/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

>>29388919
I'm so fucking close to losing it man I swear I'm going insane specially these 2 last days:
>Randomly I "remember she's streaming" but I check YT and obviously there's nothing going on.
>I have received notifications on my phone that she's streaming but when I check YT she's offline. Then I check my phone and the notifications are gone. Nothing, nada.
>Sometimes I can hear her laugh at distance coming out from my headphones but when I put them on there's only silence and there's no VODs playing.
>Been having dreams where I have these absolutely horrifying deaths and Rosemi-sama is involved
>My inner voice has been completely replaced by her. She says random things and it makes it hard to focus on my work if I scream or post about her here she "takes a nap" and I for a couple of hours "my mind is back" then she comes back singing her own intro.
>Something breaks inside and my reptilian brain takes over every night. Without missing a single day since she left I fap to her up to 3-5 times. Every day it seems to get more aggressive since I started, and only had, with the vanilla stuff. Lately I have been making massive crops and edits and adding her to rape doujinshi eromanga.
>I can't stop smelling roses (Accidentally mentioned it once during work and they showed me the cleaning stuff they have: No rose scented stuff so far)
>Sometimes I just think about her and I start crying
>Took someone meds and I felt pretty damn good then I took a nap and had this weird ass dream where Rosemi told me to not take them anymore (And so I obeyed her)
>I couldn't watch more than 5 min of Mayuyu's totsu because I immediately replace his face with Rosemi and I feel like killing myself
>I bought a hamster and named him Keeng
>Randomly she's knocks outside my window. Kind of weird considering I live on the 5th floor of this building.

Hopefully it will end tomorrow.

>>29332202