/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

I need to get this off my chest
Lately my oshi has been making me extremely horny and I do not understand why it's been affecting me so much, like sure I found his voice and model appealing and whatever bit of fanservice he threw around would make me happy but after he went to Japan and I couldn't see him for a few weeks, it feels like everything's different. My perspective of him has changed and it's made me want him even more to the point that I'm not satisfied with just watching his streams normally so I've had to start playing his streams while I masturbate to relieve all the pent-up tension I build up in between streams. This is especially concerning to me because I have a low libido and I used to masturbate, maybe, once a week but since I've started to feel this way I've been doing it every day and it's making it hard to function irl because all I can think about getting home, put on my oshi's stream and start masturbating again. I hate this.

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