/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

>Nyan talking about seeing family for the holidays and telling them you love them
>family is either dead or abuses me
You're supposed to fill the hole in my heart not make it wider, god damn it

>been watching nyan x mouse and other related vods lately as well as streams if I can catch them live
>been feeling ill
>not sleeping well anymore
>been getting a sense of trepidation
>all in the last few days since I started watching
I think the idea of having a real friend is giving me depression but I can't stop watching