/sci/ - Science & Math

>>14860915
it’s unironically testosterone. at least, my experience leads me to believe as such.
>prior to male puberty
>cry all the time because I love the catharsis of crying when I feel bad, and growing up in an abusive home I often felt bad
>go through male puberty, all emotions flatten or express themselves as rage
>take HRT and transition to living as a woman
>cry all the time and once again enjoy catharsis
>detrans for a multitude of reasons, cease taking HRT after 10 years
>cannot cry for catharsis anymore, rage has mostly gone away
males are inherently destructive creatures. it isn’t as necessary that males survive as we are not the child rearing sex, so when our environment scrambles our brains our physiological response is to destroy our environment or destroy ourselves. females have a vested interest in coping with their environment for survival reasons, but males can (and quite often do) simply try to kill it or kill themselves trying

this is why a love of peace and tranquility continues to be such a revolutionary and radical philosophy that even apparently intelligent men fail to see for their attachment to the self-destructive instinct described above.

the trick is not to desire a state where you are not suffering any longer, as that state is inevitable (i.e. death). the trick is to desire suffering, thus the vicissitudes of your life’s fortune will always please you.

>tl;dr
desire is the cause of all suffering, and it is because we desire what we do not have. desire what it is you already have, and you will overcome suffering.

>>14860915
Just force yourself to do it. Doesn't it give you migraines and eye pressure when you hold it in?

>>14860915
> I live in constant suffering but for some reason I'm never able to cry and when I try I feel like I'm faking it. It results in me never being able to express what I'm feeling so I always look and act like nothing is wrong even though I'm dying inside
That's pretty based. Too bad you don't actually look like Dolph Lundgren.

>>14860974
Its not based actually, it makes me suicidal. I picked Dolph because he is a good representative of masculinity, not because I look like him

>>14860966
You're severely mentally ill

>>14860998
>it makes me suicidal
That's super-based, especially if you commit a brutal suicide.

>>14861021
You first Soulless Chang

>>14860966
Men are creators and men are destroyers. Both the greatest warriors and the most profound advocates for peace were and are men. Women are wombs.

>>14861054
Umm... I'm a girl and I'm white. Dark and brooding men make me super wet (only if they look like Dolph, though).

>>14860915
You're not supposed to cry, retard. Why do you want to cry like a woman or a child?

>>14860974
Why would any male want to look like dolph langran? He's overgrown and inferior. Males are supposed to be ~3'10" and lean and super athletic

>>14860915
>I live in constant suffering
Humans evolved in the presence of alcohol. The human male is meant to quench these sissy feelings at the mead-hall, drinking, singing, fighting, and slapping the waitress’s ass

>>14860915
>I live in constant suffering but for some reason I'm never able to cry and when I try I feel like I'm faking it.
Yeah, if you're "trying" to cry then it's fake. Just talk about what you're feeling and the tears will come on their own.

>>14860915
Veganism

>>14860915
>I'm feeling so I always look and act like nothing is wrong even though I'm dying inside
This has always been the entire essence of being male. In the last 50 years you get to do that while people who make your life harder or people who you work for the benefit of screech at you for oppressing them.

>>14860966
>five paragraphs of troon projection about men being inherently evil and women being inherently good

So did you chop your balls off and totally ruin your body, or were you one of the ones who is more like just a cross-dresser with a voyeurism fetish?

>>14860915
What you're describing is the result of the patriarchy. Standards and expectations of masculinity are assigned to men. Many of which are harmful to both men and women. As you can see in your case where men are expected to be stoic and not show emotion or feelings. Then men and women are stereotyped when people say and think men are less emotional than women. They take it further and say it's inherently biological which isn't the case. You've been held hostage so long by gender roles that you don't even know how to express your emotions. What ends up happening is men bottle up their emotions because they've been told that's what men do and don't receive the same support systems that women do because men are apparently different and expected to deal with it themselves. It's no wonder men don't live as long as women and have higher rates of suicide. Men are disproportionately diagnosed less with depression than women because they don't seek help.

This is why if you're a man you should want to see the patriarchy destroyed. Men should also be feminists too. As they say,
>What's good for the goose is good for the gander

>>14862227
>What you're describing is the result of the patriarchy.
They are results of women being soulless cunts and nothing else. You know a board is dead when teenage female normies fresh off of Twitter start infesting it.

>>14862234
>Once they have achieved equality, they will be your masters
>Being scared of women

>>14862266
Back to your normiehole, dull cunt.

>>14860915
lmao, faggot

>>14860966
>"DUDE, look at this word i learned.... CATHARSIS!!!"
You are such a worthless faggot. How lucky for rats like you, to hide on the internet rather than get beat senseless and dragged to death on the highway as you rightfully deserve.

>>14861004
>>14861057
>>14862193
>>14862579
cope, seethe, dilate, YWNBAM

>>14860915
Why do you think you need to cry?
Have you tried not thinking you need to out of a warped sense of what is expected of a human?

>>14863459
Well-played. Feminist oppression is clearly harmful to men.

you don't hate being male you just hate being an autist. embrace it. it's a superpower. once you start writing papers i'll be jealous with the ease at which you become successful, you fucking lucky asshole

>>14860915
yes this, literally this. sometimes i want to cry aloud but all i can is to produce a pair of tears :(

>>14860966
so you're a repper who use stoic/buddhist copium, am i right? sorry it's hard to believe in everything you've written here

>>14860915
Testosterone. Dampens emotions other than anger and sex drive.

>>14860915
You’re just depressed.

>>14860915
There is a certain limitation to the human brain that makes it hard to be aware of itself and its thoughts at all or most times.
This confusion and lack of understanding makes the brain try and recollect what it remembers and tries to explain it. This is why there are many attempts to explain consciousness.

What works best is to just live in the moment, don’t care what others or you think about anything. Live and act pragmatically as changes occur.

This is a very short summary of what I’ve learned from years of depression, and it was a very gradual process to come to this realization.

I can’t telepathically teach you, so this is the best I can do. Ponder a bit about it and see where it foes from there.