/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

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>caring for recovering Kiki
>blowing on the spoonful of soup to cool it down before you bring it to her lips
>she slowly cranes her neck forward and perches her lips
>there’s a soft little slurping sound
>she looks up at you with deep gratitude in her eyes
>she wants to say thank you
>begins to speak before she swallows
>the spoonful of soup leaks out of her mouth onto her chin
> droplets fall from her chin and hit her chest and hide away into the fabric of her oversized shirt
>she’s embarrassed, but has a sense of humor about it
>the chuckles are cut short by the pain they send through her
>you grab the cloth you set beside you and wipe her mouth and chin, then bring the spoon to her lips to begin again.

My name is anon and I have an obsession with this autistic Aussie anime girl streamer. I listen to her ASMR videos and cuddle my pillow imagining her. When I have downtime or feel lonely I’ll play her vods, picture she’s sitting beside me and pretend we’re having a conversation. her voice has become a comfort object. she preoccupies my waking mind and my dreams. When I learn something or read a compelling line of prose I think, “I bet Kiki would like this” or, “I want to share this with Kiki.”
My heart tears for something I know I can never truly have.