/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

I want to give some context as to why I hate "Let Me Solo Her"

First off, I was him back in Dark Souls 3... I was the Midir Master and helped over 30,000 people beat him with pretty much a perfect track record over the past few years.

I was un-employed and very depressed but helpig people beat this boss and being so impressive gave me confidence in something I never had before. Everything I did in life I was the worst, but this... I was the best in the world that I knew of.

Eventually I had a small repuation, I ego searched on twitter and Reddit to find people with posts just like "Let Me Solo Her". it made me feel good about myself.

But with Elden Ring, I was already getting high and drinking heavily by the time I started. I was sloppy, and even though I can parry Commander Neill without issue, when I was trying to get Malenia down I was making so many mistakes and her healing really made me break down.

I just... lost all my confidence. I wanted to be that guy again... I was that guy... and now someone else was sucking in all this love and appreciation that i wanted so bad. Then when I felt worthless I would drink and smoke, rinse and repeat.

It fucking sucked seeing everyone sucking this guys dick, I just wanted one person to suck mine :(. And because he's using rivers of blood I felt better than him, I use that as a scape goat to say "See, he's just using trash meta weapons, he's NOT actually good see", and even i know how pathetic that is...

But I'm trying to get sober now, 2 weeks in and I haven't really touched Elden Ring in that time. I'm working out more and cut out eating fast food. I guess I need to find something else that gives me confidence other than video games