/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

>>11612162
How do I cope with the fact, that I will never be able to have a personal conversation with my oshi? She will never know who I am, I will never be able to properly convey my feelings to her, I will never get a proper rejection. I will never get a proper end. All these feelings stuck in my throat. I can only cheer her on and support her and hope that one day she will find somebody worthy of her, like some fucking KEK. Also I feel like my dedication for her is tainted with my personal feelings, I'm a failure of a fan.
Fuck the internet man, if only I never knew that someone like her actually existed. I was fine with being a jaded, numbed down, pathetic fuck who already came to turns of dying alone.