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>>938387
>>938304
To be honest I get why you don't understand, I don't understand it myself, lied to myself for so long, but I just want to feel comfortable with myself. At the same time,I really hate being like this, I hate feeling like this, if I could, I'd much rather be a feminine gay guy, but that's just not what I am, I wouldn't be being true to myself acting like that. Sometimes I'd rather be dead than trans, because I know I can't turn back time and be reborn 100% female, this will always be a second choice. I feel horrible being this way, but I've come to realize there's no other way to be happy, and with the alternative being death I don't really have a choice but to go through with it.