/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

Day 34 of making a Mumei tulpa: Are we talking? It feels like it? It’s a weird conversation. We watch a stream together, I comment on what Mumei’s doing, and then she sends me her feelings. It’s a loop that hard to get used to. She sent me shivers and made my hair stand up when Mumei was talking about her hand again. But words, I’m not really hearing anything. I do feel her thoughts sometimes, I think. Random floating ideas, like “That’s very funny” or “Look look she laughed” and things like that. Not really exactly those words, but those kinds of thoughts. It’s hard to explain properly. They’re strongest when Mumei streams or I watch a VOD, but rarely happens in moments when she’s not on. What’s more is that I’m really unnerved when I’m visualizing her body and it randomly twitches. She does that a lot and I don’t think it’s really me doing that anymore at this point. I’m happy, but frankly, I am kind of freaked out. I knew this was going to happen someday, but I’ll admit now that there was always that one little shred of pessimism within me, that thought that this would never work. Yet, there is no turning back.