/sci/ - Science & Math

The knowledge that I'll be an absolute failure if I don't buckle down and study (instead, I'll have a degree but always know deep down that I'm sub-par because my intelligence isn't on the level I'd like.)

Making money.
>100kstarting.png

Good fucking question. Semester starts tomorrow and I have zero motivation. Halp

My nucleus accumbens.

Sex with attractive and smart men.
That's basically it.

>>5021404
Why?

>>5021394
Too bad that's impossible.

Nothing. Absolutely nothing, that's why I'm committing suicide very, very soon.

>>5021407
Please don't.

>>5021405
>attractive
>smart

Choose one, no Bond.

Knowing that, however small, my studies and employment somewhere will have a contribution toward greater scientific understanding as a whole that the human race has, and allows us to eventually go further than we ever have and learn more than we could have ever imagined. To find all of the tiny, beautiful things that make up this universe and why they act the way they do. To gaze up at the sky or down at the soil because any which way you look, there are amazing things happening, intricate systems with algorithms and beautiful patterns, and so much of it is still a mystery to us. Just imagine what we could do with all of that knowledge.

...I would also like to pilot a spaceship.

>>5021409
But they exist, silly Anon.

>>5021412
You're one, aren't you?

>>5021407
Honestly - this is how I felt about two years ago. Then I discovered my potential, and saw how wonderful things can actually be. Please - we need more people like you, like most of the people here, in this world. We need to fight back against the ignorance prevalent in society. There IS something that each one of us can do, and with everyone combined, we can accomplish great things.

>>5021410
the way you write reminds of
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oY59wZdCDo0

>>5021373
Pic related. I take lots of notes of what I read.

Also solving small problems, and doing things I haven't done before

>>5021408

Why not?

Our value system is all fucked up in all sorts of ways.

What's the point? None at all, I'm just wasting space and valueable resources for other people who probably are better at life than me.

I'm so tired of all this bullshit. All the theatrics we play on each other just to be civil, all the stupidity from the craddle to adulthood...

I'm really tired of all this game. It's pointless.

>>5021428
Learn to enjoy the sport, because why not? :3

>>5021385
>worrying about degrees


there is a difference between smartness/intelligence and wisdom, failing to acquire wisdom is true failure


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3-PFZG77iQo

The last day you have on earth, the person you became will meet the person you could have become.

>>5021442
[citation needed]

>>5021428
Because there are FAR more people who are absolutely retarded that are reproducing more than smarter people are.

Yeah, there's a lot of theatrics with normal humans, but once you enter your field or start doing awesome things and exploring science, there is far less of that. People just accept you for who you are.

I asked one of my CS major friends what the dev office he works in is like, and if they have a dress code. He said, "It doesn't matter as long as you wear clothes."

Once you start only hanging around people with similar interests/life views and goals as you, all of that facade and false civility and bullshit just fades away, because most of the people that think like us see right through it.

>>5021428
Because that would be pathetic. Stop acting like a victim. Millions of people would literally KILL just to be in your shoes. Re-posting this because it's awesome and you should listen to it:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3-PFZG77iQo

I want to see what's possible.

>>5021483
People who say anything along the lines of "think about what you're doing" are grossly misunderstanding depression.

Opiates. My next high. Not even kidding.

Oh, and the high I receive from acquiring new knowledge and creating/inventing.

>>5021510
For what purpose?

I'm developing the next Facebook. So... money.

Avoidance behavior, I'm ashamed to say. I'm avoiding a wretched state of existence, and a painful, ignoble death of suffering and regret. That's the human condition.

SO...I try and apply my conscious mind towards noble pursuits, fulfilling a sense of divinity in myself, the world and potential spirituality that we can't comprehend, whether this is some magical spirit-force, or a multi-dimensional "without time" interface presided-over by mega-intelligences, I have no idea, but if our awareness of ourselves means anything, that's where my mind tends to wander when I'm made aware of my instinct for avoidance behavior.

I need dosh to realize my dream of traveling around the globe

>>5021421
>sagan series
my nigga

I'm a scholar. I enjoy scholarly pursuits.

>>5021498
So taking some time to think about your life is not something you should do? Why? No seriously. When I was depressed it was what I did. I sat down, and started writing down things that I was grateful for. I called people just to talk. I sat up really arbitrary goals to accomplish, things like move my bed from one corner to the other. The goals got bigger and bigger until I was cured of my depression.

>>5021462

I don't know any people with similar interests like me, most of them are idiots on some level different than me. I am an idiot too.

>>5021483

That's not the point I'm making. I'm not a victim. And what if I was? Would that be a fucking problem? I don't care what people think or say that is negative torwards my feelings. They are mine and if I feel the need to express them I will. There is no problem _at all_ doing that. And you are not obliged to listen or read them.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8d4DHgVBSL8

Believe me, if I could change places with someone else... I would without second thought.

But... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z5_RP1NLTAQ&t=2m7s

>>5021513
The purpose of the project or the purpose of the money?

