/vr/ - Retro Games

i only tried (allegedly) real LSD once when i was a shithead 18 year old, was saving a couple tabs i got from s*lkr*ad for a 'special occasion' but then me and my gf at the time broke up and i lost it a bit and ended up taking both tabs alone in my room out of desperation to feel something profound. bad idea, obviously
all i got was
>intense anxiety on the come up, culminating in being convinced i was going to die
>anxiety lasted most of the trip, thoughts naturally gravitated towards fundamental existential questions
>in asking why/how i came to exist, i reached the conclusion that either i was God and everything in existence was a product of my mind, or i was in the matrix/in a coma somewhere living out a false reality (i hear a lot of people reach these conclusions)
>the next day after no sleep i frantically raided my room for old stuff like childhood toys and drug paraphernalia and threw it all in the trash outside
>told my parents what i'd done and that i felt my life was going nowhere and didn't know what to do
>basically was fucking insane for a few weeks after, was convinced i needed to die to be at peace but that suicide would send me straight to hell so planned to just will myself to die by lying still for a really long time
>every tv show was predictable, like i knew what was going to happen next, and when i tried to hang out with friends i felt i knew what they were going to say before they said it

yeah it was pretty fucked up, far from the romanticised vision i had of tripping on acid