/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

Please help. I love Kanae, but the problem is, I love him TOO much. To the point I care about him more than myself or anything else in the world. Whenever I make any choice whatsoever, I think about whether or not he would benefit from it/like it. I've been making choices that he would like at the expense of my mental health and I think it's going to kill me someday. How do I stop? I don't want to stop watching him. When I'm not watching him, I feel awful.
This has it's perks, of course, I started drawing more often because "If I draw him a lot I can use it to advertise him!!! And then he'll be happy!!", but it's still not too great of a thing, you know?