/sci/ - Science & Math

[Anonymous No.10626590]

How are you holding up, /sci/? Any updates on your /sci/related research/studies or life in general?

[Anonymous No.10626667]

I've become a functioning alcoholic.

[Anonymous No.10626670]

i've become a trap. It's for my sociology class

[Anonymous No.10626676]

>>10626590
Meeting with advisor next week. Still haven’t decided whether or not to switch majors (I don’t feel engineering is right for me)
However I’m scared I won’t be able to contribute to the field I would like to switch to (math) and that fear is messing with me

[Anonymous No.10626687]

>>10626590
Emailing advisor, finishing thesis, getting ready for the state exam and graduation. I plan on not being sober for 3 days straight after the graduation ceremony

[Anonymous No.10626693]

>>10626590
Recently quit my academic job, these days I'm mainly smoking weed in the forest.

[Anonymous No.10626726]

S-Surely there's some good news on this board, right?

[Anonymous No.10627888]

>>10626726
no

[Anonymous No.10627944]

>>10626590
had a breakthrough in my field, got completely ignored by the community

perhaps Im not marketing it enough, idk

[Anonymous No.10628018]

>>10626667
same

>>10626670
method acting?

>>10626693
not a bad idea

>>10626676
fear is useful if you think you're in danger of being attacked by a jaguar but in that situation it's probably an unnecessary hindrance and even if you crash and burn you'll at least know for sure your intuition is worth believing sometimes

[Anonymous No.10628282]

>>10626726
>>10626590
Trying to get my name on a research paper that we are writing at my internship. Just a side-project in pharmaceutical development.

[Anonymous No.10628283]

I cured cancer but im not telling anyone. Overpopulation is more of an issue

[Anonymous No.10628290]

>>10628283
Good job.

[Anonymous No.10628297]

>>10626667
yeah been one for a few years now, doing well actually

i've been cutting down the last couple of days though, i legit was getting mild shivers and shakes and sweating randomly, i think like a minor form of the DTs

[Anonymous No.10628351]

>>10626590
My research is probably doomed, thanks to a stupid president that decided to cripple even more the education from my country.

[Anonymous No.10628482]

>>10626667
same. but im trying to stay 99% sober until finals are over lol. its tough

[Anonymous No.10628514]

>>10628351
Brazil or US?

[Anonymous No.10628818]

>>10627944
care to elaborate? sounds sad but interesting

[Anonymous No.10628825]

Working on formalizing higher categorical structures in HoTT, it's going ok, proof assistants are fun

[Anonymous No.10628931]

>>10626590
I'll soon be going to ask my professor to give me the equipment needed to eviscerate, cut, extract blood and mucus and preserve a specific fish organs and different tissues.
This summer I'm going spearfishing to get this motherfucker personally and hopefully I will be isolating and characterizing a new antitumoral protein after. I'm really excited, I doubt a professor ever let a second year undergrad conduct its own research, I hope this will help me in pursuing a career as a researcher

[Anonymous No.10628942]

>>10626590
>>10626590
Live alone in >berlin with no real friends except the 3 people I sit with between lectures. Regularly talk to my friends on the phone and play music and vidya to keep myself sane.
The uni is very disorganized, most people in my major are normies or unpleasant and the city itself is noisy.
The only thing keeping me here is the syllabus of my major and because I don’t want to start over again.
Sorry for the blog post, anons

[Anonymous No.10628950]

>>10626590
terrible. I hate my thesis and it takes way longer than I wanted

[Anonymous No.10629053]

>>10628950
I have troubles with my thesis too and my advisors want to use it as a reference course material from the next semester.
The pressure is unbearable

[Anonymous No.10629193]

>>10626590

I feel like I just wanna fuckin die on a daily basis

[Anonymous No.10629211]

>>10629053
pressure is not a problem for me but that I have little interest, consider it worthless waste of time and hate working on it

I dont know how to help you with your sense of pressure except to assure you that you will be fine and even if you failed nothing bad would come from it. you have nothing to lose, only to gain. I wish I felt pressure like you. I think pressure helps you perform better, motivates you. because I dont feel pressure it is all the harder for me to sit down and do the work

[Anonymous No.10629382]

>>10628942
that's what the thread's here for, boyo. being alone in a strange place sucks, especially a big city. Good on you for sticking with it, and keep your head up.