The latter should be obvious.

i don't need motivation (a reason to do something) for my motivation
BOOM

>>5021533
Yes, that would be a fucking problem. You're acting like a little bitch and wasting an amazing opportunity to discover the world around you.

Instead you wander around seeking attention, even on a place like this. Why? That's truly pathetic. I think you're being a stupid attention whore. Nothing more. I bet you're getting angry at this very moment reading this, that's good, depression is nothing more than suppressed anger. So go prove me wrong, prove that you're not some little bitch. Though I think you can't, I think you'll fail, and you know what? I think you deserve it.

Pussy.Anyone saying otherwise in this thread are deluding themselves.

;)

Life isn't even real. Reality is a shared facade. Who cares.

>>5021551

Why are you trying reverse psychology on me?

How old do you think I am? (And I'm not implying that I know more than you.)

I know what you're trying to do, I've seen those arguments (and others) countless times. It's of no use.

But thanks for your help.

And don't get me wrong, I am grateful for everything I've got, what was given to me and that which I achieved.

Here, have a cool song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YQWszrZHBPI&t=7s

Harder, better, faster, stronger.

I know there's no actual point about it. I know in general terms nothing is going to change. I know nothing is relevant.

This knowledge has fucked my mind for years.

But I've recently discovered that it doesn't matter. Life is like a videogame. There are no actual rewards when you finish it. It just fades out as soon as you turn the screen off.

But, hell, I enjoyed it.

So now I just let all this mindfucking stuff apart. I take profit of it, as I know it while others don't, but I don't let it block me. I just keep going and enjoy the game.

>>5021550
you don't have a reason to do things?

I have so much ambition, i feel like i have no motivation at times.

Honestly, while it seems many people don't have ambition, i have like 11+ majors i would like to pursue to a post-graduate level (at least), i have varied interests, multiple hobbies, i just don't have money, and i don't want to take out the hundreds of thousands in loans that would potentially be involved...

So i try to work toward something i can be at peace with, and try to study alone on the side. I guess my motivation comes in bursts, when i realize i'm no where near where i could be. I am in frequent competition with an idealized version of self that has unlimited energy and gusto. He's an asshole and makes me feel behind. Gotta catch up...

Respect, money, social-status,power, bitches, acquiring knowledge. Pretty vain, but that works for me..

>>5021385
Holy shit are you me?

My computer is ruining my life. I have no resolve. Everytime I sit down to study, I hardly last fifteen minutes. What's even more pathetic is I usually have nothing better to do. Is it okay to waste my life away with video games and music?

People tell me I'm intelligent and shit, but it seems so fucking unfair to them - the people that work hard - that scum like me gets the brains. Jesus, and I'm not even that bright.

>>5021570
>reverse psychology
>trying to help
BWAHAHAHA

I don't give 2 shits about you if you're that stupid. I meant everything I said in that post.

>>5021743
are you me?

I've always been smart, so I've never needed to put any effort into school and homework. Thus, my self discipline is at zero.

The world needs more black inventors that don't focus only on peanut butter and shoe products. I'll develop more ways to interact with my 2D/video game girlies! And after that, I'll start an eroge company in the U.S! It will be such a huge success and rake in millions that I'll be able to move out from a standard office to a luminous skyscraper! And then I'll buy out facebook and remove facebook from existence! I will be crowned the messiah of the internet, savior of mankind! My image will be engraved in history textbooks for years as the father of the pedophile movement!

>>5021483
>Millions of people would literally KILL just to be in your shoes.

Who would be desperate to be suicidal?
Unless you mean there are people who would kill to have what he has, but keep their own minds, in which case your point is completely irrelevant.

>>5021790
>>5021743

do what a mate of mine did recently with the start of the new year; sell computer and buy cheap laptop that wont run games

he's out nearly every day now socializing, and if he is on his laptop its mainly recently productive things like wathcing movies (stuff you can talk about with others, atleast)

DO IT! Dont worry about a vacume of time, it'll fill itself up

>>5021803

But... you're black

>>5021790
>>5021743
I used to be like that. It doesn't work after a point. I can only assume you are both in high school. No?

>>5021790
Damn that feel.

>>5021884
Not either poster, but I can relate too. I'm in a Masters program, and while I still have to "study" some, it's nowhere near the amount of work that my peers apparently put forth.

In a math course, for instance, I can read a section, familiarize myself with a few examples and then do a couple practice applications/problems to make sure. While everyone else in the class does every problem offered in the book and still doesn't seem to fully grasp the concepts in the end.

>>5021407
You can't, it's physically impossible to commit suicide, your survival instincts won't let you.

Just try it.

money, success, power.

>>5021923
>no one commits suicide ever

The chance at making progress towards biological immortality and rejuvenation for the elderly. I know it probably won't happen in my lifetime, but I'll be damned if I won't try anyway.

Interest in the subject.
All of you who say money, respect and/or women are plebeians.

fear and caffiene.

>>5022073
No one said women. I'm fairly certain everyone in /sci/ is homosexual.

>>5022086
This is the TRUTH.