/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

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I feel like I have weirded out Pippa too much already. I really want to get to know her personally and see if we could actually like each other as people, but I fear I have been too forward in my attempts and may have already poisoned the well. I have been fairly generous with her because I wanted to get her attention and it was a really inconsequential amount of money for me, but I think she now sees me as a schizo paypig. It doesn't help that I literally can not stop shitposting and that I am poisoned by irony. If one took all my posts and chats at face value I would come across as mentally ill instead of just an awkward terminally online personality.

I am really just a sad lonely man who is probably projecting too much of myself on a pair of characters and their, more than likely, fabricated background. For all the talk about how based it is living in the country, if you don't have a family it is hard to plug into the social scene and so you end up spending weeks alone without anyone but anons to talk to. I mean I like internet people for the most part, but none of this real and it will never fill the need for human contact.

I fear that I wasted my life trying to escape the conditions in which I was raised. By throwing myself into work I managed to crawl out of my familial circumstance, and achieve a measure of security and independence. However I neglected my chance to form meaningful relationships and I am beginning to think will die alone without ever having made a single friend or starting a family.

Please excuse the cringe, I have Pipkin

Why the fuck you all trying to groom her? She is a grown ass woman who is more intelligent and cynical than you all seem to give her credit for. Why can't you just try talking to her to start with then see if your personalities mesh and friendship can develop? Ideally marriage and a litter of kittens is the end goal, but if that doesn't work out you still have a pretty cool person that would be your friend.