/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

Miss wifey...

It's starting to set in...

cant wait to snag one of these bad boys

>>48649932
It's just a burning memory...

>>48650137
I just realized that's her arm in the picture holding up the plushie
ENHANCE

>>48642965
>still don't understand the difference between something I can read anytime and something I have to actively monitor
at least it's not "secret" anymore

>>48650233
Huh, never noticed

Kind of strange so many people are hoping for her to say nigger with the hard r

About the pic mentioned before, the meme she recreated was the "had to do it to em" meme. She recreated it at the same location in Florida when she visited her ex lol

can you leave doxxshit in the last thread, come the fuck on

>>48650592
my urge to search for it has suddenly vanished

>>48650627
I just want to know what my wife looks like. Still can't find it.

>>48650654
He's not in the picture retard
There's literally no pictures of them
It's just her looking cute and tiny

>>48650715
Go back to /uoh/

Can you doxxfags kill yourself already no one cares

Doxxfags get the rope

>>48650736
it means he was the one holding the camera taking the picture of her

>>48650736
Post it or at least gimme a hint.

Thread's already to a good start.
>>48650828
Kill yourself.

>>48650828
kys

Feels kind of hypocritical that you guys boast about stalking but hate doxx info so much

>>48650878
You can stalk her without being a faggot about it, go back tourist

Wasn't there a horse emoji sticker over her face anyway? But yeah he was the one taking the pic

>>48650878
Its not stalking if you need to been fucking spoonfed the doxx info retard

>>48650890
No need for hostility, it's not me begging for it, at least look at the time of the posts.

>>48650908
Source: came to you in a dream I assume?

This creature

>>48651028
Witch Shondo cute

>>48651028
nkds

>>48651028
would rape

>>48650959
Literally just an old twitter post.

>>48651028
If you put this side by side with the model she's making for Vivi you can see a lot of improvements and the evolution of her style. Her rendering is crazy good

im happy you guys have your own gen now, always refreshing to see more indie generals

finally he's gone

>>48651347
Thank you anon
May your oshi prosper, whoever she is

>>48651347
You came at a bad time. This is the worst one so far.

imagine risking a vacation because you can't do the bare minimum yourself

>>48650878
It's not hypocritical you fucking retard, there is a difference between stalking and endangering her.
Now kindly kill yourself for the benefit of humanity.

>>48651305
I wish her normal outfit still had the hidden knife strapped to her leg

Reminder that Shondo's wrists are about 8-9cm in girth

>>48651524
New IP, go read the thread you're in before posting about shit you don't know about a conversation you weren't a part of.
Or just shut the fuck up.

>>48651618
kys doxfag

>>48651405
this too shall pass, dont give up!

>>48651639
>doxxfag banned
>no new ip
Learn how 4chan works newfag.

Stop talking about this shit
The best way to combat it is ignore it and talk about things that aren't that. Metaposting doesn't help.
Anyway I want to kidnap Shondo, keep her chained in my basement, and starve her out until she drinks my cum thirstily like it's milk

>>48649932
I want to FUCK the giraffe

>>48651897
LEAVE MAMASHADOW ALONEEEEEE

>>48651618
You are a cancer. Rid yourself.

Shut the fuck up Theriodontia.

>>48652090
Stop name calling, you faggot.

>>48652109
I said shut the fuck up retard.

>>48652109
Kill yourself, Fleece.

This general is already becoming dogshit

I CAN'T FIND THAT STUPID FUCKING PICTURE. I JUST WANT TO SEE MY WIFE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

>>48652268
what did anyone expect, there was a reason we were only doing them while there was content to react to

>>48652269
fuck off and kys

Man, so many retards. Both here and in the chat.

>>48651730
did you guys see the /hfz/ lord of the board thing going on?

>say theres forbidden knowledge
>don't share it
>tell people who also want to know it to kys
you get the threads you deserve

>>48652527
let them brag in peace, they earnt it.

>>48652527
I've seen everything there is to see. Suck my tiny cock, doxxniggers.

Maybe we should stop making threads until she's back after all...

>>48653131
If the following threads are gonna be like this, I agree.

>>48653131
>>48653183
We are only going to get more and more unhinged over the next week and a half

>>48653131
No you guys should keep being a bunch of niggnogs, it's a good distraction while she's gone.

I also going to give this obvious bait a (You)
Oh

>>48653131
I don't know, to my surprise the others were fine for the most part. Let's wait and see for now.

