/sci/ - Science & Math

>>10948562
>>10948529
I know that feel

>>9885102
Every time bro

>>7560970
>Tfw all our bodies care about is living long enough to fuck, have kids, ensure their survival, and then die

4th year physics student here. Ever since i started playing video games in middle school my grades have been average at best. I left elementary school with the highest grades and scored top on the CITO test (Dutch test for last year elementary schooler which determines to what secondary education level you can go, got 550). Won this prize from this grammar school for solving a maths quiz with zero mistakes at an open day. Was really good at it and enjoyed it. However I got bullied a fair bit and didn't fit in too well. I turned to video games, shooters are what I liked best, maybe because I could vent my emotions through it. But as I got better at the games, I started struggling with the coursework. It felt as if I was becoming a failure more and more and this just fueled my video games behaviour. Like a spiral I descended further into shit. I graduated with average grades, but long before I had my mind set to become a physicist. I loved the sciences and it always had fascinated me. As I started my academic career I was still playing video games. I fucked up quite a fair bit of courses because I played too many vidya. The fact that I had to travel each day for 1.5 hours to uni and another 1.5 hours back home didn't help much either. It was half through freshman year I finally fixed myself a student dorm via some friends. Freshmen in de Netherlands had to get at least 30 ects to not get their asses kicked right outta uni. I worked my fucking ass off the rest of the year and got 45/60 ects. It felt great I achieved at least this. Now not too long ago I still hadn't given up vidya. Only a few weeks back I decided to call it like it is. Vidya fucked me up, ate my time and gave nothing in return. It ruined my appetite for study and destroyed my GPA. Enough was enough. I am 23 years old now and have seen the shit vidya does to you.