/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

no it made it worse

>>21261843
>Did no use chuuubas to make this the newest /uuu/

I still want to die anon.

No

I thought I could substitute real life interactions with vtubers. I guess I was wrong.

Hahahahhahahahah.

Ahahahahahahahahahahah

>>21261843
now i'm always horny and want to die at the same time

i want to kiss her cute toes while she calls me a good boy

I miss/schizo/...uuuuuuuuuuuuuUuuuUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

>>21261843
With the amount of retards here clearly no

It has made it way fucking worse. I was getting back to being stable, now i feel depressed every day because I'll never have fauna. I MISS FAUNA I MISS FAUNA I MISS FAUNA UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

>Pre chuubas
Antisocial retard, spent my days watching garbage anime alone in my parents basement
>post chuubas
Antisocial retard, spend my days watching streamers pretend to be anime girls alone in my parents garage (we moved house)

>>21261843
I didn't think I could get worse. Now I know.

>>21261843
Only got short bursts of dopamine then long stretches of unbearable loneliness.

Ones that can control themselves yeah. The ones that can't make it worse so I try and filter them.

She turned them into a tree.They ARE THE TREES!!!
>She turned them into a tree.They ARE THE TREES!!!
She turned them into a tree.They ARE THE TREES!!!
>She turned them into a tree.They ARE THE TREES!!!
She turned them into a tree.They ARE THE TREES!!!
>She turned them into a tree.They ARE THE TREES!!!
She turned them into a tree.They ARE THE TREES!!!
>She turned them into a tree.They ARE THE TREES!!!
She turned them into a tree.They ARE THE TREES!!!
>She turned them into a tree.They ARE THE TREES!!!
She turned them into a tree.They ARE THE TREES!!!
>She turned them into a tree.They ARE THE TREES!!!

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Guys the rrats about Fauna hating us are getting to me, what do i do?

I am a little better I guess, I just have been wasting my time and procrastinating like I never have up until this point, it's ridiculous. I seriously need to organize myself.

>>21261843
I started off as a lurker, then decided to go deeper into the rabbit hole. Now I am currently subscribed to 4 Hololive channels,1 indie channel, browse /vt/ almost dialy, and I believe it'll only get worse. It won't be long now until I start giving away my money just to earn 5 seconds of their attention. What do I do guys?

>>21263084
sorry anon it's true. she won't even post a schedule. writing is on the wall, it's your choice to ignore it or not.

>>21263211
Find a chuuba that reads all her supas and become her biggest paypig. She might even remember your name

>>21263293

>>21261843
My father died shortly after HoloEN debuts, so they made a good something to follow from the beginning and not think about ending of things.

>>21263991
Sorry pal

>>21264032
>My father died shortly after HoloEN debuts
LET'S GOOOOOOOOOO

>>21263578
Ha! May remember your name!!! That's a good one anon... wait... you're serious? Take your meds, you're losing it.

>>21261843
Yeah, helped make it worse

>>21264032
sorry about your father.

>>21263022

>>21261843
Genuinely, yes. Vox's voice helps keep me calm. You know that jumpy leg thing that people with anxiety do when they sit down? I don't do that anymore since I've been watching Vox's streams more. He also makes my heart jump which is a feeling I haven't had in a while. This man genuinely has some sort of unhuman powers.

>>21261843
I want to rape Fauna

>>21265551
Would she be into it?

No, it's a nice distraction, but every time I take a peek at how my former classmates are doing in life, I get punched in the face with an inferiority complex, seeing them starting families and shit, while I'm just crushing on a virtual girl.

>>21265589
yanderes rape, not get raped

>>21261843
Honestly? Yah, but coming to /vt/ hasn't helped
I hate mori now than ever before
I wish rushia yab wasn't retarded
Hayama Marin reminds me of how much I hate soulsfag on the internet
I love Nijisanji jp, but think EN was a mistake
Hana machia was an even bigger mistake

>>21261843
Holy SEX

>>21267513
I think this is one of the most arousing vt pic i've ever seen

>>21263022
you can be one of the trees too

>>21261843
They help me keep the mysoginy in check by showing me there are cool women out there that do pursue their interests earnestly and have good personalities

Yes! I just take better care of myself and smile much more now that I have an oshi. She does live rent free in my head though, so there is that.

>>21261843
I think so, I don't visit /vt/ as I used to do and I'm trying to get out of my comfort zone. I don't think it's a huge improvement but it's something you can't expect only from watching a vtuber. Anyway thanks fauna I'm taking care of myself now

no
now I always feel like shit knowing that they make in one stream what I make in a month

>>21261843
Unlike the mentally ill people here yes they at least kept me occupied ever since COVID happened and helped me not die of boredom while giving me something to look forward to everyday.

>>21261843
>watching vchuubaas
Coming here for drama and making paypigs angry is the most fun I get before sleep.

>>21261843
I cope with my uneventful life by pretending chuubas and all the drama on /vt/ actually matter.

Fauna is trash btw.

Wow anyone ever take a long enough break from 4chan only to come back and realize how much of a waste of time it is?
Like several weeks to several months at a time?
On top of that you feel considerably less miserable about everything.