>>48652610
whats there to brag about? seen her face, know her real name, know where she lives, have all of her pics showing how flat and small she is. anything more?

just stop bragging and you will not attract retards, it is that easy

Absolute fucking retard
/here/ mods ban this faggot in chat

What the fuck are doing

>>48653353
Either share or shut the fuck up you obnoxious niggerfaggot.

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. YOU FUCKING RETARDED PIECE OF SHIT

fuck sakes...

Dawnstryder is my favorite mod
I would kiss him no homo

Hello chat :syadouwave

>>48652109 (me)
I take back what I said. Kill yourself.

>>48653535
I would go full non derogatory for him

What happened in chat?

>>48653353
And she's ugly as shit. Was a waste of my time.

>>48653676
(You)

>>48653635

>>48653736
Wow, cringe

>2 hours passed normal shadow weekend and we are at doxxing and breaking containment
Lets just let it die until the asmr video comes out

What's going on in this t

>>48653957
Nigger in gif.
Accurate representation of the thread.

Shondo pits
https://files.catbox.moe/h2dbb7.mp4

opening twitch chat was a bad idea.

>>48654340
Best post ITT so far

>>48654340
The savior of the thread!

>>48654340
is it possible to add audio to future kk or is it too much work?

>>48654574
I've considered it, I'm just really lazy. One of these days I'll go through and collect a bunch of Shondo moans to use.

>>48654425
I just use chatterino to get a notification when shondo posts and ignore the chat when she's not there.

>>48654340
nice, it's just funny how the hands are stuck in space

>>48654642
https://files.catbox.moe/ygs7e8.mp3

>>48650137
I wanna kiss her shiny bald head
mwah!

>>48650137
she kinda chubby

>>48655197
How rude
She is perfectly rotund

The brainworms are really kicking my ass today, why cant I think of anything good without her

>>48655524
its not brainworms if its true

>>48655524
How about you think of some paint tool SAI and have her in it

forgot the dumb bait and doxxfag shit, a thread just comprised of "I don't think I'm gonna make it bros uuuu" is fucking stupid, go do it in twitch chat with the rest of the losers

>stop talking about things i dont like and only talk about things i like
not how this website works, we're gonna discuss everything shondo related here and you're gonna like it. or don't and fuck off, no one's keeping you here.

You shouldn't be so trusting, Retromancer.

>>48656491
I have no illusion that I can stop you guys being fags but you can't stop me from calling you fags. Do something constructive with your time or enjoy the threads being shit because there's literally nothing to do except whine

Thanks for bumping the thread you want dead I guess?

the thread will die if nobody wants to make a new one because they've become routinely shit
literally next post after I said anything was some fag namedropping in response to twitch chat shit

>>48656969
shondo curse wreaking havoc as usual
have fun in your ebin /uoh/ threads threadshitters!

do you art reps you lazy faggots

>>48658620
how does this improve the thread

>>48658620
But I am...

>>48658620
Fuck you, faggot.

>>48658707
i can't post when you are drawing

>>48658620
tomorrow morning for sure

>>48658620
I will start tomorrow. This time for sure.

>>48658836 (me)
maybe i should sleep

>>48658620
Too busy with programming reps.

i hate how everyone pretends to be nice outside of here and then is a dick here. makes the whole community seem fake.

so is #sliceofshadow only for drawings? i think i see some non art post there here and there, what's the limit?

>>48659015
I've only been nise

>>48659054
Any nonshitpost fan creation

>>48659015
im frenly poster not ebil.....

>>48659015
don't let a couple bitter faggots ruin your judgement

>>48659066
thank u niseposter

>>48659015
I'm mostly a dick that's why i stay away from her discord

>>48659015
I'm only a dick to people who deserve it like doxxfags and containment breakers

>>48659015
Oh I have the opposite sentiment, everyone on discord seems fake as fuck trying to be nice, holding back on what they really want to say and instead use passive aggression on eachother
While on here we just straight up have nice people, the thing is that even nice people will tell you to fuck off when needed
And of course the anonymity of 4chan brings some bad apples, but that doesnt reflect the entirety of the posters
We got like 40+ IPs last thread and only maybe a couple were shitposters? That sounds pretty good to me

>>48659015
It's called tough love, anon. Just because I called someone a slur doesn't necessarily mean I hate them

>>48659357
>everyone on discord seems fake as fuck trying to be nice
thats kind of my point. consistency one way or the other.

Shondo is still working hard
Script's almost done

Shonshon finished a script!

>>48660844
I'm so proud of my wife!

