/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

I'm pathetic that something like this can mean so much to me, but I keep seeing myself make progress in something and I finally feel myself making something happen after years believing I'll never be able to work at being better.
I even got past that rut despite months of "you stopped once, you'll do it again, you'll never actually stay with it" and I made it through and further and now I'm 50% done mothefucker
I'm fucking weeping like a dumb mother fucker, I finally feel like I can finally learn to take control of my life because of some stupid fucking language reps
Sorry for the blogpost, I don't have anywhere else to post it but I wanted to put it somewhere. I want to make my oshi proud. I'm trying so hard, even on the awful days where I can barely think through the fog and anxiety