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I watched the stream and read the previous thread.
You know, I feel inspired by Gura, she’s been through some dark times but has been able to deliver joy and gain her own happiness in the process.
I feel like I’ve been through mental fatigue for quite a long time. I felt as if I didn’t want to put effort in taking care of myself, not necessarily physically but mentally, and would just let everyday fall into repetitiveness and boredom. I also tend to distract myself when I should focus in important things, and project my insecurities into other people’s retardness; sure, the world may be crazy more than sometimes and I would want to improve it, but I willfully expose myself to negativity because, I feel like I’m projecting the fact that I’ve been, and still am, very young and stupid or that I can’t and don’t want to comprehend some aspects of the world because I found them pointless, which I still do but keep myself engaging with them.
I think… it’s time to just let go some thoughts and adapt a different attitude for my own sake. I need to move on from the pointless things and concentrate in accepting myself and enjoying more things, so I’ll have to improve my life. I’ve been quite lonely due to the circumstances everyone’s facing and I’m not exactly a very open person, but I’m able to put effort in reaching people and I may have the opportunity to be more communicative, without mentioning that I should start trying and resuming a few things.
In occasions like this, I feel identified with Gura and want to be more like her. I thank her and all of you chumbuds for being positive each day, even when there may be struggles in the path (TuT)