>>48660844
I already love it

i want to hug her so bad its causing me constant physical pain

>>48663473
That's normal

>>48663523
I'm not even being a little bit ironic, my muscles are always tensed up in psychosomatic desire. Shondo broke me

>>48663715
I can relate, when I see her fingers I get an urge to put them in my mouth to the point my mouth starts watering

Do you think shes going to kiss the postcards? I hope she kisses the postcards. Please kiss the postcards shonshon

>>48664072
God I hope

>>48664072
I will believe that she did even if she denies it.

>>48664197
she did it on stream for the poster signings

>>48664197
>>48664072
>>48664296
I'm surprised nobody has lifted her fingerprints or lip marks off with UV light I didn't buy the poster :(

I want to kiss her forehead.

>>48664439
wdym? everyone did

>>48664439
ok but why though, im struggling to think of a practical reason unless you plan to make a silicone shondo doll with realistic biometrics

https://files.catbox.moe/2kr29g.mp4
https://files.catbox.moe/q13rvn.mp4

>>48665943
That dick? Mine.

Have you noticed that every pic of Shondo's room her bedsheet's are super flowery and girly? I think that's cute.

>>48666503 (me)
Just look at these

>>48664928
I want to watch while she works hard and gets frustrated but still keeps going. I want to see her excited reaction when she finishes. I want to calm her down through one of her episodes. I want to tell her that everything is going to be okay. I want to assure her that she's loved and valuable and unique and skilled. I want to give her confidence and stability. I want her to come to me for help with her work. I want her to instinctively hug me when she's scared. I want to remind her to take her meds. I want to drive her to the doctor. I want to cook food and bring it to her when she neglects to eat. I want to help fix her bathroom sink. I want to buy her gifts for Otis. I want her to show me the process of making ASMR and teach me how she does things with her streams. I want to be woken up by her whispers. I want to help her put her ribbons on. I want to carry heavy things for her. I want her to show me cute things that I would never find myself. I want to interlock fingers with her tiny hands. I want to encourage her to come outside and go for a short walk with me. I want her to remember me. I want to be able to love Shondo with all of my heart.

>>48665943
One more.
https://files.catbox.moe/e10x7h.mp4

>>48667318
>>48665943
that could go in one hole and out the other
could make some grotesque all-the-way-through penetration guro

>>48667444
Seconding this

>>48665943
>>48667318
NICE
Now kill her with it

>>48666707
same

>48667920
Death by fucking with a giant oversized cock correction required

>>48667920
I can't believe Shondo is a sexpest...

>>48667920
WIFE IS CHEATING!@!

>>48668526
It's ok if the girl is cute.

>>48668632
god I wish I was a cute girl

thanmku for telling me about chatterino this program makes twitch chat so much better

>>48669165
ur welmcom letterman

https://files.catbox.moe/ejcgpc.mp4

Shondo squats (thanks again for these Anon). First time editing video, how did I do?
https://files.catbox.moe/ujczxn.mp4

>>48669529
This is very good

what the fuck is nbeans89
bluebird buggin

>>48669634
???

>>48669825
i refreshed one of shadows twitter accounts and it turned into this and then back

>>48669899
hidden shondo lore

>>48669945
hidden?

>>48669899
If you search for "nbeans89" only one account comes up. It is now "NOI_4554". Maybe you clicked on that guy's profile once?

>>48670272
definitely not. it was just a page refresh. twitter bugged out somehow, which is not surprising given that twitter circles leak too. I panicked because I thought she deleted it

>>48670413
>it was just a page refresh.
No, I meant some time earlier, so that it might have been in the cache or something. Would be a weird coincidence that it shows you an account that comments under containment breakers and Inis. But yeah, twitter is certainly bugged. For a while it would instantly remove any likes I gave if I did it on mobile while I had an attached picture enlarged, and notifications haven't been working well for a long time.

>>48670730
>some time earlier, so that it might have been in the cache
I really don't think so but I don't have a good explanation and I didn't think to check dev tools before I started freaking out

https://files.catbox.moe/ea7imq.mp4

>>48669609
I certainly wasn't expecting something like that. Glad you liked the animations.

kek

>>48671493
Does she not mute porn accounts?

>>48671622
Even if you do you can’t mute them all
Plenty of artists she follows draw porn too

Should i be worried about mythic?

>>48671935
No

>>48671493
She's bullshitting, but I believe her.

>>48672011
Her forest elder is the same person that laughed her ass off with her husband at naming a cactus dick, I believe it

>>48671935
Why? I see no reason to.

