/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

>>30493289
I am single. I have been single and will continue to be single because I simply cannot form deeper attachments to people because I am both disgusted and afraid of them. I am too autistic and antisocial to the point where my real personality is too off-putting for others so I have accepted that I am going to be alone. I will continue to watch my oshi even if he gets a gf because if he is happy then I am happy and I know I would never have a chance with him to begin with and I cannot bother fantasizing about being with him as I feel he would be disgusted with me. When my oshi quits, I will try finding a different hobby to distract myself from the emotional trauma and try finding a new oshi but never be able to completely move on. If my oshi kills himself (which isn't unlikely) then ill an hero as well. I think we can all find camaraderie here regardless of gender.