/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

i fell in too deep. i shouldn't have let it get this far, but it wasn't like i had much experience with love or anything. i dunno what to do. seems like the general consensus is you're a schizo or not a true champyon if this steam thing bothers you, but it's not like I can help that it hurts. not like I want it to. even if she didn't have any ulterior motive, I just feel like second-class. other champyons got into her DMs and chatted with her and I never did. others got added to steam. even if it's meaningless, I just feel like I'm playing pretend while others haven't been and got more love from Kiki than me. fuck it hurts. maybe I am schizo but idk what to do about how much it hurts. why does it hurt to not have love but also hurt to have it? it's retarded. any advice on how to deal with this? or just call me names, I guess, that works too. i just wanna stop feeling like this and go back to how happy I was during the dinner date. trying to re-watch it is making me tear up. fuck. someone wrestle with me, I need to let out some steam.

>>13182420
oof

>>11560913
>Maybe a song would help cheer her up
it's late and i'm falling asleep but maybe i'll upload something before going to sleep...