>>48671935
Fuck no.
Owner called her a pedophile for liking a picture of a loli in a swimsuit on twitter and even if that wasn’t true I doubt she would be whatsoever interested.
It is funny though because plenty of lolisho lovers are in Mythic already, so clearly they don’t know anything about who they’re inviting in (even Milky who is probably more of a shotacon than Shondo is a lolicon)

>>48672011
Her forest elder makes constant sex jokes and laughs at them herself to Shondo’s horror and named a cactus Willy like 30 years ago and she and her husband thought it was the funniest shit ever.
Shondo also tells her literally everything about vtubing and what she does. This seems like a stupid thing to make up if not even for clout considering it’s on her alt.

I hope her forest elder comes on stream one day, Shondo said her voice is somehow even higher than her own

Haven't seen this one posted anywhere. Not amazing quality, but still okay nonetheless.
https://files.catbox.moe/w3zev1.png

>>48673521
>not amazing quality
Huh?

>>48673521
Nice

>>48671493
I'm so confused about her stance on porn. Says she likes guro...isn't most of it pornographic in some way? Is she okay with nudity as long as there isn't sex? I don't want to get muted for posting something I only posted because I thought it might be up her alley. Non-nude anime gore isn't really common.

>>48675403
She doesn't hate porn, it just isn't for her. She's fine with ecchi and can appreciate nudity at least from an artistic standpoint. The closest she's gotten to liking straight up porn (while sober) was an image of Alice having her decapitated corpse fucked by Jason so I think if she likes the guro enough she can look past the sex.

>>48675403
Yeah as the other anon said she doesn't hate porn. Just doesn't like it. Guro she likes artistically and the stuff she draws herself isn't really nude, only one piece had nudity and it was literally just a butt. She's fine with porn though, you can make any sort of porn of her and she won't be offended or care, just don't put it in her main tag or anything, put it in #shaduoh. She doesn't really check it so she doesn't have to see it if she doesn't want to.

>>48675403
nude only = porn if you're a coombrain, she even likes nude pinup stuff just fine long as she can appreciate the artistic value of it, but sexual acts are a no-go generally and she'll probably be disgusted unless she's in the right mood (which just turns it from disgust to indifference)

I want to sniff her

>>48678927
the best coconutty girl smell in the world

how do you get better at stalking?

Will a therapist laugh at me if I tell them I'm depressed because I will never be with the love of my life, who is a british anime loli vtuber?

>>48679727
Probably

minor nitpick haha get it but lolis shouldnt be drawn with fully developed nipples

>>48679780
There's a difference?

>>48679727
why would you tal to a therapist when you can listen to shondo..?

>>48679896
I cant this or next week, I am struggling extremely hard

>>48679727
you dont need a therapist, you have (us)
lmao

>>48679727
Genuinely this. I’ve gotten to the point where I’m actually considering therapy and I know it wouldn’t be worth going if I didn’t tell the whole truth. I can admit to my sins and shit but, yeah. It’d be embarrassing to tell a stranger that part of the reason why I’m like this right now is because of a schizophrenic anime girl

>>48680030
listen to some asmrs again, do some vodreps, listen to the new releases at least 50 times..
you'll make it through these 2 weeks of sad anon, trust

>>48680044
I typed out and deleted paragraphs of everything I wanted to say probably 10 times today. I dont want to shit up the thread. Maybe next week when I am looking at the rope

>>48680105
you'd just be put on SSRI's and nothing will be fixed, it's time you stop trying to take control of yourself and give your mind, psyche and body to shonshon!

Reject meds, accept Shondo into your heart

>>48679727
I've thought this exact thing. I can't explain it to anyone without sounding ridiculous.

Also part of me wonders if Shondo doesn't enjoy gaslighting/manipulating fans into mental illness of their own as part of her own schizo. I'm not sure if she has hidden sociopathic tendencies.

Anyways I started on trazadone and it helps.

>>48680212 (me)
also go watch alice together with wifey dummie, we are here together

>>48680105
I think therapists hear significantly more embarrassing shit on the regular anon, the reasons people have for seeking help generally aren't things to be proud of, that's the point of talking to a therapist about it rather than someone you would have to deal with in your normal life

>>48680196
I won't speak for everyone but I don't mind if you spill. It couldn't be worse than the start of the thread for example

>>48680678
I dont think shondo likes it at all if people start to make another person's stream about her so you cant really interact with her; and at the same time she gets jealous if you interact with other streamers. So is there a winning move besides watch in silence?

