEMSELVES, are unmotivated, and such positive concepts like Hope or Self-Love are completely alien to them. Depression is literally the opposite of Narcissism.

You know what would pull a Depressive out of his or her slumber? A RELATIONSHIP. Because Naercissism is inconceivable to them, they need others to inspire them on an intimate level.

I have experienced this before. When I got into a relationship I trained myself to be fit. But when they stabbed me in the back I went back to alcohol and self-harming.

Turns out, everything is inverted.

>>58356083
who do you think watches vtubers?

>>58356285
Yeah, it was a good stream too. I don't think there's a YT archive, hopefully someone else grabbed it/in the OP.

>>58356316
tl;dr gonna lift heavy circles later.

>>58356316
>So it's Narcissism then?
No.
It's about not feeling tired, sick and feeling healthy.

nini-nini /pcg/!

>>58356316
You can't really love another until you love yourself

>>58356316
The problem is you lifted for someone else.

>>58356285
Yep. She went over 3 hours. Magnet link is in the previous thread. https://youtu.be/Cxss8U_FoiQ for the YT reupload (not fully processed yet, will have a few sections muted unfortunately)

>>58356316
damn sorry that happened, or glad for you I ain't reading all of it
Gonna go lift heavy objects for fun while blasting touhou music later

>>58356083

>>58356358
nini anon

>>58356279

Do I need a plan of some kind or do I just walk into the gym

>>58356440
Read the /fit/ sticky. Do not read the rest of the board

>>58356005
oh bby

>>58356379
I don't get it. If no one will show you love, then how can you even love yourself?

>>58356395
That was the main motivation.

>>58356404
It's Touhou Hentai, is it not?

I think about killing myself like 20+ times a day but I'm not actually suicidal, it's just that it's a comfortable thought that I can just yeet myself if I fuck up beyond repair and it helps my anxiety.

I think that's harmless enough.

>>58356440
First you get a subscription then hire a trainer to judge you and show you how to use all the equipment.

>>58356316
Let me simplify it for you retardchama. You are in pain. I'm telling you that pain will never go away. But what if I tell you that you can change that pain? Turn that pain into something that makes you feel good about yourself? Mold it into something you control?

>>58356440
Just remember " YOU DON'T SKIP LEG DAY!"

>>58356358
Goodnight Himeposter

>>58356514
>Turn that pain into something that makes you feel good about yourself
>Mold it into something you control
The only Solution: Pic Related.

>>58356440
I lifted at home until I got used to how to exercise with some form before hitting the gym. It can be intimidating for a newb and most people drop out after a couple of weeks.

>>58356440
>Do I need a plan of some kind
For optimal results, yes, but you could literally just go into the gym for 30 minutes a few times a week and just "play" with the weights and do whatever you feel like and still get some results if you're consistent.

One of those things where YMMV and you can get as "detailed" or non detailed about it as you want. The one thing I would definitely say is watch Youtube videos (I recommend Jeff Nippard) on proper form.
Also agreed with other Anon on reading the /fit/ wiki.

>>58356496
Didn't you listen to pippa? People don't do anything without some selfish motivation.

>>58356509
Can I just get a friend who's fit? We have a free gym on campus.

>>58356402
>>58347289
Thanks anon!