/sci/ - Science & Math

>Begin last semester, August.
>Full ride scholarship to my first-choice college
>Studying Mechanical Engineering
>Supporting Family, Gorgeous and Supportive Girlfriend, Great Roomates, a Fantastic Apartment Dorm (paid for), and I knew a ton of guys already in my dept.
>Semester begins
>Don't sleep
>Poor time management
>Assignments become increasingly unmanageable due to above
>Fuck up royally and bomb the Calc 1 Final, and the Chem final.
>These two are the heaviest weighted, and despite A's and B's in other classes, my first semester GPA is torn to shit
>Loose scholarship
>Dropped from the Honor's college
>Having to re-take three classes this next semester, meaning I'll have to take Calc 2 and Physics over the summer semesters.
>Feel like shit man.jpg
>Briefly consider suicide
>Realize how retarded and cowardly that sounds
>Dust myself off, preparing currently for this semester
>Taking "soft" classes in addition to raise my GPA
>Family and gf still supporting me

Things are terrible, but I feel OK. Not "good," but OK. Still, College isn't the same anymore. I'm not "excited" about it. I regret my decisions, but I feel that I've learned some valuable lessons, and that I've matured greatly from this experience.

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Does ANYONE hear know that feel?