>>48680824
In my defense at least I was watching Alice before she showed up

>>48680852
cheater

>>48680824
flirt with the other streamer so shondo thinks about you in particular and desires to pull you back individually

>>48680879
Shondo is fine with supporting her friends, it's not like I'm flirting with her or some shit

>>48680824
you're not supposed to interact with her, you're watching someone together sillyhead
she doesnt get jealous as long as you dont whale or send cutesy/lovey dovey comments to another streamer
its like watching a movie with your gf together, you dont talk about how cute and pretty the girl is, you just keep any such thoughts to yourself and cuddle up watching it together...

>>48680196
sorry, i didnt update the thread for some time and tought you were just joking
i dont know if it will help you, but take some time for yourself for some days, watch some anime something different i dont know. i was like that some weeks ago, felling better now, not perfect but yeah it is what it is
personally, i cant trust therapy, but if you can go for it

thoughtful shondo
kind shondo

the sweetest kindest girl ever created on earth

https://files.catbox.moe/w41alk.mp4

>>48682209
Me in the middle

>>48682236
>>48682209
yeah me

>>48682209
HOLY CHRIST

>>48682209
>shotashit
meh
I am no child with a childdick but good for you who are

>>48682536
Just for you, big boy.
https://files.catbox.moe/af7irn.mp4

>>48683195
kek

>>48683195
shondo please ease up with the death grip

>>48683195
shondo stroking your urethra directly! uoooh!!

sho n shondo double whammy
ms paint thread made me enjoy paint for what it was

https://files.catbox.moe/280x0r.png

>>48684023
Nice

>>48684023
My urge to break my Shondo celibacy has never been so strong

Is there a way to minimize Chatterino to notifications area or is it on taskbar forever

>>48684023
any version without the male? I am not a faggot.

>>48684314
there is nothing gay about sho

>>48684314
I made it with sho in mind since in the last /lig/ thread, a guy was wondering if there's any sho lewds. So i made one. Sorry (ﾒ﹏ﾒ). Hope he sees this one tho.

>>48685151
Fair enough, fag.

I doubt anyone cares much but Pippa seems interested in collabing with Shondo again, also said she would smooch her

>>48685610
I will kill that whore rabbit before she kisses my wife

>>48685610
Less dramawhores more actual girls that arent antiloli

>>48685610
time to pull out the pippa yabs folder i guess

>>48680944
you are doing it wrong, you should flirt with her friends like 90% of her regulars

>>48685940
But that would be lying, I'd have sex with her friends but now of them interest me romantically

>>48685940
anon.. dont use wifey's sadness to filter people....

>>48685610
sure I guess, she is wife's friend. Most people here care more about projecting their autistic hatred towards pink rabbit into Shondo and don't give a shit about her feelings though.

>>48686067
not really, i just think its a terrible idea to collab with pippa, all that will do is cause another wave of dramatards, and i dont want to see wifey get sadge

>>48686185
I doubt it, Pippa's fans are autists but it can't be worse than the Neuro autists

>>48686185
No. Dramatards will always come and go
You are just making excuses to project your hate into wife, and on wife's friends no less. You are the dramanigger.

>>48686252
you really think so? neuro autists are just le twitch kappa kekw 4head posters, but pippa's fans are twitter dramamagnets
>>48686300
i usually watch pippa streams anon, i have nothing against her personally, i think she makes funny content

>>48686001
I mean, I am not wrong. If you check the chat of her loli friends you often see her regulars being way too friendly with them

I wanna go to sleep but I don't wanna miss any tweets

>>48686394
yeah i uh.. i cant deny that ;~;
wheres that /x/poster, im waiting for our shondo curse exorcism

>>48686252
Fruit farmers are the biggest antiloli faggots on the internet
Anyone that wants Shondo to collab with her is an anti himself

>>48687073
If you seriously care that much then go bring it up to Shondo

>>48686602
I just woke up and missed mostly everything today
I should just not wake up ever

>>48687073
Funny because pippa enjoys loli once a while
Again, you are just projecting your retarded morals and hatred into Shondo, like the retarded puritans do.
Go seethe about it on pcg instead of shitting up this thread.

I have a sudden urge for Shondo guro, I need more art of Shondo getting fucked to death

Would

>>48687647
>Check twitter
>See guro of wifey
Thank you for reading my post, I love you

How does one go about sticking ones cock in Shondo's eyesocket

No fun allowed but she did not said anything about my dick.

>>48688097
I'd demonstrate in koikatsu but I'm tired, so I'll do it tomorrow

>no fingies in the eye socket
Well... she DIDN'T say I couldn't...

