/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

It's been a ruff year, anons. I ghosted everyone earlier this year, and my oshi seemed concerned, so I came back. It got even worse to deal with, so I began drinking, and gathered the courage to gaslight my oshi into hating my guts, telling her lies, picking at her insecurities, and it worked. She had immediate disgust for me, and I cast myself out of her graces, but she followed it up with banning me. Three years my oshi...I wish her happiness, despite how quickly I was thrown away. That's what I wanted...that's what needs to happen, so I can move on from this world. I just wish it didn't hurt.