[Anonymous No.10629397]

>>10626590
I finally graduated and have a 70k a year starting job that's fun and challenging. Uni was the absolute low point of my life, and now I feel the happiest I've felt since I was a kid. Hang in there lads, it gets better

[Anonymous No.10629482]

>>10628818
my results (mathematical physics) contain all previous results known in a subject and more stuff. I tried to contact the main researchers on the subject and no response. It was a lot of sleepless nights and sacrifices (had a stomach problem) for little reward. Very frustrating

Anyway, the results brought other interesting things for the future, so it is not the end.

[Anonymous No.10629484]

>>10629397

Congrats dude I hope it goes well

[Anonymous No.10629707]

>>10629397
thanks a lot for your hope kindling words

[Anonymous No.10630021]

>>10626590
I'm probably going to abandon universit when I finish learning python
Fuck electronic engayneering, I wanted to study math and actually got a scholarship offer to one of the best universities in my country but my parents didn't let me.
I want to get into bio-informatics right now, seems pretty cool.

[Anonymous No.10630067]

>>10626590
As a biologist can i become an agronomist with courses, specializations and sheeeit?
Or i must study agronomy?

[Anonymous No.10630102]

>>10630021
>but my parents didn't let me
Fuck them, just email said uni and enroll. Scholarship is a big thing, it is retarded thinking to let it go.

[Anonymous No.10630188]

I'm 6 months into grad school after I pissed my undergraduate away. I'm pretty much in my redemption arc. I worked in a warehouse for 2 years before putting all my money on this last chance. At the same time, I'm studying my fucking ass off. Burnt out two times already and I feel like fucking killing myself. I've literally started taking 3am doomer walks because I stay awake thinking about not making good marks. My first lab rotation went well, but that is because I spend every waking hour preparing for the next day so I'm not completely fucking useless in the lab. Still, I've learned more in 6 months that my entire undergrad it feels like, and I intend on finishing.

[Anonymous No.10630230]

Yea. God is still real and science is satan

[Anonymous No.10630273]

>>10630188
<3
keep at it.

was in similar boat with doing way more hardwork than actual smart people just to get normal shit done which they do it easily.
now im in a better position and patented 3 models in datascience working for govt projects and other similar private projects.
they (the grinds) will help you a lot.

[Anonymous No.10630312]

i'm changing careers and getting out of science

[Anonymous No.10630391]

level 1 PhD exam in a month

I want to die

[Anonymous No.10630621]

>>10630273
Thanks man, your words will probably keep my spirit high for a good few days.

[Anonymous No.10630624]

>>10630312
The herd stays stronger by eliminating the weak

[Anonymous No.10630629]

>>10630621
I said this many times over, but most of the stress in studying and preparation comes from doing stuff when tired. Pay attention to have a good night sleep, make it a priority as well, and you will be much better performer when you are well rested. It pays off as well as grinding and prepping every day. Also helps you keep away from burning out.

[Anonymous No.10630665]

>>10630629
I'll take your advice and head to bed. Have to figure some code tomorrow and fully clean the apartment before the weekend.

[Anonymous No.10630683]

>>10630391
Phds have exams?

[Anonymous No.10630735]

First co-authorship on a paper. It's nth author on a fairly irrelevant publication but gotta start somewhere I guess. Although I have contributed to at least two projects before that should have resulted in coauthorship a long time ago but those never seemed to go through.

I don't think I'm cut out for academia, I can't play the politics/people game nor do I want to. I'm also not really cut out for anything else and what I do isn't really gonna get me an industry job.

Probably gonna just end it when I get my PhD, if I ever get a PhD.

[Anonymous No.10631032]

Still feeling heavily suicidal while failing fucking electromagnetic physics

At least i get to laugh at reatrds with their useless research getting their funding pulled

[Anonymous No.10631091]

>>10629193
same

[Anonymous No.10631100]

Can you become a drug addict and still have an academic career?
I'm seriously thinking about getting into pills to numb the pain.

[Anonymous No.10631109]

>>10629482
What was the subject (if you don't mind)? Admittedly, I don't have experience with this stuff, but I imagine marketing can be harder than the work itself.

[Anonymous No.10631118]

>>10629397
Happy for you anon. What do you do?

[Anonymous No.10631352]

Been falling behind in 1 of my class for 5 weeks. Been having the same obsessive thought again and again. Tbh I wish I would have killed myself earlier, but I make a stupid promise to kill myself only after the parents have died. Now I have to go on for another 10 years.

[Anonymous No.10631356]

>>10631100
I tried to do coke to help me with all-nighters but that just made me crash spectacularly.