There is no way she did not consider the socket being fucked at any point while drawing this. The idea was clearly put into her head during GTA and she liked it. She is a sick child and I love her.

>>48688333
>Cunny too tight
>Too pure for anal
>Mouth too small
That only leaves 2 options, either cutting open her gut and fucking it or gouging out an eye

>>48688398
>Mouth too small
Wrong.

>>48688333
>>48688398
I want to fuck her womb from the inside...
What has this girl done to me? Why do I find this shit so hot now, wtf? A year ago it would've been horrifying to me. Now I desperately want to permanently blind her and fuck her brain... I guess it's the control aspect that's so hot, permanently changing her body for your needs, taking away her senses, oh god is this why she likes the doll shit? Oh god

>>48685151
I did see it, don't let them get you down you're awesome. Great work!

>>48688641
She did this to me years ago with her fucked up asmr, it makes me happy she is still the same such a long time later

>>48688641
glad you finally awakened to the best fetish!
surgically removing shon's skull! poking her brain directly! gently taking out pieces of her brain until she loses her vision!
soon you will lose the will to fuck her but instead slowly dismember her body piece by piece as she smiles with tears in her eyes <3

You heard her

Reminder that since Shondo is just a goo monster piloting a little girls body, you can keep killing her and fucking her dying body over and over and she can just keep finding more beautiful girls to take over. It’s like that one guro manga about the immortal maid.

>>48688997
Imagine ramming your dick into her eye and feeling the mushy remains of what’s left of it as you go in and out. All she could do is cry and take it.

I never know if I should be as menhera as her when responding, or keep a bit tame. I dont want her to associate me with what I say on this account

>>48689189
One of the questions I sent her was pretty tame and she seemed surprised by it, I have no idea where on the scale I should ever be. It's a complete guessing game to me

dont hurt her bros please

>>48689032
She's a shapeshifter, isn't she? I thought she just took on the form of things she ate.

Aaaaah I want to kidnap her and cut off all of her limbs! I want to render her completely helpless! I want to remove her eyeballs so that the last thing she ever sees is me! I want to fill every cavity in her helpeless body with my cum! She will be covered in it always! I want her to live in a world where she's constantly waiting on me to come and hurt her! I want to cut her open and fuck her hot insides! I want to fill Shondo's ribcage with my cum! I want to cut open her skull and fuck her brain! I want to feel the soft tissue wriggling around my cock as she twitches and becomes more and more lifeless! AAAAAAAH I NEED HER!

>>48689438
i dont remember writing this post

>>48689189
Stop being a bitch. She doesn't cares. Most people play along with her even if they are just larping.
Personally I really like guro so I just say my honest feelings, I only hide my desire to fuck her deep wounds and corpse.

The fact that she legitimately wants to be violated and for you to just do whatever you want with her despite her being so sex repulsed is so strange and hot.
Is this a trauma thing?

Who are you people talking about? Shondo isnt in the twitch chat

>>48689679
yes

>>48689749
ur mom

>>48689749
we're schizophrenic, are you new here?

>>48689749
Anons are so shondo deprived we are having a shared mental breakdown, please ignore us

she's awakening something within me and i both love it and fear it? i don't understand it. how does she do it. i want to read her mind. i want to really see what's inside her head.

she still a cutter?

>>48689957
Not anymore

>>48689749
We finally lost it

>>48689957
Not for a decade
She cut herself before she was medicated when she was a little kid. She just cut really fucking deep.

I know she feels bad about giving me these gross and crazy ideas but what did she expect? I was standing on the edge and she lightly pushed me off. Now she has to take responsibility for ruining every other woman for me

>>48689414
Seems to be a bit of both considering she can grow animal ears

>>48690091
hope not. yeah you can see it under her ribbon in the handcam stream

>>48690241
The scars are completely white but ridged in a way that you can tell she cut through a lot, and she has tendon damage in her right hand and can't move all her fingers properly. She'll likely always have the scars and mobility issues.

>just came into my onahole thinking about fucking a hole I cut open on her body while listening to the ear licking voice pack
I’m too far gone

>>48689438
Based

>>48690098
I was a bit sad when she responded to my maro saying she feels bad for it, but I’m glad she did. I want her to keep ruining me.

I think violating her is hot because she likes it. If she had not enjoyed it herself then I would not have liked it either. I simply want to satisfy her and that will bring be satisfaction as well.

