/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

>>47155762
>Sorry for the asinine rant.
Not at all, writing things down and thinking about things can help you move forward.
Riifu is a new vtuber, but still I didn't join until several weeks in, so even though I was quite early in what will probably be a long career for her, I still feel like an outsider in the community. It's not like I joined because I wanted a community, but it's addicting, talking and sharing with like-minded people. I just can't help but feel pathetic over it, wasting my time on this, a girl online, a one way mirror.. Perhaps the pity I feel over myself is what inspires me more than the love.
Your oshi sounds great, a realistic one.. I wonder how much different it would be if mine wasn't Riifu, a girl that feeds on the parasocial, that streams 2-8 hours EVERY day. It's exhausting to keep up, and I wonder how much it affects my mental state. Luckily, I'm slowly losing interest, returning to normal, so life will go on.