[Anonymous No.10631358]

What’s the best way to read a heavy math paper? Do you try to prove each line in a derivation or just take the general idea?

[Anonymous No.10631359]

>>10626590
I've been stumbling at a problem I know should be fairly easy to solve for a week now. I'll get it done soon, I promise

[Anonymous No.10631361]

>>10626590
https://youtu.be/PhAvWdKLq6M
i found out the quantum foam is made out of emojis.

[Anonymous No.10631362]

I'm in Geology and taking my final in about 12 hours.
I'm doing shit in my psychology class so that's going to be the death of me. If anyone knows what part of the brain causes the instinct to smell your fingers after you scratch your genitals can you please let tell me? Seems like a fun thing to know.

[Anonymous No.10631367]

>>10629397
wow... Most of the time I hear people getting even more hopeless after getting a job after uni...

[Anonymous No.10631377]

>>10626590
Just as I'm about to leave, my project actually works, now I'm cranking out data just to prove that I did something

[Anonymous No.10631392]

>>10631362
I had thought about a career in geology but it just never worked out. It really seams like some cool shit though.

[Anonymous No.10631471]

>>10626590
I think I'm too much of a procrastinator for collage

[Anonymous No.10631567]

>>10631392
Yeah, it's fine but very semantic. Most of the class seems like vocabulary and rules. I'm thinking of minoring in history to get into archaeology, or bio so I can go paleontology.

[Anonymous No.10631590]

I am foolishly taking 18 credits in the third year of my EE degree and am currently about a week behind in every class but just aced my Advanced Electrical Circuit Analysis exam so I'm feeling pretty good.

[Anonymous No.10631609]

>>10631471
Yeah me too, I told myself that I would go to CC when I was 22 but now I'm 24 and I'm still a NEET.

[Anonymous No.10631633]

I feel fuckin terrible for not getting any into Yale for grad school , nor getting a job at MIT.I feel my goal of becoming a professor has already vanished cuz I'm doing my graduate studies somewhere no one has ever heard of.

[Anonymous No.10631640]

>>10631352
Just sit down and grind like in one of your anime games. Make this one your game, where the winner gets the money and the poontang

[Anonymous No.10631643]

>>10631633
Who cares, do your studies, get your paper and walk into MIT like you own the fucking place. Charisma, even if a fake one quickly overwhelms those nerds and gets you the job.

[Anonymous No.10631647]

>>10631590
>taking 18 credits is hard
Dude, 16 credits was the minimum required to finish a semester with 30-35 being the norm at my uni. And it is one uni no one heard of outside of my small country.

[Anonymous No.10631654]

>>10631647
>30-35 being the norm at my uni
Sounds like you use a different system, because in the US an undergraduate degree is ~120 credits, standardly done at 15/semester, to complete the degree in eight semesters or four years. Upper division EE credits are more time consuming than lower division credits, and my university has shortened (timewise) semesters to be able to run three semesters per year to be more efficient, which makes the hours per week per credit more. But it's really mostly the difficulty of the classes. When I was doing 18+ credit semesters m first few semesters my course load took a fraction of the time they do now.

[Anonymous No.10631655]

>>10631654
You must be talking about BA. My BSc was 200 credits to complete in 7 semesters minimum, taking an extra 8th semester after the absolutorium for working on thesis if needed.

[Anonymous No.10631658]

>>10631655
>200 credits to complete in 7 semesters minimum
You use a different system. It's not comparable without finding a conversion. Are you retarded?

[Anonymous No.10631664]

>>10631647
>>10631654
>>10631655
>>10631658
>not using ECTS

[Anonymous No.10631668]

>>10631664
I have 215 ECTS credits BSc in 7 semesters. Is it good?

[Anonymous No.10631671]

>>10631668
Its a different system, they’re worth less relative to US credit hours because what’s being measured is fundamentally different. We use “contact hours” which is oriented around class time+study time and euros use work load time which is more study/assignment oriented. They provide the conversion in the link or you can just look it up

https://www.mastersportal.com/articles/1110/what-you-need-to-know-about-academic-credit-systems-in-the-us.html

[Anonymous No.10631691]

>>10626693
Based

[Anonymous No.10632018]

I want to make a YouTube video but have no inspiration for a good script and this saddens me.