>>48690662
I just can’t stop thinking of all the ways to violate her, like fucking her throat so hard she vomits, then using the vomit as lube. Or dripping scalding how wax over her and watching her squirm.

>>48690773
how wax

>>48690773
When she was saying she abhors being ticked I was silently thinking to myself
>so you want me to do it then?

I want to lick her scars and create new ones for both of us.

>>48690662
i want to say that i'd do it for her, but i wonder if i actually could.
i have to get better. i have to get stronger for her. i will become more sadistic. i must.

>>48690662
i wish i felt the same. all i want is to protect her, even when i humor her fantasies. shes too perfect. theres so many others that deserve to be ruined but not her.

Are your fantasies strictly fantasy related to her model, or do you really want to do these things with her?
As someone who isn’t into guro I do wonder, because I definitely want to fuck the real Shondo senseless.
Should we actually be afraid of someone kidnapping her in Paris, cutting off all her limbs and fucking her eye sockets?

>>48690875
Honestly the fact she let us have complete control over when she could pee was so hot. Listening to her squirm was awesome.
But god it would be so much better to tie her up and watch her wriggle desperately.

>>48690981
A lot of what's posted here is likely just horny speak, you can tell because it comes in waves

>>48690981
Model or not, I want to do it.

>>48690981
im terrified that some schizo fan is gonna hurt her for real one day

>>48690981
I dont really think of her irl body at all, even my hyper autistic stories I come up with of kidnapping her she still looks like shondo in my head

>>48690981
Seems like multiple people know where she actually lives so since she isn't already kidnapped and dead yet I think >>48691109 is right.

Unless you guys take turns to kidnap her once a week and that's what shadow weekends really is.

>>48685610
I love Pippa, she's my oshii just behind Shondo, who is my one true Kami-oshii. I'd love to see them collab, but it's unlikely to happen because brain worms makes them introverted, but it's not impossible. I don't get how you can enjoy one and not the other when they have very similar beats, Pippa is just an AU Shondo, and I can say this with confidence having observed both extensively.

>>48690981
i wasn't one of the people above, and don't want to actually hurt her, but i do want to say one thing.
in general, people who backpedal on their own words with the "muh fantasy vs reality so different" excuse are pathetic pussies who shouldn't have been saying anything in the first place.

>>48690981
Considering how closely tied the Person is to the character my fantasiea of lovey dovey baby making sex with Shondo applies to all aspects of her, especially when you consider how cute and funny she really is from her own testimonies. They end at fantasies though because Shondo is entirely without sex, no sex with Shondo, she doesn't want it, nopenopenope.

>>48690981
i dont want to have sex with shondo for the same reasons she doesnt want to have sex, le mental trauma
when it comes to the guro though, honestly speaking? if it was consensual, i could see myself going pretty far. that goes for her real lifeself, not just her model. i REALLY enjoy beating, cutting, all the good stuff, so it'd probably be that, and not actual death.

>>48692008
>"muh fantasy vs reality so different"
yeah it is. thats why loli is okay but shondo hates real child abuse.

What will I do when the thread dies?

>>48692184
>Shondo is entirely without sex, no sex with Shondo, she doesn't want it, nopenopenope.
that just makes the idea of achieving consensual passionate loveydovey sex with her all the more romantic. getting her to overcome her trauma 4 u

>>48692630
Same you do on your regular shadow weekends, wait for a new one

>>48692717
it's too long.

does she suppress her accent intentionally for some reason? watching soma and shes more briish

>>48692641
Overcoming trauma is too much effort. Just call it an irl pregathom and convince her to do it for the meme.

>>48693016
She doesnt leave her house, and most media she interacts with isnt british
She just sorta started losing her accent, its still there for a few words if you pay attention

>>48690981
I could manage to hurt her if she really wanted it, but I would probably need a lot of encouragement. It would probably feel like torturing a puppy or something at first. I also don't care about sex because I've gone my whole life without it and don't really value it at this point. When I first started watching her it killed what little sex drive I had left for a good while because of how she mentally invaded me

>>48693059
>too much effort
>for shondo
Only Shondo would say this. Hi.

>>48692376
lolicon isn't the fantasy equivalent of child abuse. loli abuse is.
and clearly the outcomes of fantasizing and carrying something out in reality aren't the same. so i'm not saying that they aren't different.
you know what, i can't actually articulate very well what i really mean. it's complicated. i'll take what i said back.
i just don't like it when people pretend to like something that they don't actually like.

>>48693143
>it killed what little sex drive I had left for a good while because of how she mentally invaded me
Why is this so common? Actual succubus demonwitch.

