[ 3 / biz / cgl / ck / diy / fa / ic / jp / lit / sci / vr / vt ] [ index / top / reports ] [ become a patron ] [ status ]
2023-11: Warosu is now out of extended maintenance.

/sci/ - Science & Math

View post   
File: 72 KB, 1280x640, p02q824y.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google]
10334873 No.10334873 [Reply] [Original]

Here is the concept of the thread : you write about a personal life experience, and you or someone try to explain certain aspects of this experience using neuroscience

>> No.10334903

>>10334873
When I was a kid, at a normal school, I used to be forced to have sport each weeks for a good amount of time, and then I had a few time the weekend to practice my personal "passions"(CS and making video-games). I was quite productive and learned quickly. During the school breaks, however, while I had more time to practice, I didn't practice as much as when I had school. All I did was procrastinating

At this time, I was aware of this paradox but I wasn't able to understand it, I was just saying "Why am I productive only when I don't have a lot of time to be?"

I had a lot of frustrations with my "passions", all because I'm not patient, trying to do certain projects I didn't have the skills to achieve yet. But I never abandoned and somewhat was able to become better each weeks.

But then, my mom decided to put me in online schooling. With that, I started to have much more free time, but all I did with it was discussing on 4chan and watching porn.

I didn't write a single line of code for nearly a year. I also had bad sleep habits and rarely met the required 8 hours of sleep.

Anyway, that's when I started to understand the source of my mediocrity. My reward system is completely fucked up. Not only because I watch porn, but because I don't have sport no more. When I start a project, I do stuffs that leaves me in frustration because I lack the knowledge to finish them, and then I lose my passion because I'm not rewarded and fall in a loop of mediocrity. When I was in public schooling, this frustration never made me abandon because I had sport and it provided me a good amount of dopamine, and then I was able to overcame my frustration in my passion and become better.

Now I'm not at school no more, but I'm a NEET who continues to live in an endless cycle of mediocrity.

I guess my problem has something to do with dopamine and oxytocin, but that's all I know. I would like to know the neuroscience behind that.