/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

I just had to cancel my day one membership for financial reasons. I feel like I'm failing my oshi. I'm sorry Sonny... I'll come back when I can...

I earnestly think I'll end up killing myself soon. I'm in a completely loveless relationship that I can't leave, I have no friends, I haven't talked to a human face to face in weeks. Just trying not to mess up a family member's birthday first. Remember to tell the people you love that you love them anon. Salute o7

>>38816187
I'm going to a funeral shortly before Christmas, and then another hospital checkup the day before. I plan on spending Christmas in bed and not celebrating at all. Probably crying also. Fuck December.

In some ways I should thank Hex, I didn't think I actually had groomer trauma until just now. He's like every text I received as a preteen unsupervised on the internet was fed into an AI and told to write a vtuber debut. I need a shower.

>>38126184
Cute girls in pairs or groups forcing themselves on random unwilling ojisans, ugly bastards, etc is something I find very appealing. I also like the idea of a sober female manager taking advantage of a drunk salaryman at a work party, all while he protests weakly and tries to explain he has a girlfriend.
Your post fed this in some small way. I'm saving it.

>>33999287
Getting therapy, getting groomed, browsing /v/ regularly, playing a lot of Pokémon and getting very attached to the male characters. Did wolf pack rp online and regularly searched "how to be a werewolf" despite not getting anything from the same few yahoo answers pages. I'd say good times but they weren't, being a teenager was terrible.

>>26109255
And I actually had the balls to think about it today too. Fuck you. I love you.

I am so fucking unhappy. Not even funny vods are cheering me up. I'm done for, anons.

I just hope that, regardless of my reasons or causes for having it, my oshi is into rape too.

>>25438547
God I wish that was me.

>>25065169
Workplace incident reports
https://youtu.be/Tflm9mttAAI

>>24998325
I play cooking sims to boil eggs in soap and serve glass to customers...

>Spit in people's food
>Piss in people's food
>"I guess then it'll be even more thick and flavourful"
Please don't feed my incredibly specific kinks, Sonny. Please. I am painfully horny. Fucking god damn.

I had a dream last night that I managed to get a collab with Selen somehow, but somebody posted my model in here and everyone was mocking how stupid it looks and how Selen only invited me so she could make fun of me in thread later. Fuck you guys.

>>24205641
It's good socialisation practice at least... For when I eventually talk to someone...

I might need to take a break from vtubers soon. My feelings towards Sonny are unhealthy and I have spent more hours fantasising about being his friend than actually talking to people (not that I talk to people much anyway). My life is so lonely that I don't know if I'll be able to even take the break successfully though. This is a strange sort of misery.

>>24042744
I didn't think caffeine reliance was a thing until I developed it and now I get crippling migraines and vision problems if I don't have enough in a day. It's been like this for about 4 years and will continue to be this way until I die because fixing it is too painful. Careful now.