>generally less angry and bitter about things you can't control in your life
>more confident and about things you can control in your life
>less over stimulation from porn and gore videos, porn addiction goes down, less tired
>more focused and productive, doing more fulling things IRL
>talk to women more often, actually get laid instead of just jerking off all the time
>spend more quality time with people that actually care about you and create new memories
There are so many upsides from spending significantly less time lurking 4chan on a daily basis.
Why do you keep coming here and making yourself feel worse when you can just not do it?

If you could calculate how much time you've accumulated over years and years from posting and lurking on 4chan you'd be disgusted yourselves desu

It makes my hallucinations lessen. It engages my mind enough to not be on constant high alert which feeds back into my issues. Streams and events regulate my sleep schedue. I have more of a drive to watch streams than harm myself. I got surprised when I saw a vtuber who is schizophrenic and said similar things. I know watching videos/tv is a common distraction tactic but it's different with streams, they need you to be paying attention as it happens live, maybe for even 10 hours straight, even more brain power needed if it's in a language you're learning.

>>21271896
I went cold turkey for 3 years and none of that happened to me.

>>21271784
Why?

>>21261843
It's helped me with overcoming a lot of boredom.

I started a new job around when EN debut and I am way overqualified for what I do so I have tons of free time on the job. Watching streams helps.

>>21271984
Boring streams, mediocre ASMR, genuinely uninteresting, also white weeb cringe.

>>21261843
It's a yo-yo, really. My oshi keeps me going through a job I hate and a life I squandered, but sometimes the knowledge that most of her support is all in my head and that her laughing at my antics in her chat once in a while is just a fun part of business hits me hard. Watching her have fun during streams makes the paranoia fade away for a few hours though.

>>21261843
Not in the fucking slightest.

>>21272138
I disagree

>>21272138
I disagree

>>21261843
Absolutely not OP, a brisk morning walk does that job much better

>>21272138
i disagree and in addition think you should be slapped

>>21261843
yes, but not this one. i'm pretty sure fauna makes you go insane

>>21272616
WILL, NO

>>21261843
Yeah, but visiting /vt/ undid it all.

>>21272138
Also has a best friend, enjoy paying for condoms.

>>21273364
yeah, me.

>>21272616
Why do Vtuber fans make the most unfunny memes imaginable

>>21261843
No, it made it much worse, I used to cope with not having a gf telling myself all women were whores who wouldn't even like the same stuff that I do, but after I started watching vtubers I realized some women CAN be nice and they CAN like the things I do.
Now I'm even more depressed and mentally ill than I've ever been, doesn't help that people like Fauna do ASMR that make me experience something I'll never have even if for a short while.

>>21272138
everything you said is false. she has only one fault that you didn't mention that completely ruins her

>>21261907
kek
fpbp

>>21261843
Wound up becoming a saviourfag so no
Knowing I can't save them all or any of them to begin with is pain

Kind of? It got me awfully worse at first when I fell for the shark, then I got depressed and started lifting and running for Hina from Blue archive, overall I think it just got me deep enough to realize into what I was getting into and I got the fuck out.

>>21262712
You have a job and help pay the bills right anon?

>>21276088
Real life nut cases turnt me into an anti savior fag. Turns out you can't save anyone, and the ones that need the saving treat you like shit for trusting them. The best thing to do when you see someone who has any problems is to ignore them.

>>21274510
i cope with that issue by just reminding myself its a clear difference between what you get irl and a chuuba addiction, im pretty attached to fauna but it doesnt destroy my wellbeing. if anything it helps a little since its a substitute to listen to her asmr at night. her second KU 100 stream i mustve played 100 times now.

Yep, as a young man, them vtubers helped.

>>21261843
Definitely. Vtubers broke me free from anime and waifuism, and from there it became easier to take an extra step and leave vtubers behind. I finally lost my virginity, got my first gf... And my second... third...
I still watch vtubers sometimes, usually before I go to bed or when I'm having a day off, but that's about it.

>>21276800
Then you woke up. I'm sorry anon.

>>21276468
NTA but I don't associate myself with menheras IRL, just anon/pseudonymously at a safe distance online.

>>21261843
No, no difference. It has made me more aware of parasocial relationships which has influenced how I consoom content online so that I don't end up like some of you twisted faggots.

>>21261843
It made me hate women less until I realised they all use corporate personalities to scam men out of money. So no, Im still an incel

>>21276508
I just want someone to do to me what Fauna did in her lap pillow ASMR.

>>21261843
Quite the opposite; initially HoloMyth gave me a huge dose of motivation to actually get off my ass and apply myself, but that feeling faded and now I find myself unable to care about or do anything but watch vtubers. Shit got so bad that I lost my job because of my inability to care about it.

I still want to die, but atleast I'm trying to do it after my oshi inevitably graduates

>>21279532
Should've found the drive to do well at your job so you could pay for akasupas, man. This predicament you're in is not the fault of the bread and circus, rather it was using the bread and circus to avoid what you needed to sort out that's to blame.

>>21279784
I'm a menhera with plenty of other issues; the vtubers weren't the cause but my attitude towards them just made things worse.

