/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

i am having an existential crisis
i just realised i havent been a coomer since nerissa debuted, i borderline had a problem before (picrel, porn drive) but since nerissa began livestreaming i dont even get a chub.
i feel affection towards nerissa and she even brought back my love for hololive. when i think of her i dont get horny despite the ass pic edit every thread. I look forward to my phone saying she tweeted, i look forward to hearing the hiya darlings, i look froward to that cute laugh, she's perfect
Do i just love her to the point where these emotions overcome the horny and pushed it aside, or did this bitch give me ED and im never gonna jack off again?
this is not a shitpost im being serious