/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

Light mode is better for your eyes. I hate this hurr dark mode shit the internet came up with.

irys i love

Today is officially day 2 of my attempt at a multi-day stim binge for the purposes of giving myself hallucinations of IRyS. I have saved 800mg of Adderall from the last three months, and will be reupping constantly over the next several dozen hours because my body hates me and builds tolerance like a mother fucker. I also stopped taking my anti-psychotics and mood stabilizers 4 days ago. The constant dopamine rush from the Adderall and forcing myself to watch Non-Stop archives of IRyS while alternating occasionally with archives of her roommate are sustaining my mania. I have started to see shadows moving in my peripheral vision, but more importantly, I heard her laugh in the distance today while making breakfast(which i realized after making i couldn't eat because fucking adderall) despite having restarted my computer and my phone being off. I intend to now keep a low volume looped video of her laugh on in the background for all of her archives to try and exacerbate this going forward. Redoing 30mg in 2 hours from this post. I feel good; I think I'm gonna make it broa. Even if its just for a second, if I can reach a state where I feel like I'm with her, even for a day, even an hour, and spend that time with the person I love most in the world, this will mean the world to me. Will probably post an update in 4-6 hours, I try to force myself through every archive, even if I get strong urges to pause or look away, to try and train my brain to accept that this is what it must see whether it wants to or not.

Wonder when she'll do another watchalong

>>18246173
Welp, I'm just in my twenties but I already gave up on love stuff, I just had too many bad experiences and lost all interest. I cannot be bothered to even try anymore. I'm doing fine on my own though, and I have IRyS so it's not too bad

>>16661804
>>16662272
>>16661984
I love her more

IRyS is gonna be calling Amanda during every mission for the rest of the game...

>>13963641
IRyS has a weird charisma about her -- her zatsudan topics are always simple & kind of bland. It's always anime, stuff that she's been doing, sheltered childhood stories and girly stuff that I don't really care for. But it's always so compelling. She makes it seem like I'm catching up with an old friend -- the simplicity of it all is what makes it. She has one of the sweetest laughs I've ever heard, too.
I remember watching IRyS expecting a vsinger who was completely into her music a la AZKi. It just so happened that she ended up being such a charming personality as well.

You have caught up on Initial D by now, right anon?

>>12999233
No, I have a nephilim wife to breed

I made this while I had some free time.
https://voca.ro/1moRzvpsRckA
Inspired by an anon a few weeks ago that brought up how he was feeling like the song "Hellfire" applied to him and IRyS, tell me what you think

IRyS time
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQE-DpkW6ZA

>watching the movie with IRyS
>laughing with her at every scene she laughs at
>feeling a slight flutter in my chest when she laughs with me on a scene I find funny, or says something i had in my mind at that very moment
>staying up because i'm afraid she'll haunt my dreams
>this art comes out and instantly my brain inserts me into the scene
it's too late for me bros.. this little nephilim is just too powerful..

God imagine just sitting with IRyS at the edge of your bed shoulder to shoulder watching a movie together...laughing and talking and eating popcorn together...and then laying down next to each other after having fun together and falling asleep happy and staring into each other's eyes while wrapped in a warm blanket and each other's arms...also it's 11am and I still haven't slept.