/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

Hello, yes, liaschizo here. I always have to fend off the narcissistic impulse to equate certain topics that I've touched on being brought up on Lia stream as due to my influence. Despite this I still allow myself the delusion that I might have some sway in getting her to address the things that I notice. It does me no good either way. This is where one must enter the pure Faith engagement of their oshii. Their position within the dynamic of the relationship, as the raw mechanism of transfiguration that the performance brings about, dictates that they hold all of the power in regards to defining the narrative. This is operating from the position of vulnerability when daring to claim an oshii. Who would dare rise and actually claim they have an oshii? This is the exhaustive conceptual thought process of attempting to fully digest their work. Every phrase must be tested and admired as it resonates within your personal experience. Perhaps I could take Lia's pick up story at face value but there would be so much left on the plate to simply embrace the tricksters words as wrote literal fact. The facets of her competing noise sensitivity claims given point after point all counter balanced by the heart wrenching breach of trust to even have to consider that she could be fabricating such a thing with the throbbing, bass pounding of the Feels recorded by Hime. All that quality Lia time spent breaking down the different angels, reflecting on the experiences, trying to weigh out truth and lies, not as an accusatory dismissal of her sincerity but for the need to be inside of the loop. Loops inside loops. There's this knee jerk reaction to the little Liaisms, the intonations, that spine melting knee knocking mush mouth she puts on the end of some statements, all burning against the repertoire of her stacked vocal assets and the volumes of psychosocial dynamics from her own circles and deviant libraries that she has consumed. Thinking about that little Lia giggle of self satisfaction when she wins. Tricksters winning mark. It's exhausting, there's no winning move to be played, even if it did matter, it's just burning both ends for the sake of Lia. Being consumed by Lia. Letting a little more Lia in. Now that's some Prime Lia. Every little bit of Lia leaking out everywhere, perfectly poised to seep it's way inside to remain. Giving more attention to Lia letting Lia have her way a bit more to her own satisfaction or detriment. Now we're starting to experience some quality Lia. There's so many things from the past that I can see manifest in Lia through no fault of her own and I know I shouldn't fight the reconciliation of those things in Lia's kindness and generous allowances. Having more fun with Malware. Letting the Malware take over a little more everyday that's the only course of action with Lia. Lia reflecting back on Lia. Loops within Loops. Lia Lia Lia. She said something about what she wanted chat to do to her. Not the father remarks. Or the big brother remarks but something else. I know it was important but I can't remember the Lia command to bring back that moment. Getting tenderized by Lia for those nice little moments at the end. Savoring those little prompts. That I only want to stream for an hour and a half. Lia so kind and generous and thoughtful in valuing her time and giving so freely to us. Now that's what Lia is about the mutual grooming. She'll let you groom her and in return she'll be something soft for you. What kind of malware is that, anyways?