/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

Ike love!
She was so cute and so awkward and adorable there are not enough words to describe this feeling, congrats congrats congrats!!!

I love you. Still barely feel alive, but it's so much better now. I'm conflicted, I don't feel like I'm supposed to be happy right now, but the mere sound of his voice is enough. I don't want the stream to end I don't want him to leave, and I have to crack my head open for having these thoughts and being so stupid. I'm glad he makes me feel alive, but I really don't want to feel anything right now. I think. It feels like tears should be there, but it's empty. Please don't die. Your advice is sound and sweet and all the exact right words, but it's coming from a place that can end you, and that terrifies me. I wish I could stop worrying for reasons that don't even make sense, but I can't... I know exactly what's wrong with me, but there's no way to fix it now, the only possible solution would be to have another breakdown and abandon this too, but I don't want to. I managed to cry by the end of the streams, thank you.
Rest well, as well as you can, please. Do use this week the way you described it, I hope a bright idea or two will visit you, or maybe you will manage to bend your perspective enough to start feeling different about those worries.
I want to die. I'm excited for tomorrow because Ike is going to stream, it doesn't matter what.