/sci/ - Science & Math

>>9240148
ARE YOU THE FUCKING FAGGOT WHO KEEPS GETTING MY UNIVERSITY IP BANNED ON 4CHAN?

FUCK YOU I JUST WANT TO SHITPOST IN PEACE

How do I even bother doing anything when the below greentext is happening 24/7? When I study theoretical stuff I feel like an effete nerd. When I try practical shit I feel like a dumb dabbler. If I read books I feel like a loser following the well trodden path. If I don't read a lot of books I feel like I will be rejected by society for being a pleb. I am tortured by everything I do or don't do.

It feels like everything is a combination of having a certain type of autism, having good looks, or luck. In other words, it's all luck.

When I read a book and get bored after 60 pages, I beat myself up because I don't have the autism necessary to read for 10 hours in a row.

>read about some guy trying to make a basic 2D multiplayer online game and all the hard and smart work it took when barely anyone played it
>see some academic's CV where they have been doing hard as fuck mathsy shity for YEARS, probably with a brain that's hewn like a marathon running bodybuilder compared to my skinnyfat dyel brain
>think of all the thousands of teen boys on the internet who made thousands or millions because they did some clever real world shit that sounds stupid but elevates them above 99 % of the population (bought the "fuck.com" domain name; sold cheetos in Taiwan and created a national craze; bought bitcoin or ethereum while bored in school)
>look at linkedin and see hundreds of "Eton - Oxford - Goldman Sachs / McKinsey -FatStax Capital Management" while they're 25
>see people on tv and realise they're all getting paid hundreds of k to read autocue
>realise all the women in my office have mastered the art of being normies and will do better than me in the corporate and public sector world; they probably all have sugar daddies

>somehow go from Wikipedia articles about sexual selection to a famous geneticist / evolutionary theorist
>he did a maths degree as an undergraduate

Every day that passes since I left university I regret more and more not doing a maths or physics degree.

I am going to stop going through SICP. I will study maths. I will do codemonkey style programming while only looking at CS concepts when I need to.

Jesus, I knew as a 12 year old that everything at school sucked except maths. This is what happens to kids. They have to be educated in to becoming ignorant.

Has anyone else blown their chances of ever achieving anything intellectually worthwhile?

I liked my subjects at school but thoughtlessly picked a chemical engineering degree. Even at its best, a chemical engineering degree is just introductory maths / physics / chemistry courses along with a load of job training-esque stamp collecting courses. A fourth year physics student could easily learn any part of the equivalent chemical engineering student's curriculum, but vice versa is obviously not true. I feel really sickened to have wasted my time in a glorified job training degree. I have my entire life to waste on pointless "professional" BS, so to have a university degree that is glorified job training is depressing.

In addition, I picked my nearest university instead of the best possible for my grades and realised halfway through that the courses have much less content and depth than other universities and employers consider me dumb. My courses were a huge joke compared to what I've seen from other universities. As an example, I got to fourth year without knowing what dev, grad, eigenvectors, or curl were, and I didn't know the difference between a model and a theory, (and this is the UK, so I took zero phsyics courses).

Sometimes I feel like an unwarranted snob to criticise my university so harshly, but it deserves criticism when it skips entire topics that other universities teach to all STEM students. And it got government money because I chose it. What a fucking joke, they have almost no incentive to offer courses with proper content. It loves advertising its old age but it offers shallow shit.

I remember one really stamp collecty course in fourth year that I really fucking hated and realising that other fourth year students at a good university, doing maths or physics, would be learning almost cutting edge secrets of the universe stuff. I knew that it made no difference whether I did well or not, I would still have achieved literally fucking nothing.

>>7499716
>get called for interview
>interviewer is pink collar HR chick for meh-tier network admin job at an AT&T-contracted call center
>"You seem to be a great candidate, but you only have an associate's degree in IT and we are looking for someone with a bachelor's degree in computer science or engineering."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sKqt6e7EcCs

Holy shit, look at the comments section of this youtube page. Are there really this many people in the world who think of pure mathematics in this way? I must hang around too many educated elitists, because I don't think I know anyone who would think the inane thoughts found in those comments.