[Anonymous No.10632023]

>>10631100
>Can you become a drug addict and still have an academic career?
there's a functioning phase during addiction that lasts different times for different people

[Anonymous No.10632036]

>>10626590
I've began to study math. I've compiled the /sci/ meme, a bunch of precalc I need , so that I can begin my calculus course. I've also recently discovered the AoPS book curriculum and I've decided that I need those as well. I'm aspiring to be a C.S student at a University by September 2020. I have 6 courses to finish with a high grade and I've been out of highschool for 4 years working on and off in the trades, switching between NEET and normie. I've loafed around for about two months going through Langs book and I've been having trouble understanding exactly what he's saying sometimes. I have mapped out basically everything I need to do using xmind and I've began calendaring my days. I've been getting in shape as well. My only issue is bad habits tend to fuck up everything for me. That, and I'm not so sure I can do it. I got a lot of shit on my plate, and I'm starting to feel like I bit off a bit more than I can chew. The AoPS curriculum really exposed my lack of education in mathematics. I feel like the only way to get good at anything is to drill it endlessly until you feel confident, and then test yourself even more. This idea of mine is both inspiring and draining. I just want to be able to support a family.

[Anonymous No.10632042]

>>10626590
I have a job as an MEP engineer and I just passed my FE Exam! Lately my gf has been neglecting me/treating me poorly, but that mostly because shes in her last semester of college and is student teaching at the same time so shes very stressed.

Now that i finished my FE, i don't have to go home and headbutt a text book every night, so things are looking up. I'm in the early stages of considering a master's in nuclear engineering.

Its been rough the past few months, but things are beginning to turn around now.

Thank you for asking Anon. I need this today. it feels good to talk about it.

[Anonymous No.10632044]

i really love you guys, this thread has me tearing up

[Anonymous No.10632724]

>>10632044
weakling

[Anonymous No.10632910]

>>10626667
h5

[Anonymous No.10632970]

After much self-inflicted suffering I think I'm on track to do well on my exams since I've got enough revision in.

Other than that my master's dissertation was likely a complete shitshow because I spent an entire 2 years putting work off. Also I have no social life, no real work experience and no idea or motivation for what to do with my life.

[Anonymous No.10633009]

My fourth first author paper just got published. My second paper (application note, only me and my advisor as authors) now has twice as many citations as my advisor's second most cited paper.

I'm behind schedule on my (part-time) PhD work because I was focusing on pushing those papers out and they aren't directly related to my thesis topic. Fourth year review coming in September.

[Anonymous No.10633044]

>>10626590
I'm more /eng/ than /sci/ but i got full time employment and i hope to also get my graduation work accepted. It's about artificial intelligence where I aim to be able to sift our relevant data depending on input compared to output, I aim to train a language model from scratch in my native tongue (which i'll release to the public) and then use transfer learning to focus it to be able to find a match for resumes/CV's and application texts.

Best case: I'll manage to pull it off, but i doubt it since it's sort of technical and I have to do it in 10 weeks without ever having done even a language model before. Worse case: I'll produce a fairly competent language model which I might be able to redo the project from within a year or so.

To be honest I'm still slightly anxious that my skills are enough for the employment I've gotten, but it's signed and everything so i guess they can't really back out from it anymore? All the denials from all the interviews over the years has sort of persuaded me into believing that surely I'm not fit to work anywhere, that I'm somehow fooling the company which employed me by simply learning what i should say during the interview instead of being able to pull it off irl. I'll prove that notion wrong though, I'll have to work harder. Their trust shan't be for nothing.

[Anonymous No.10633234]

I am studying how a lineage of 2 very different families with some common behavior can form a half working bipolar human being.

I am slowly descending into madness as these 2 sides contract and react and pile up decades worth of stress and confusion from contradiction.
My left hand feels very playful, stern psychotic, my right hand feels very anxious, weak, gentle, benevolent.
It mentally hurts when I throw punches with my veiny right hand, but I feel nothing when throwing punches with my more dexterous left hand.

Half my genes are soft and gentle, the other side are indifferent and sadistic.
Their common ground is that none are positive and truly benevolent. It's like a stereotypical evil boss and evil henchman.

Very interesting, if it wasn't for the fact they're so predictable boring and it leads me to desire suicide. It seems that's the only positive revelation this brain feels, which concludes that some combo of genes are just flat out happy with seperation and hate each other.

[Anonymous No.10633683]

>>10631643
Yea you're right. I'm trying to remember that the quality of my research is more important than the name of the school I'm going to

[Anonymous No.10633695]

>>10630188
you can do it anon I believe in you