/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

Not your bro

>>20301275
holy fuck that image pretty much describes my mental state perfectly

>>20301340
no said friends allowed!

What's wrong, friends?

>>20301340
how so? pussy?

>>20303622
>>20303440
constant suicidal thoughts. I've pretty much trapped myself in my house because the past two times I've went out I've nearly gone through with it. Took literally everything I had in me not to go through with it.

It's scary as fuck. I don't even know what's causing it. Everything is fine then just bam, I really want to throw myself in front of a train.

>>20304110
Punch or stab a wall It usually works

>>20304110
start writing your thoughts down on paper. the more coherent (you dont need to read it back) you are the less your subconconcious/ memories give you episodes

>>20304110
Why not watch streams friend? if Hololive isn't streaming Nijisanji isn't so bad. remember FBK would be sad if her friend is gone.

>>20301340
Big mood, right? I’m so depressed and want to die XD fr fr no cap

>>20301325
that's why you're going to die alone

>>20304110
Take some Vitamin D. Meditate. Eat if you haven't eaten. Get some rest. Slow down.

>>20304110
reminder that death-looping is basically a constant train of self-depreciating thoughts that loops and enforces on itself when you don't have anything to live for, which also guilt-trips yourself when you think you're not contributing enough to people you care about. Like an ouroboros that eats away at you as a living person.

The only cure for depression is giving your brain time to wrestle with the loop and training it to notice when it wants to shit on you. It's like a stormy sea with tall waves and having a goal and struggling towards the island will be the only thing not making you give up and sink.

I know most people here are broken or already half-insane, and that's okay, you just make do with what you can. The world gave up on you so live long enough to watch it burn lol.

Surprised at the humanity of these replies. I thought this board was just neverending hate threads or tribalposting.

It's nice to see

>>20301275
May I ask where you got that image from, perhaps?

>>20311235
i HATE you anon!!!!!!!!!

>>20303440
My fucking oshi is gone and I don't know how to move on

>>20311235
faggot

>>20311235
die nigger

>>20311235
NIGGERNIGGERNIGGER
Love you anon!

>>20311235
lol

>>20304110
Shit...
>>20311235
easy (you)s anon, and also I really hate that thing about you.

you should go through with it,
don’t you think the world would be better off without you anon?

>>20304110
I'll be brutally honest with you anon, your own body has decided you're a detriment to the genepool and is trying to kill you. If you lift and do your best to make money and have frequent sex, however, your body might decide you're worthy of life and make your suicidal thoughts go away. Good luck and godspeed.

>>20311235
kys nigger faggot

>>20304110
aw man, you're enabling my saviorfag complex, but i don't know if you're being honest or not. what a friggin' dilemma. /vt/'s such a weird place to come forward with this, it's kinda sus lol

>>20304110
you might have chronic suicidal ideation, especially if nothing seemingly triggers it like what you’re saying. i deal with the same thing, and have been for years now. whenever i see trains i want to jump in front of them and holding any type of knife makes me want to stab myself. i learned to live with it after getting therapeutic help, so you might need that too.

>>20304110
It seems to get worse with caffeine and energy drinks see if you can limit those

dont be sad LOOK ITS FUBUKI BALLING HORY SHIIET.

>>20313470
can I have the artist

>>20304110
Do it, faggot.

>>20304110
DO IT FAGGOT

bros...

>>20304110
do it faggot

>>20304110
Vit D, go up to 10k immediately, ZMA too, and get some test in your life. Whatever way is the most accessible to you. Strength training, martial arts, crime, sex, injections, whatever the fuck is the simplest, easiest and most easily accessible way for you.
Then get a goal in life. No matter how unrealistic it is, you need a goal. If you dont have one you're a literal fucking breeding stock and a replacable cog for the machine that is our society.
Think about yourself, what makes you want to an hero. There is a source for it, and no matter how uncomfortable it is, unless you accept that something in your past mightve caused you some emotional trauma, and that it still affects you to do this day, you wont be able to get rid of these feelings.
Stop being so harsh on yourself. Very few human beings can constantly operate at 100%. You need breaks. Take your time. Slow and steady wins the race, bursts only get you exponentially more tired with each one.
Pick up a hobby that you like. You need a way to relieve stress. If you have to force yourself to do it, its propably not good for you (unless its work).
Lay off any stims besides caffeine, also any downers besides alcohol too. Its fine to have a cup of coffee in the morning and down a bottle or a beer every once in a while, but anything more and youre asking yourself for trouble.
If you hate someone dont bottle it up, no matter who it is, a friend, your dad, a politician, some nigger, or some race. Its ok to feel anger and hatred, its ok to lust for someone, its ok to want to scream at the top of your lungs, its ok to be obsessed over someone or something.
Dont feel guilty about it.
Find a clear line between real and fake. If youre a schizo by decision stop immediately. You dont owe them anything/you dont need to listen to them or please them and be faithful to them in any way. Its all in your mind and it only fuels your internal cycle of self hatred.
Dont try to be a lion, if your destiny is to be a tiger or a dragon.

>>20304110
anon...
come home...

>>20304110
depressing cannot fixed by staying still, bro.

go see a doctor and take the pill, your brain are actually malfunction and it need certain chemical from those pill to make it back to normal.

Imagine how silly you'll feel when you finally do it and wake up surronded by anime girls

>>20300903
If you don't want to live in reality then make your own!
あなたのビジョンを作成してください!

>>20304110
please get better fren fbk would not want fren to disappear

>>20304110
Why are first worlders like this? Just pray the rosary, you faggot

Poor FBK. I wonder if she'll ever get her soul back?

>>20321076
https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/70684498#ppixiv?page=1

>>20330301
What happened to her soul?