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As a guy, I look at gay porn. I can not remember the last time I saw regular porn. I believe there are two reason for this. One: deep down, when I see the women in porn, I know it's fake. They are fake and disgusting, not like a true women. This is a turn off to me. In gay porn, it's harder to tell, in my opinion, it's fake, mainly because it's hard for me to imagine someone having a gay relationship not just for sex(I know there are, I just can't imagine it). I know I am still attracted to women, just not ****ty ones in porn. Two: gay porn is different. I have seen how this addiction has grown. At the beginning, I was disgusted at the thought a gay porn. But as I became numb to the porn, things got old and boring. I wanted change. So I looked at gay porn. And now I'm addicted.

The devil(I'm not putting blame on him. I'm to blame for my choices) has tempted me. It started out with just porn. Then I was forced to lie to my parents. Now, when I look at porn, I commit even more sins, sins that are specifically listed in the bible.

I know I'm rambling, but with my new commitment, I thought I would let everyone on this site, not just the guys, know about my struggle. Thanks for reading.