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only if we do it together

>>11248586
fren, whatever you're going through is temporary. don't deny yourself life the possibility of happiness in the future.

>>11248588
why would u do it? i have nothing to live for anymore. dont do it. i know u're not a lost case like i am :(

>>11248592
you can always find something to live for. don't give up on yourself like that.

>>11248592
i have severe mental problems and would be helping society get rid of me

>>11248591
it's been for years. i dont feel part of anything. nobody cares. nobody has time for me. everything i do, i fail in it. i turned 26. never had anyone. i feel like an alien.
i am forced to live in an empty house since jan 1st
i cant. no job. no house conditions. no help. just pain and suffering.

>>11248594
what mental problem do you have?

>>11248597
disassociative disorder, schizophrenia, severe depression, piece of shit to people, some others undiagnosed

>>11248605
Can you build muscle though? There's still hope

>>11248595
i'm sorry to hear that, fren. but i promise you this is temporary even if it seems permanent. it doesn't have to be. i'm sure there are things you have accomplished and if not you just may have to search a bit more and find something you're good at. trust me, ending it is not the answer to anything. have you at least tried therapy?

>>11248605
can be managed. there are silver linings to these things, many people with mental illness have found ways to use them to their advantage. some of the best music for instance comes from depressives.

>>11248593
ive tried but i have nothing. nothing and no one. there is no use in suffering anymore. i cant do it

>>11248620
keep searching. it's not an easy task to find meaningful purpose but it's out there for everyone including you, fren. have you at least been to therapy? don't end it till you have exhausted all options. and i can guarantee you that you haven't exhausted them, no one has.

>>11248613
yes. i cant take most meds because i have epilepsy that cant be cured cuz i was born with it

no meds can help me. ive been thinking about death since i was like......7 maybe
i didnt know why but i just wanted it. ive been depressed all my life. and when they did MR they saw i was born like that, a monster

there's no need for me to live. i hate myself more than other hate me

>>11248638
you're not a monster, fren. i struggle with severe OCD daily and i have found how to hone it to my advantage. you can do the same, i promise you. may be go to a psychiatrist. at least call the crisis hotline in your region pls.

>>11248636
i did. i even did hypnosis, nlp and d.brain stimulation
nothing can help me. ive been suffering for yrs now. i feel like the worst person alive

>>11248648
you're not the worst person alive, from the way you type you seem very far from that. don't give up on yourself. can you do me a big favor, fren? call the crisis hotline.

I can't force myself to give bullshit advice on why you shouldn't do it because I've been there myself and know how useless it is. Despite that, I do want to say how I genuinely don't want you to do it anon. It pains me that I can't possibly explain my retarded rationale that personally got me over being suicidal but I do hope that you survive all this suffering and find your own reasoning.

>>11248646
they arent available and theres only 1.
i cant suffer anymore. i am forced to live in an empty house and all other things....
i cant even text any ''friends'' i dont want to be weak or idk...a monster i am. i dont want to attention whore this. if i can do all pens, i should be dead by morning without no one noticing it and that way no one can idk...stop me or reverse it

>>11248657
thank you. i just hope this all ends as soon as possible.

What, exactly is it that has you so depressed? What thought keeps repeating in your head to make you feel that way? Why do you feel like a monster?

>>11248659
you can call 911, hospitals help with emergency psychiatric conditions and this qualifies. please, fren. you're not a monster. don't be so hard on yourself, you deserve to treat yourself better.

Wheres the livestream?

>>11248666
1 i have a really dark childhood
2 an epilepsy that cant be even operated
3 this....sadness and depression people are used on me that no one even cares about it. no one
4 i am forced to move into an empty, dead moms house that doesnt even have bathroom in the middle of winter
5 the things ive been throrugh life make me feel dirty, evil, useless, worthless
6 i want to be with my mom. she was the only one that cared about me and she died of cancer in front of me. she was dying for hours and i was there. i couldnt help her. i still have dreams of her in her grave or dying and dying over and over again
or i dream of my funeral. everything is cold and black and always raining at my funeral

>>11248683
yea i want it. i cant do it anymore.
last week i sent a message to a person i thought he's supposed to be a friend and he replied that ''weak people who cant fight and idk worship God disgusts him and i shouldbt be in his life''
that just made me want to kill myself more

>>11248690
none of this sounds like that of a monster. you sound like you are experiencing cabin fever while being trapped in a place that reminds you of someone who was close to you. your mom, wouldn't want you to kill yourself. especially over her like this. if the house is in your name, sell it and find a new place that isn't so remote. you know your mom would want you to live on and find happiness and i believe you can do it, fren.

>>11248690
Baby boy dont you do that. If I was there I'd be your girlfriend and take care of you :(

>>11248699
have you got any way I can contact you? we could talk for a bit, about anything not just suicide

>>11248699
you can find real frens, fren. good people are out there. they may be hard to find but you can find them.

>>11248715
i'm a girl

joke all you want, i know how 4chan is with girls. and no i am not posting pics of tits or anything

>>11248714
>>11248719

make a online chatroom or something. i dont know

>>11248725
do you have discord?

>>11248720
no, no one has time for me. u guys send some nice messages and in real life its hell
they are openly make me feel terrible i feel this way. i dont want to even talk about it anymore. i dont want to seem like an attention whore
if i am going to do it, i have time to get stone cold until morning and everything will be unnoticed at least 2-3 days

>>11248732
i have time, what's your discord?

>>11248726
no :(((

>>11248737
I dont have discord! :(


and i am not a guy so if any of u hate me cuz i am i not, its fine

i feel like its useless. as time is going by i just want it more and more.

>>11248740
make an account, it's easy. works in browser so you don't need an app. and tell me your account and i'll add you, fren.
https://discordapp.com/

>>11248725
Listen here little baby. You're gonna get a lot of hurtful and degrading comments, but that ain't what I'm about. Let me just say, you are perfect the way you are. You hear me sugar? PERFECT. Don't ever change. You deserve anything and everything you want. Stay safe for me, baby girl. >mfw thinking of you hurting

>>11248745
i have no reason to hate people for what dangles or doesn't dangle between their legs. get a discord and we can talk and maybe become real frens too. i'm always looking to make frens.

>>11248746
>>11248745
https://discord.gg/m4DFrg i made this real quick join if you make an account and we can talk

>>11248746
>>11248752
Kek, this guy tryna smash

>>11248753
lol

>>11248755
nah, i'm a volcel through and through. too many relationships gave me that wisdom.

>>11248755
no. I am out of it then. I will be dead but he will not smash anything.

>Attention-whoring muh feefees :'( thread
Fucking jannies do your job

>>11248768
Lmao, you're still in it, retard