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Day 7 of realizing I love Riifu, real love, my first love.
I think I'm over her. The feelings she gave me have been inspiring, hurtful, horny, and depressed. I've truly grown as a person, realizing that I CAN love, I CAN see another person as someone to strive for.
She's starting to feel more like an actor, and not someone that I sit and listen to music with at 4 am in the morning. Of course, she will never know me, and I'll never find her, but maybe, a small part of me was hoping. Without all that, I need to find something that will bring me happiness. I'll live the lie a little longer, but this is the last time I post about my love.
Thank you Riifu, you goober, for showing this shut-in that yes, love exists, love inspires, love hurts. Even if it wasn't real, the feelings were there.

She's trying her best...