/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

You’re stirred awake as your alarm clock begins to blare, hand reaching out to quickly dismiss the siren as you fumble. Your eyes, though begging you to stay in bed and rest, wrench open as you groan. As you attempt to sit up, though, your free arm is clung to. With a smile, you look down at the culprit. Aqua, still deep in sleep, snores softly as she hugs you to her slumbering form, a bit of drool leaking from her partially parted lips. Though still exhausted, your heart swells with a deep sense of admiration and love, warmth trickling down your body as you sigh contentedly. Your beautiful, perfect wife. Your entire world, reason for living. You’re so glad she’s here, safe…with you. That she’s yours, that you—

Your eye twitches as you catch yourself. You told yourself that you wouldn’t think such unhealthy things again. Not letting it hamper your good mood, you lean over just a bit to plant your lips atop Aqua’s head, your free hand reaching down to squeeze hers. She lets out a sleepy giggle as she cuddles into you further, still asleep. You wish the both of you could stay like this forever. Safe in each other’s embrace. Away from the horrors of the outside world, of other people. Of those who would see you two ripped apart. Their jealousy knows no bounds. Every piece of shit, cocksucking motherfucker who sees you scowls at you, even if you can’t see it. They know about you and Aqua, and they hate you for it. They hate you and her both, though they never say a word, their eyes betray their true thoughts. Would that you could rip them out of their sockets without being taken away from the one person you need in life.

You shake your head roughly, frowning at yourself. No, no. You’re just being paranoid again. These thoughts don’t reflect reality. You’ve been careful. So, so, so very careful to make sure that no one knows about you and her. You don’t even wear a ring in public. It burns your skin every time you remove your wedding band, a maelstrom of agony crashing into your mind. But you know it’s for the sake of your wife’s career. You need her. She’s you’re reason for existence. You would never do anything to endanger her happiness. Never in a million years.

If she asked you to lie down and die for her, you’d slit your wrists on the spot.

“Aqua, sweetie,” You begin, forcing the dark thoughts from your head space. “It’s time to wake up. Eight AM.”
“Mmph…” She mutters in response, shifting uncomfortably as her eyebrows furrow. “Nnnuh…five minutes…”
“You said that ten minutes ago, darling. Let’s get up, together.”

Moaning in protest, Aqua slowly sets herself up, unlatching herself from your arm (for now it’s just for now don’t worry it’s not the end calm down) as she takes on an exhausted face, looking over to you. Slowly, a smile blooms across her visage and she leans into you, snuggling into your chest with a yawn. You wrap your arms around her as the rising storm in your head calms, running your head up and down her back carefully. Truth be told, you’re exhausted. You don’t even know how you get to sleep half the time. Any slight movement causes your eyes to snap open, to make sure Aqua’s still there with you...but you know she’d never leave you. She needs you just as much as you need her. She’s told you as such…and you’ve witnessed firsthand the effects of you not being there. You embrace Aqua tighter as your head swims. She still has the scars on her wrist as proof of your failure to be there for her. Never again.

“We need to get ready for work, sweetheart,” You say gently, trying to let her enjoy the last few moments of rest until the day is over. “Let’s get ready. Do you want to take a bath while I make breakfast? Or—”
“With me…” Aqua mutters, holding you closer to her. “Take one…with me, please.”

Once more, your heart swells with euphoria. Nodding enthusiastically, you continue to hold Aqua, attempting to absorb as much of her love as you can before you finally relent. Grasping her hand with yours, the two of you stand, moving to the bathroom together. Aqua stumbles a bit as she lets out a tired groan, but keeps her fingers interlocked with yours as you lead. It was a foolish question to ask. Of course Aqua wants to be with you. Why would you leave her alone like that? She’d have a panic attack and it would be all your fault. Needing to stay off screen as she works is hard enough for her, she stays so strong…so you must be vigilant to stay by her side as much as you can. Never again. Never, ever again.