/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

I don't know if this is schitzoshit or not but because of hololive narrativeposting I've started to intentionally do stupid shit so that I'll have better narratives about my life. Like I blew all my earnings this week on a nitro coffee infuser and have been growing rosemary on my desk to stimulate my brain better because I think I read something years ago about how rosemary is good for thinking. I've also begun moving in really specific choreographed dance step and staring at my reflection in the window and hitting myself to see how I react. I already put in an order for a $80 of meat because the concept of "ordering $80 of meat in a half conscious state at 3:00 AM amused me at the time and now I'm too embarrassed to cancel it. I think I also tricked myself into believing that one of my old childhood friends was an intentionally manipulative bitch despite us both being like 12 at the time and realistically rubbing off on eachother equal amounts, but her being a bitch makes my backstory more tragic. I also curl up in my bed sometimes and try to fake cry but I'm not sad so I sing sad songs in a sad voice for a bit but I get bored too easily so it's never worked.