>>21276429

Dont listened to broken depressed fags, they will never be happy with anything. Any hobby you can immerse yourself into fully will benefit your mental health. If your a broken depressed fag yourself then yeah it wont help.

I've gotten so used to listening to vtubers that sometimes when I'm watching my friend play, I forget she's an actual person I know and not just another disembodied internet voice.

>Start watching chuubas
>Get ahead in life, good job, relationships, etc
>No more time for chuubas
>Mental health nose dives
At least I may be developing a disability

What >>21279532 said. Watching the shark while I wait for the nukes to start flying.

>>21261843
no

>>21261843
Kinda the opposite in a way. Watching them created a huge envy/jealousy in me at seeing people who aren't traditional normalfags still manage to find good friends and interact with the opposite gender regularly in a informal way, meanwhile I have no friends, and I've never been more than acquaintances with the opposite gender.

It was enough to give me the drive I needed to touch (more) grass and try to find friends of my own in both genders. So far it's a very slow process, but I've managed to get on with some people, exercise my long since dormant non-professional social skills, and feel just a little bit prouder of myself for going out of my comfort zone a few times and generally being able to find at least one person I gel with. So in a way, I'm grateful to vtubers.

The big thing though is most of the things I've went to and pretty much all the people I established a rapport with are your typical full normalfag, while I'm as cyborg as you can get. Next step is to find places where I can meet other cyborgs irl, but I suppose that's like finding a needle in a haystack, isn't it?

>>21286013
Where'd you go to find people to talk to? The only place i can think of where you can just talk to strangers is bars but i never get along with the people there, cause at least in my area they're all extremely trashy

>>21261843
yes

>>21261843
Yes but only for a year, after that it worsened

>>21286910
I live in NYC so meetup.com actually works legit for the most part. I've been to a few bars but I'm guessing the bars I went to are on the expensive side because all the people I've managed to gel with were essentially yuppies who make fuck you salaries in finance and basically live like Patrick Bateman. Although, there was another guy who was a psychiatrist, another who went to Julliard (basically Ivy League for music schools) and had something like 30k instagram followers for his jazz music, and another guy I met at a writer's meetup is doing public policy and education reform at Columbia.

One of the finance dudes invited me over to his high end apartment and that's where I found out him and his roomies (all from Duke) live like that. Was able to not completely embarrass myself, but they're the complete opposites of me (I'm a straightedge STEM researcher and adjunct prof who does lots of community service) so I don't think I'll hang out with them going forward. The guy from Julliard is a legit gigachad who's pretty much always busy, so don't think that's gonna work out. I really gelled with the dude with Columbia over community service and teaching so I'm gonna see if I can hang with him again this week, he seemed like he was out to meet new people too. Baby steps.

When I believed in my oshi, I thought things might be able to get better. Put a bit of work in on myself, now I weigh fifty pounds less and can bench a hundred pounds more, but after being let down time and again by somebody I idolised I slid straight back into the mundane, boring quagmire of misery and demotivation that i've been squatting in for the past twenty years.

So I guess call it an initial boost to mood and motivation that went away after just over a year.

>>21289191
you got a link to that jazz guy's instagram?

>>21261843
With all the SEAnigger schizos on this board I'd say that its only worsened.

>>21290984
Look up mambojazz1

I didn't meet him through meetup though, he just happened to be hanging out at a bar I was visiting, I asked him how his week was, we really hit it off, and we ended up pub crawling with the finance dude who invited me over to his apartment (I also met him for the first time there)

Studied abroad in China, toured in Japan among other places, is a vet and was in the band for the Marines, and apparently played for and met three different presidents. He is really well traveled and educated, super charismatic, funny and interesting as you might expect, but somehow also a genuinely kind dude and great listener. Me being a virgin at 24 came up sometime during our hangout by my own admission, but he was genuinely nonjudgmental about it, gave me loads of interesting advice, and even made me feel better about myself afterward by bringing up things I accomplished and talked about with him earlier, and saying stuff like I had the life experience and conversational skills to genuinely fascinate people, using himself as an example.

Hell, I brought up the short megadebuff in regards to dating when I was asking him advice, and he somehow managed to argue that it wasn't an automatic fate sealer, was even advantageous in certain social situations, and it all actually didn't sound like total bullshit because he always could back it up with specific stories. It was nuts, and honestly meant a lot. Lends credence to my general thought/experience that actual chads are genuinely great people.

>>21294300
>>21290984
I just found a jazz website that interviewed him, and holy shit he's done some genuinely amazing stuff. Can't fucking believe I met him at some random bar

https://jazzmusiciansvoice.net/2020/11/02/a-life-of-music-languages-and-global-travel-isaiah-richardson-jr-interview-2/

Anyway, guess I should stop blogshitting now.

>>21295215
yeah man you'll meet everyone in new york. all my favorite jazz guys are there. i thought this guy would be someone i know but i'll definitely be checking him out

>>21296021
aw shit, you a musician too? that'd be a funny as fuck coincidence

>>21261907
this

Mental health doesn't exist

>>21261843
no

>>21261843
I'm not sure how I would have survived covid mentally without vtubers.