/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

Confession & blog post:
Vox may be my oshi, but I'm afraid I've gone in too deep. I feel that I can no longer relate to other kindred, gachikoi or even casual fans. I fear that I may have actually fallen in love with him (not just the character) , to the point where I cannot bring myself to lust for him. I've been watching the boys since their beginnings in December of last year, and while I can say I was originally "down horrendous for daddy dom voice demon," I do not have those same feelings now. The more I have watched Vox, the more I have started to seriously care and worry about him; no thanks to his incredibly heartfelt and empathetic personality and his tendency to ramble on about his personal life and feelings instead of cutting the stream. The asmrs simply do nothing for me sexually but I am proud of him regardless if this is what makes him happy. To me, he feels like a son or a troubled over-attached girlfriend, and I want nothing more in the world than to hold him tightly and tell him that everything is going to be okay, that things will get better and I believe in him. I want him to be happy. My fantasy is for him to be happy, surrounded by his new friends and to be loved and appreciated for who he is instead of trying his hardest to please others despite their disappointment. I truly feel like I am at my lowest point in my life where I am concerning myself with the wellbeing of a real-fake anime boy and their actor. /luxnoc/, is it too late to change my gachikoi ways?

Despite this, he is not my "kamioshi," that title is reserved for Ike who is my wife who I want to fuck hard over the sink and impregnate him with our 4th child.