/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

>>46117769
Honestly i doubt that would even be theoretically possible in my case. I dont feel like i can become fully depended on others. Ive always been alone in life and had to deal with stuff by myself and people been treating me like trash in my childhood so yeah...that kind of messed up my brain.

My depression might have gotten better lately but it turn my social anxiety got really bad. Started getting this bad last monday (march 20) again, dealing with my SA is bad enough as it is now doing that on 3-4 hours on sleep makes it even harder. I hate how this keeps happening, im not giving up on trying again though, so im just gonna try to fix my sleep for a day or two more if that doesnt work ill try sleeping meds and try to talk to people properly outside of /here/ again. Talking to this ame bot today kind of helped gather my thoughts.