I want to embrace her painfully tightly and then shoot her in the head before turning the gun on myself.

>>48693016
She code switches without consciously thinking about it that much. When talking to her family she has more of an accent.

>>48693125
>>48693016
do u prefer ur shonnos more or less brtish

>>48693472
Check her twitch announcement from a year ago on her YT and her accent is pretty strong there. Crazy how watered down it can get over a year

>>48693328
I don't know, for me it was just a lot of stress and anxiety from finally meeting someone properly that I had known about for some time longer. It didn't help that she paid a good amount of attention to me when I was new too

god i wish i wasn't a chronic lurker. literally can't bring myself to speak without at least some semblance of anonymity. don't want everything i say to be forever attached to me. but i want to speak to wife so bad. but i have nothing of value to say, ever. and i don't feel like i even have the right to speak, as i am a newfag. god fucking damn it. she will never even know i exist.

>>48694142
just make a new twitter/twitch/discord/email identity and try your best. if you fuck up it dont matter

>>48694142
I typically lurk whenever the stream is too big and chat is too active. But it feels these days like you can't talk to her anymore because there's so many people. I've been around for a while and I wonder if Shondo recognises me as a regular or if I'm just another name.

I just spam emotes in her chat and never say anything meaningful.

>>48694321
I think her brand is destined to fall apart as she grows. What draws people to her only works when she's small, and we've just now crossed that threshold to where its no longer managable

>>48694375
I made this post but I shouldn't have, shut up

>>48694375
do you love her? unironically

>>48694490
I never loved anyone before her.

>>48694321
do you say hi and bye at least

>>48694379
what a great fucking time to become a part of this, huh.
i hate my fucking life. i'm always too late.

>>48694530
so how come you only spam emotes?

>>48694379
Part of me is sad that I missed out on low 3view Shondo, but another part is somewhat glad that I can't get too close and hurt her/go schizo as seems to happen to many people. And maybe the people who used to get more attention from her but don't anymore might feel more shitty about it compared to me

>>48694642
I have no way with words, and it's just a much lower barrier for me.

>>48694642
>>48694743
And I didn't chat at all for the first few months, so even this was progress.

https://files.catbox.moe/2e8e5z.png

>>48694379
Hope that i can still draw her lots before that happens. I love to drawing her.

>>48694840
?

https://files.catbox.moe/2e8e5z.png

>>48694379
I hope i can still draw her lots before that happens. I love drawing her. (deleted prior post due to ESL moment)

I don't care to have an individual relationship with Shondo, I just want to enjoy her love as part of a collective group that is embodied in a singular (You). I enjoyed when she talked about thinking of us in that way, though I suppose that's contradicted by stalking and following individual prominent fans.

>>48694620
Amongst the hundreds of others. She's barely a 4view now, interaction is becoming more and more scarce unless it's a sleepier stream that less people show up to, but I haven't seen her dip below 900 in a while. And don't even think about sub only streams because every viewer is subscribed thanks to her paypigs.

>>48694989
I like this. Can you draw some kissey stuff?

>>48695049
shondo with whom?
Dunno if i can do things on demand yet since i'm just drawing lewd shondo rn just to practice drawing NSFW since i have no prior experience with it before these. But I'll still try!

>>48695006
thats why i dont gift subs
there are other ways to support her

>>48695137
Shondo and sho with (you) would be pretty epic I think

>>48695208
triple kiss? aight ill try

Disgusting faggots

>>48695006
>>48694321
Skill issue. She knows those who interact with her. If you can't even do that its your fault for being so pathetic.

>>48695681
>She knows those who interact with her.
She stalks lurkers too, she has said so multiple times, so youre just kind of wrong

>>48695782
Parasocialism goes both ways, my oshii is just as obsessive and unhinged as I am.

>how does she do it?
we are all as menhera and yandere as her, maybe more, and she encourages it.

Reminder that people have been desperately saying “what she does isn’t sustainable it’s all going to fall apart” since the threads a year and a half ago when she was under 1/3 the size

>>48696124
Someone like shondo is unironically the only kind of person who can make what she does work.
It's a set of very unique circumstances and personality that won't be replicated.

>>48695782
You are crying about not being able to talk to her. If you can't it's literally all your fault

>>48696183
Exactly. Shondo is a unicorn.

When i started watching her, i just lurked on /uoh/ and /lig/. Why can't newfags just stfu and lurk until they know at least the bare minimum about her?
There are many stupid questions and wrong assumptions in these threads it's almost funny.